The realization of me being gay hit me like a sudden wave when i was in high school.. lots of my classmates where making fun about me not watching boobs of other girls or not flirting to any girl at that time, but i was sincerely having difficulties in learning subjects especially math related subjects and that just gave the idea that it was not good for me being in a relationship cause it will consume my time and leave little to no effort to studying.
When they confronted me and said: "you must be a fag, we will hear news of you TRANSITIONING in thailand" i always said to them. "ok, and if that's the case how it bothers you then?, people have to be free to love and be who they really are, you must be considerate cause those words can hurt other people!".. they kept laughing and i kept believing i was postponing relationship only for the study... poor soul how little did i knew my self!.. things were complicating cause i had an extraordinary friendship in elementary school with a girl and we had a "relationship" if that's what you can call it in elementary school! but that's a story for another time.. now back to the present (ehm...no really it's way beyond present now haha) i used to go drinking coffee at the machines just to move out of the classroom cause i had a
chings in the legs and also was bored and zoned out as fuck most of the time!.. and i saw this beautiful (i think congolese) guy.. and i said in my mind "oh what beautiful body he has, what lips i would really like to kiss!....... WAIT WTF did i just say?!... OMG! so all the things people were saying are ACTUALLY TRUE! couldn't really contain myself! it's like someone has opened a floodgate of emotion.. i was in SHOCK! didn't knew whom to talk about it and had this thing in mind for weeks or even a month!
One day i went to my sister bedroom to give her clothes and she told me "why you don't clip your nail, are you gay or what?... you can tell me!" i hesitated a lot then i said "i don't really know, i think i am! there's a black guy which i found very attractive but it's a new thing for me"... OH MAN IF SHE WAS IN SHOCK.., she said to me that in the family everybody had suspects but never told or insinuated this to me!.
i can say now I'M REALLY somewhat ANGRY about it i mean how could THEY know ME better than myself, this was unacceptable in a strange way.. anyway she said everybody hoped it was not like that cause it wouldn't be easy to live as a gay man in this society YEAH THAT'S TRUE and especially was in 2013... now i'm not really an extroverted man even tho for the majority of people seems so! LEO ASC. i guess haha...anyway this is just the start and i'll be gong back and forth in my life story to give detail! SEE YOU SOON HOPE YOU ENJOYED!
When they confronted me and said: "you must be a fag, we will hear news of you TRANSITIONING in thailand" i always said to them. "ok, and if that's the case how it bothers you then?, people have to be free to love and be who they really are, you must be considerate cause those words can hurt other people!".. they kept laughing and i kept believing i was postponing relationship only for the study... poor soul how little did i knew my self!.. things were complicating cause i had an extraordinary friendship in elementary school with a girl and we had a "relationship" if that's what you can call it in elementary school! but that's a story for another time.. now back to the present (ehm...no really it's way beyond present now haha) i used to go drinking coffee at the machines just to move out of the classroom cause i had a
One day i went to my sister bedroom to give her clothes and she told me "why you don't clip your nail, are you gay or what?... you can tell me!" i hesitated a lot then i said "i don't really know, i think i am! there's a black guy which i found very attractive but it's a new thing for me"... OH MAN IF SHE WAS IN SHOCK.., she said to me that in the family everybody had suspects but never told or insinuated this to me!.
i can say now I'M REALLY somewhat ANGRY about it i mean how could THEY know ME better than myself, this was unacceptable in a strange way.. anyway she said everybody hoped it was not like that cause it wouldn't be easy to live as a gay man in this society YEAH THAT'S TRUE and especially was in 2013... now i'm not really an extroverted man even tho for the majority of people seems so! LEO ASC. i guess haha...anyway this is just the start and i'll be gong back and forth in my life story to give detail! SEE YOU SOON HOPE YOU ENJOYED!
