Yep...i brought home roses and dinner and got a surprise..yet lookin back past few years..in a big way i should not have been...many friends and family have expressed thier sorrow...and I do feel sad/sick, and failed in many ways...yet after 34 yrs and never living my own life my own way, i decided to not fight this event...Life is always changing, for now lookin a head....and living alone, mite be harder than i thought, i suspect i am tough enough to handle this event. My despair and fear has passed with help of a few good friends..I am back in the saddle again...Jeff