I seriously want to get off this planet by any means, whether by suicide, asteroid, me blowing it up, space travel etc. Anything to be away from stupidity. Away from humanity. Away from negativity. But none of these idiots will let me have my peace. So maybe I'll make my own. Self-harm is still an option for me. I long for that eternal slumber yet my pesky conscience keeps me from that paradise. I need to get rid of it somehow. It's worthless to me now, just like everything else in this world.