Night Thoughts...

I wrote this a few nights ago because the words in my head wouldn't let me sleep...
Today my vivid rainbow is only shades of gray.. My brilliant shining light is no longer in me but a light at the tunnel's end, far beyond my reach. And all I can ask is 'Why?' Why must I not be myself? Why must I keep my true self in binds, hidden beneath a daily facade? Or, perhaps, a better question would be 'Why must they display such hate toward me for whom they believe I might be?' Why must I continue to fall victim to such an ill-perceived idea? They hate me for something that doesn't in the least affect their lives. They hate me for something that was never my choice. They hate me for something I hate just as much as they. And, perhaps worst of all, they hate me for something that is not true. Everyday my heart grows colder and darker, and there... in that icy cold darkness the only light seems to be lifetimes away.