The Will

My grandmother passed away. She was my step-grandmother, but she was in my life from the time I was born.

She was very strong, forthright and I grew a stronger appreciation for her as an adult. I could ask her for advice and she knew how to relate and empathize without judgment. She knew how to solve a dilemma.

She was also an amazing cook, but it was her strength that I admired and loved her for. I miss her for selfish reasons, because I miss her for what I need from her. My needs? *ugh*

I made it to my grandfather's funeral earlier this year and so her passing away this month was a shock to all of us. I also went to her memorial. I managed to get through it without crying, until her son's eulogy. I tried to be supportive for her adult children, who lost their mother.

I got a copy of her will. She included me in it. She left me some money. Why did she do that? I feel a little surprised and wish I had a chance to say goodbye to her. Yet I feel so fortunate to have her in my life and I should have paid her for the advice she gave me ... I loved her so much.

*sigh* rest in peace, J.