Reading some of your personal stories on this thread breaks my heart and I genuinely feel for you. In comparison, I guess my lover and I are truly blessed. We've lived together for over 20 years now and from the beginning of our relationship we made the commitment to get the other person off at least once a day and at first that meant pretty much exclusively penetrative anal fucking as we seeded each other (we're both versatile). We also agreed not to ignore or turn down the other's sexual advances but to embrace the sexual needs of the other in order to strengthen our bond that brings us closer together. If one person comes on to the other in a sexual manner, we go with it and don't treat it as a chore or obligation to the other. As the years have passed, we continue to get the other off in a variety of ways every day - whether it's mutual blow jobs, jerk offs, or full on anal sex breading each other with our seed. Anyone in a LTR knows that intimacy doesn't always mean sex because as you grow together you also find tons of other activities that are very intimate. But, but in our case, in addition to other intimate activities, the sexual needs and advancements of the other are always satisfied. We don't just go through the motions, but genuinely and actively have the desire to fulfill the other's sexual needs. My body belongs to him and vice versa, and since we are sexual beings, that means our bodies can and will be used for sexual gratification regularly. Since we're both nudists, our bodies are visible and available to each other anytime and anywhere in the house. It's not uncommon for one or both of us to jack off in the presence of the other while in the middle of a conversation or whatever. Most times, that self gratification will lead to mutual sexual activities with the obvious goal both of us cumming either in or on each other (we've never used a condom). Thankfully, our sex drive hasn't really slowed down, but has certainly changed over the years. Our love for each other has naturally deepened but raw anal sex has always been a big part of our closeness.