A bored and uncommon childhood

Let me talk about my story even more and create connection between boredom and other things...​

Foremost i grew up in a small town in Italy..
i had (still have it now) a paraplegic spasticity caused by premature birth... so my legs always looked crooked.. i mean like you can actually see it from photos even now!.
i had several problems with math related subjects, for a period of time it was difficult for me even to write letters with a pen i put too much pressure into it and it was harming! i didn't have a good calligraphy, it took me a long time to achieve a decent (comprehensible for others) level.
i didn't linked with other classmates, really liked to stay by myself or in a different area seeing things at a distance... so friends were not something easy to have in fact i didn't had any till i reached 12.
i mean sometimes i tried to go their houses and it didn't end up very well, so in my sparetime i was liste

ning to a lot of music on radios or cassette.. and sometimes i was literally poisoning myself because i had an attraction on all things chemical and dangerous somehow...like drinking fabric softener only to end up to first aid! or just rolling down the stairs ending with some bruises!
i think i was doing this because i was bored as fuck and i wanted to feel something or do something new!... in a sense this remarkable trait of doing something NEW still remains with me but i don't poison or physically harm my self anymore! or at least so i think ... other than that i created so many imaginary friends that helped me cope with lots of things that happened in those early 2000 and even part of the 90's cause i was born in June 1994... by the way coming to the very beginning of what i remember there's a vivid image: i remember i was sleeping in the cradle had something like 4 or 5 years.. and i just climbed up to slide

down on the outside i was heading to the kitchen, but i have to really lean on the wall of the hall cause i was terrified by those Venice masks on the wall,my mother liked those terrible monster that much, that the entire wall was full of it like 5-6 of them!.
when i finally reached the kitchen with my heart still racing, i picked up the remote with those colored buttons and turned on the tv on music channels... the first song that i remember "king of my castle" i literally stay glued to the TV when that was airing.
This was the beginning of a passion that i still have and crave obsessively today... LISTENING TO MUSIC.. and back then little did i know that that song had elements of psychology, technology, anime which are things that i still like to this very day... i mean i think they shaped my personality! MAN IT'S INSANE I HAVE this level of detail i feel astonished by the amount of things i have to tell! for good or worse! anyway that's all for now let's see IN THE NEXT EPISODE!