I am a complete N-E-W-B at both of these, for various reasons (for one of them, see previous blog entry). I just havn't wanted to involve them in my life when I'm going through heavy stuff.
I have no idea how to flirt with girls, and have never even asked a girl out ever, which is another reason I've never had a girlfriend. I am usually COMPLETELY oblivious that any flirting is going on at all, and if I get suspicious, I try look for some innocent reason for her behaviour or a joke. I am only mentioning this, so that you know the following blog is going to be laughably tame compared to some of the other experiences talked about on this board.
So this little blog entry is about the times when THEY have flirted with ME......and related ramblings. Honestly, I'm not even sure this is flirting, but it just feels like it, so here goes.
1. Scorching blonde with the amazing body: Lets call her Kate
Now this girl is a serial monogomist (The monogomist part is a little iffy). I LOVE the way she dresses. Not too much skin (just enough to re-assure you how smooth and soft she it), but nicely fitted clothing that shows off the shape of that sexy bod and leaves you thirsty for more.
So I was at a friend's potluck, and decide to head to the pub cuz I know she and some other friends are going to be there. I walk in, and she spots me, and immediately heads over to say hi. She's a little tipsy, and tells me that I look good as she draws close and straightens out my collar. She pulls me to the dance floor. Now if I'm confident about one thing, it's that I know how to dance or atleast move to the music and not make a complete fool of myself. Honestly, I like dancing. But I feel uncomfortable when I'm dancing with a girl, especially if she wants to be up against me, because I feel a little like a creep, and I also don't like other people knowing about any romantic feelings I have about girls. This is especially the case because I fear rejection if the girl finds out. This is also one of the reasons I find it hard to be a little aggressive and initiate flirting. ANYWAY... so I dance a little and then pull her back on the pretext of going over to our other friends and talking. While we are in the group, she holds on to my shoulder, smiles, and whisper's in my ear that she might have to take me to her home tonight. I diffuse the situation by laughing it off, because I'm unsure, and we all have a great time at the pub as a group, so that's that.
Some time later, I've had been talking to her on msn, about various platonic things, and one night the second I sign on, she messages me and tells me that I should come out to the pub. She's all giggly and a little tipsy, and I find out that my regular group of friends aren't going to be there, because its during spring break and they are all at home (meaning, no judments). She asks me again to go to the pub and types something like "teehee" or something to that effect which I see as a flirty giggle. When I show hesitation, she keeps saying I should go to the pub. I know it is not a good idea to get anything going with this girl, because it cannot turn into a relationship, because she is already seeing some guy, and I don't want to do it for the first time (read: I am a virgin), with some girl just as a one night stand, no matter how hot she is. Sometimes I really surprise myself with my will power (I have also never touched alcohol...go me!).
Another time, months later, we are walking to the pub, and are a little ahead of some friends, and she is once again all giggly and jokingly feels my stomach and chest. I'm laugh and say I've just been violated. She laughs and says, hardly. She's still giggling and says, "I'm single you know?" I consider it a joke, and laugh it off. Then change the topic...
I know, really lame. But I just enjoyed the moments when they she flirted. And she is sooo hot, seriously, I'm talking insta-boner, accompanied with that weak stomach feeling, and ears turning red. Sometimes I kick myself for not continuing the (alegedly) flirting conversation and just seeing where it goes, but all the times that I discourage myself from anything romantic, I know I was right not to do anything with this girl.
This girl took up a lot of time to write about. I'll write about the other girls later. Sorry if I bored you if you took the time to read this, but it was fun reliving the moments.
I have no idea how to flirt with girls, and have never even asked a girl out ever, which is another reason I've never had a girlfriend. I am usually COMPLETELY oblivious that any flirting is going on at all, and if I get suspicious, I try look for some innocent reason for her behaviour or a joke. I am only mentioning this, so that you know the following blog is going to be laughably tame compared to some of the other experiences talked about on this board.
So this little blog entry is about the times when THEY have flirted with ME......and related ramblings. Honestly, I'm not even sure this is flirting, but it just feels like it, so here goes.
1. Scorching blonde with the amazing body: Lets call her Kate
Now this girl is a serial monogomist (The monogomist part is a little iffy). I LOVE the way she dresses. Not too much skin (just enough to re-assure you how smooth and soft she it), but nicely fitted clothing that shows off the shape of that sexy bod and leaves you thirsty for more.
So I was at a friend's potluck, and decide to head to the pub cuz I know she and some other friends are going to be there. I walk in, and she spots me, and immediately heads over to say hi. She's a little tipsy, and tells me that I look good as she draws close and straightens out my collar. She pulls me to the dance floor. Now if I'm confident about one thing, it's that I know how to dance or atleast move to the music and not make a complete fool of myself. Honestly, I like dancing. But I feel uncomfortable when I'm dancing with a girl, especially if she wants to be up against me, because I feel a little like a creep, and I also don't like other people knowing about any romantic feelings I have about girls. This is especially the case because I fear rejection if the girl finds out. This is also one of the reasons I find it hard to be a little aggressive and initiate flirting. ANYWAY... so I dance a little and then pull her back on the pretext of going over to our other friends and talking. While we are in the group, she holds on to my shoulder, smiles, and whisper's in my ear that she might have to take me to her home tonight. I diffuse the situation by laughing it off, because I'm unsure, and we all have a great time at the pub as a group, so that's that.
Some time later, I've had been talking to her on msn, about various platonic things, and one night the second I sign on, she messages me and tells me that I should come out to the pub. She's all giggly and a little tipsy, and I find out that my regular group of friends aren't going to be there, because its during spring break and they are all at home (meaning, no judments). She asks me again to go to the pub and types something like "teehee" or something to that effect which I see as a flirty giggle. When I show hesitation, she keeps saying I should go to the pub. I know it is not a good idea to get anything going with this girl, because it cannot turn into a relationship, because she is already seeing some guy, and I don't want to do it for the first time (read: I am a virgin), with some girl just as a one night stand, no matter how hot she is. Sometimes I really surprise myself with my will power (I have also never touched alcohol...go me!).
Another time, months later, we are walking to the pub, and are a little ahead of some friends, and she is once again all giggly and jokingly feels my stomach and chest. I'm laugh and say I've just been violated. She laughs and says, hardly. She's still giggling and says, "I'm single you know?" I consider it a joke, and laugh it off. Then change the topic...
I know, really lame. But I just enjoyed the moments when they she flirted. And she is sooo hot, seriously, I'm talking insta-boner, accompanied with that weak stomach feeling, and ears turning red. Sometimes I kick myself for not continuing the (alegedly) flirting conversation and just seeing where it goes, but all the times that I discourage myself from anything romantic, I know I was right not to do anything with this girl.
This girl took up a lot of time to write about. I'll write about the other girls later. Sorry if I bored you if you took the time to read this, but it was fun reliving the moments.
