I realized today my profile includes my previous blog entries. BORING!!!!! So I decided I should at least try to write here occasionally, though it may still be boring!
I have been out of work since the beginning of September. Already diagnosed with clinical depression, this has been really bad. I hate to admit it, but truly, a couple times the idea of ending my life seemed my only way to get out of having to pay rent with money I don't have.But somehow I find the strength to soldier on, hoping I don't become one of the many who live under cardboard boxes.
Its not like I'm not trying, ya know? This week alone I filled out 12 apps and had 3 interviews. And its not like I dont have education and skills, so wtf is going on? It is so very discouraging some days- the phone and cable are due again soon. I already had my car repossessed. Never in my life has it been this bad.
So today I came here. The place that somehow has always managed to lift my spirits- :biggrin1: uploading more nudie pics is always a way to chase the voices from my head for awhile! Most days, I am just so down I can't even come here and contribute to the threads, I feel I've nothing to contribute.
well tomorrow is another day and I am re-vamping my resume. lmao @ vamping. Oh the naughty ideas that generates!
:hug:
I have been out of work since the beginning of September. Already diagnosed with clinical depression, this has been really bad. I hate to admit it, but truly, a couple times the idea of ending my life seemed my only way to get out of having to pay rent with money I don't have.But somehow I find the strength to soldier on, hoping I don't become one of the many who live under cardboard boxes.
Its not like I'm not trying, ya know? This week alone I filled out 12 apps and had 3 interviews. And its not like I dont have education and skills, so wtf is going on? It is so very discouraging some days- the phone and cable are due again soon. I already had my car repossessed. Never in my life has it been this bad.
So today I came here. The place that somehow has always managed to lift my spirits- :biggrin1: uploading more nudie pics is always a way to chase the voices from my head for awhile! Most days, I am just so down I can't even come here and contribute to the threads, I feel I've nothing to contribute.
well tomorrow is another day and I am re-vamping my resume. lmao @ vamping. Oh the naughty ideas that generates!
:hug: