So I spent the day with my grandmother today. I broke down crying discussing the situation with my mom. It was so sudden and powerful and my chest hurts now because I was forcing myself to stop the flow and get under control.
I'm my mother's primary caretaker. She has MS and it's been progressing rapidly since I turned 18. She's had it since she was 21. My grandmother has power of attorney with her, so we're both dealing with watching a once strong woman lose her power, intelligence and freedom. It's incredibly painful but I'm usually "good" about internalizing it.
It's times like these that just make me more angry I don't have a boyfriend to go to. It's one thing that I broke down in front of a family member... but the support is pretty much expected in that situation. The test of support from a lover would have been more important to me.
I'm my mother's primary caretaker. She has MS and it's been progressing rapidly since I turned 18. She's had it since she was 21. My grandmother has power of attorney with her, so we're both dealing with watching a once strong woman lose her power, intelligence and freedom. It's incredibly painful but I'm usually "good" about internalizing it.
It's times like these that just make me more angry I don't have a boyfriend to go to. It's one thing that I broke down in front of a family member... but the support is pretty much expected in that situation. The test of support from a lover would have been more important to me.
