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I had this crush on one of my professors in my uni in my first year. He has a wife and a kid so I know I had no chance. But I still tried to talk to him as much as possible. Like I would ask him to have a casual conversation with me if he has time. At first it was going well, we shared our interests and some stories. But after like 3 or 4 meetings, he told me that it was inappropriate and I should stop this. I had to respect that after all we are teacher and student and he is right. I never told him I liked him but I think he sensed it. Maybe that's why he told me to shop.
After about a year, just when I started to move on and was about to let go of this feeling, I found out that professor was having an affair with one of my classmates. It was a group assignment and I was in the same group with that classmate. So one day when we were discussing our project, he left his laptop on when he went to the bathroom. I needed to see his part of the work so I went and took a look of his laptop.
I know it is wrong and I didn't mean to see his WhatsApp messages. But I did (there were new messages so I clicked on it like a reflex reaction). I saw the professor messaging him saying he misses him and that if he is available tonight. I scrolled up and switched out the tab until I saw the one of the professor's messages "I will shave my beard if you think they are annoying when we kiss"
I think i was scared, angry, and sad at that very moment. But I went back on my screen trying to act normal as best as i could. I never mentioned what I saw for weeks but I thought about the messages every day.
After about a year, just when I started to move on and was about to let go of this feeling, I found out that professor was having an affair with one of my classmates. It was a group assignment and I was in the same group with that classmate. So one day when we were discussing our project, he left his laptop on when he went to the bathroom. I needed to see his part of the work so I went and took a look of his laptop.
I know it is wrong and I didn't mean to see his WhatsApp messages. But I did (there were new messages so I clicked on it like a reflex reaction). I saw the professor messaging him saying he misses him and that if he is available tonight. I scrolled up and switched out the tab until I saw the one of the professor's messages "I will shave my beard if you think they are annoying when we kiss"
I think i was scared, angry, and sad at that very moment. But I went back on my screen trying to act normal as best as i could. I never mentioned what I saw for weeks but I thought about the messages every day.