I know it’s frustrating to anyone expecting meet-ups to have these lurkers on board. It’s a pain that there are so many people out there that won’t commit to a meet-up. I stroke on here periodically and I have a little following. People who’ve made my video a ’50 favorites’ or something. But I don’t know if I’ll ever actually meet anyone from this board.
Here's the thing. I miss sucking cock. I really do. How I got here is a long story. I feel like I have to tell someone, and this is as good a time as any. So please, just let me go on. This is for me really. I guess I'm looking for some kind of understanding or forgiveness. Maybe some kind of satisfaction.
I love women. I love fucking women, I love having sex in every conceivable fashion with women. I love cunts. I love to eat them, I love to fuck them, I love to grab a woman’s ass and feel my balls empty deep in her cunt. I love to feel my cum flow into a woman’s mouth.
I also love sucking cocks. And that I really miss. I used to suck all the time. I used the Cruise Line in Calgary to get connected and find guys. This was before the internet connection rooms were established.
Ok. I’ve been married for a little over 10 years. It was around that time that I became sober and I haven’t looked back. I love my wife dearly. Really. She is the light of my life. And my kids. I don’t know what to say. I love them more than life itself and I would give my life for these people. And I will never break my vows. I never have and never will. I made a vow to forsake all others. I will forsake all others. But I the desire for this sex – this fat cock to suck sometimes gets me crazy.
I have had some great experiences in my life. The last one was months before I met my wife. It was a Cruise Line meet-up. Typical of my style at the time. Call the line, wait to get connected, record the greeting – I still have it memorized more or less, “40 year old Bi Guy, extremely attractive, seven and a half inch cut cock, five inches around, shaved balls. Very oral. Love to suck, love extended jack off and suck sessions. Love to sixty nine. Love the taste of pre-cum. looking for another very attractive Bi Guy for a suck session at my place right now”. I’d usually get 5 or 6 quick replies indicating ‘right now’ suits fine. I’d take my pick and chat for a few minutes to get acquainted, then give out my apartment number and address and get ready.
I’d put some lube on the edge of the bathtub – I always told them we’d start in the shower, I can’t take bad hygiene– and a couple of candles on the vanity, then wait.
The buzzer would ring and a guy would come up. There was always a bit of awkwardness when the door opened, I was very lucky I guess. No-one unacceptable ever came my way.
We’d just walk to the bathroom, I’d turn on the shower and we’d both get undressed. I’d go first into the shower and usually just let the water flow over my body for a minute, then turn around. We’d both be hard by then. It’s a pretty exciting thing to do. So, I’d tell the guy to get under the shower and while he was there, I’d kneel down. If he was facing me I’d grab his ass and kiss the head of his cock, then grab some soap and lather his balls and cock. If he was facing the shower, I’d spread his ass cheeks and have a look. Soap goes there too. Then I’d have him rinse both sides and get at it. If he was facing away, I’d reach under and hold his balls while I spread the cheeks again. First I lick his asshole, squeeze his cock and then push against the bud to see if he’d let my tongue in. If so, I’d push and feel the hot hole swallow my tongue as far as I could push. I love to rim and hooking my tongue up inside an asshole is something I’ve never had a problem with. After a few minutes, Id’ turn him around and grab the shaft. One thing I love about handling someone else hard cock is that the feeling is completely different. Mine always has a little ‘give’ on squeezing. Another guy’s cock feels like a piece of stone. I guess it’s because I can’t feel it give from inside. Anyway – I begin by squeezing and usually by this time I’m rewarded with some pre-cum. I love that taste and it entices me to take the knob into my mouth. This first introduction is so nice ( I remember when I used to go to the video booths in Inglewood to get my cock sucked through the open doors – once one guy asked, “…do you suck cocks? Want to come back to my place?” I replied that I didn’t and got on with it – I remember what he said to this day, “You should try it, it’s nice.” – the very words I just used to describe that first touch) the slick shiny head feels like heaven and it’s so hot to suck gently and pull it back onto my tongue. This time, I reached for the lube (water based, always) and squeezed the tube into my hand. Holding the cock head in my mouth, I squished the lube up against his balls and wrapped both hands, one on top, one on the balls and spread the lube up and down the shaft. This brought a moan of delight. It usually does. At that point, it’s just instinct. Suck, squeeze, stroke, squeeze, suck, lick. I love to push the tip of my tongue into the slit and I usually tell the guy that I intend to “suck so hard on the tip when you squirt that it will feel like you’re pissing instead of cumming.” And that’s exactly what I love to do. I like to take it as deep as possible. This is one reason I love all size cocks. The big ones are great to marvel at – a beautiful thing to stroke and look at, the small ones are great because I can take them all the way to the balls and down the back of my tongue and fuck them with my mouth as if it was a cunt.
This time I was stroking the guy when sort of unexpectedly, I saw a lump of shiny white goo start to squeeze out the tip. Just appearing. That first pulse of sperm. I took the head in, just to the back of it so that the slit was resting on my tongue and closed my lips around it. I sucked hard. Really hard. And pulsed the ‘suck’ – hoping to time it to his squirts.
I like the way cum happens. I like the flow of jizz – the water that comes on like a gushing hose, and I like the lumpy sperm – the worms of matter that ooze out of the slit and get pushed out again by another squirt of jizz-water. I love the way it all happens. I love to watch it, love to suck it into my mouth. I’ve been known to drink it from a glass, lick it off a table, or a cock, a set of tits, or even have it drain from a hot cunt directly into my mouth.
Anyway – this guy squirted some great load of juice. I could feel it fill my mouth and run out the sides. I love to swallow, but I’m also careful. Sometimes, it just tastes purely evil and it makes me gag and almost puke, so I have to really be in the mood or very excited to take that ‘gulp’. This one is big, so I suck for a while until I’m sure he’s finished, and then let it all drain down my chin and onto my chest.
I don’t remember how he satisfied me. I usually don’t – I long for the experience of sucking and taking a load by whatever means, but my own squirt doesn’t stay with me. I likely jacked off into his mouth or let him stroke me. Honestly, I’ve been told by numerous people that I squirt an absolutely unbelievable amount of cum. I do. It’s amazing. Usually ten to twelve great gushing pulses of pure watery jizz and if it’s presented on a table or a flat surface, it’s filled with three or four great lumps of sperm.
So that was the last one I remember.
More to come.
Here's the thing. I miss sucking cock. I really do. How I got here is a long story. I feel like I have to tell someone, and this is as good a time as any. So please, just let me go on. This is for me really. I guess I'm looking for some kind of understanding or forgiveness. Maybe some kind of satisfaction.
I love women. I love fucking women, I love having sex in every conceivable fashion with women. I love cunts. I love to eat them, I love to fuck them, I love to grab a woman’s ass and feel my balls empty deep in her cunt. I love to feel my cum flow into a woman’s mouth.
I also love sucking cocks. And that I really miss. I used to suck all the time. I used the Cruise Line in Calgary to get connected and find guys. This was before the internet connection rooms were established.
Ok. I’ve been married for a little over 10 years. It was around that time that I became sober and I haven’t looked back. I love my wife dearly. Really. She is the light of my life. And my kids. I don’t know what to say. I love them more than life itself and I would give my life for these people. And I will never break my vows. I never have and never will. I made a vow to forsake all others. I will forsake all others. But I the desire for this sex – this fat cock to suck sometimes gets me crazy.
I have had some great experiences in my life. The last one was months before I met my wife. It was a Cruise Line meet-up. Typical of my style at the time. Call the line, wait to get connected, record the greeting – I still have it memorized more or less, “40 year old Bi Guy, extremely attractive, seven and a half inch cut cock, five inches around, shaved balls. Very oral. Love to suck, love extended jack off and suck sessions. Love to sixty nine. Love the taste of pre-cum. looking for another very attractive Bi Guy for a suck session at my place right now”. I’d usually get 5 or 6 quick replies indicating ‘right now’ suits fine. I’d take my pick and chat for a few minutes to get acquainted, then give out my apartment number and address and get ready.
I’d put some lube on the edge of the bathtub – I always told them we’d start in the shower, I can’t take bad hygiene– and a couple of candles on the vanity, then wait.
The buzzer would ring and a guy would come up. There was always a bit of awkwardness when the door opened, I was very lucky I guess. No-one unacceptable ever came my way.
We’d just walk to the bathroom, I’d turn on the shower and we’d both get undressed. I’d go first into the shower and usually just let the water flow over my body for a minute, then turn around. We’d both be hard by then. It’s a pretty exciting thing to do. So, I’d tell the guy to get under the shower and while he was there, I’d kneel down. If he was facing me I’d grab his ass and kiss the head of his cock, then grab some soap and lather his balls and cock. If he was facing the shower, I’d spread his ass cheeks and have a look. Soap goes there too. Then I’d have him rinse both sides and get at it. If he was facing away, I’d reach under and hold his balls while I spread the cheeks again. First I lick his asshole, squeeze his cock and then push against the bud to see if he’d let my tongue in. If so, I’d push and feel the hot hole swallow my tongue as far as I could push. I love to rim and hooking my tongue up inside an asshole is something I’ve never had a problem with. After a few minutes, Id’ turn him around and grab the shaft. One thing I love about handling someone else hard cock is that the feeling is completely different. Mine always has a little ‘give’ on squeezing. Another guy’s cock feels like a piece of stone. I guess it’s because I can’t feel it give from inside. Anyway – I begin by squeezing and usually by this time I’m rewarded with some pre-cum. I love that taste and it entices me to take the knob into my mouth. This first introduction is so nice ( I remember when I used to go to the video booths in Inglewood to get my cock sucked through the open doors – once one guy asked, “…do you suck cocks? Want to come back to my place?” I replied that I didn’t and got on with it – I remember what he said to this day, “You should try it, it’s nice.” – the very words I just used to describe that first touch) the slick shiny head feels like heaven and it’s so hot to suck gently and pull it back onto my tongue. This time, I reached for the lube (water based, always) and squeezed the tube into my hand. Holding the cock head in my mouth, I squished the lube up against his balls and wrapped both hands, one on top, one on the balls and spread the lube up and down the shaft. This brought a moan of delight. It usually does. At that point, it’s just instinct. Suck, squeeze, stroke, squeeze, suck, lick. I love to push the tip of my tongue into the slit and I usually tell the guy that I intend to “suck so hard on the tip when you squirt that it will feel like you’re pissing instead of cumming.” And that’s exactly what I love to do. I like to take it as deep as possible. This is one reason I love all size cocks. The big ones are great to marvel at – a beautiful thing to stroke and look at, the small ones are great because I can take them all the way to the balls and down the back of my tongue and fuck them with my mouth as if it was a cunt.
This time I was stroking the guy when sort of unexpectedly, I saw a lump of shiny white goo start to squeeze out the tip. Just appearing. That first pulse of sperm. I took the head in, just to the back of it so that the slit was resting on my tongue and closed my lips around it. I sucked hard. Really hard. And pulsed the ‘suck’ – hoping to time it to his squirts.
I like the way cum happens. I like the flow of jizz – the water that comes on like a gushing hose, and I like the lumpy sperm – the worms of matter that ooze out of the slit and get pushed out again by another squirt of jizz-water. I love the way it all happens. I love to watch it, love to suck it into my mouth. I’ve been known to drink it from a glass, lick it off a table, or a cock, a set of tits, or even have it drain from a hot cunt directly into my mouth.
Anyway – this guy squirted some great load of juice. I could feel it fill my mouth and run out the sides. I love to swallow, but I’m also careful. Sometimes, it just tastes purely evil and it makes me gag and almost puke, so I have to really be in the mood or very excited to take that ‘gulp’. This one is big, so I suck for a while until I’m sure he’s finished, and then let it all drain down my chin and onto my chest.
I don’t remember how he satisfied me. I usually don’t – I long for the experience of sucking and taking a load by whatever means, but my own squirt doesn’t stay with me. I likely jacked off into his mouth or let him stroke me. Honestly, I’ve been told by numerous people that I squirt an absolutely unbelievable amount of cum. I do. It’s amazing. Usually ten to twelve great gushing pulses of pure watery jizz and if it’s presented on a table or a flat surface, it’s filled with three or four great lumps of sperm.
So that was the last one I remember.
More to come.
