I guess I just want to write out my feelings and am not really look for advice, my issue is it isn't a real breakup since we were never really dating but I did message him a lot on Snapchat and sometimes Gridr late into the night. So I kinda feel like it was maybe a something that could have been (even if it never really was)? I think it's more of the idea of it that I'm trying to get over.
So a couple months ago this hot 21 year old would check out my profile and I once messaged back I liked his hair and another time I complimented his shirt. I'm 41 but he thought I was attractive to him- he did admit to having a daddy fetish. I told him I thought he was hot enough to get any guy and was surprised he was interested in me but he said I'd be surprised how he actually did on Grindr. He thought I was more active than I was too so I guess we both overestimated each other.
He's a couple towns over but timing (he works second shift) and car issues when the time might have been ok prevented us from ever actually hooking up. Now we did exchange nudes and talked about what we wished we could do (and like, his underwear interest). So it wasn't like we were super close though. He liked calling my daddy sometimes and we had talked about playing into it.
I did get a view into his life a bit as he posted about everything in his life. His friends, his dealing with depression, his new tattoos, what his mom made for dinner etc. I really liked his taste in music. I would message him about his posts from time to time, he responded more to the jokes I made than when I was sorry he was having a bad day.
I don't really post that often and when I did it was like of my cat and he would see the story but never really responded to any of mine. Yesterday I noted he posted a story with someone's face behind him and captioned it "I miss you" I wasn't sure if it was a boyfriend or a friend but didn't ask. I did have him in my Grindr favs and noticed he hasn't logged in for days now.
And today I posted a dickslip while out sunning myself to my story, they're just for friends and on this account it's just gay guys from FB and Grindr. I thought I'd check in and see if anyone noticed it and saw he's now in my subscriptions and not my friends. The snapmap doesn't list him. He did view my story though, so he saw my dick post and unfriended me.
I guess if he's got a boyfriend he doesn't want some guy posting dick on his friendslist. And since we never really were anything he doesn't owe me anything but it happens to me more than once. I've had a guy on FB who used to send me dicks at work then stop showing up in my timeline, and I check him out and he's got a boyfriend listed and we're no longer FB friends.
And other guys unfriend me after getting a boyfriend too, even when we weren't dirty chatting. One guy re-friended me though without ever saying anything about it, though he's in a relationship now so I wouldn't count on seeing him in my timeline. Maybe that's part of how I'm feeling. Like i'm only ever a good time, and I know i'm not really in a place for more anyway but I would at least like a "welp now I have a boyfriend".
Oh well, I guess I have defended ghosting if a person thinks it's better for their mental health and maybe it was for him. Maybe he just needed to unfriend the sex posters without confrontation and concentrate on his real life.
So a couple months ago this hot 21 year old would check out my profile and I once messaged back I liked his hair and another time I complimented his shirt. I'm 41 but he thought I was attractive to him- he did admit to having a daddy fetish. I told him I thought he was hot enough to get any guy and was surprised he was interested in me but he said I'd be surprised how he actually did on Grindr. He thought I was more active than I was too so I guess we both overestimated each other.
He's a couple towns over but timing (he works second shift) and car issues when the time might have been ok prevented us from ever actually hooking up. Now we did exchange nudes and talked about what we wished we could do (and like, his underwear interest). So it wasn't like we were super close though. He liked calling my daddy sometimes and we had talked about playing into it.
I did get a view into his life a bit as he posted about everything in his life. His friends, his dealing with depression, his new tattoos, what his mom made for dinner etc. I really liked his taste in music. I would message him about his posts from time to time, he responded more to the jokes I made than when I was sorry he was having a bad day.
I don't really post that often and when I did it was like of my cat and he would see the story but never really responded to any of mine. Yesterday I noted he posted a story with someone's face behind him and captioned it "I miss you" I wasn't sure if it was a boyfriend or a friend but didn't ask. I did have him in my Grindr favs and noticed he hasn't logged in for days now.
And today I posted a dickslip while out sunning myself to my story, they're just for friends and on this account it's just gay guys from FB and Grindr. I thought I'd check in and see if anyone noticed it and saw he's now in my subscriptions and not my friends. The snapmap doesn't list him. He did view my story though, so he saw my dick post and unfriended me.
I guess if he's got a boyfriend he doesn't want some guy posting dick on his friendslist. And since we never really were anything he doesn't owe me anything but it happens to me more than once. I've had a guy on FB who used to send me dicks at work then stop showing up in my timeline, and I check him out and he's got a boyfriend listed and we're no longer FB friends.
And other guys unfriend me after getting a boyfriend too, even when we weren't dirty chatting. One guy re-friended me though without ever saying anything about it, though he's in a relationship now so I wouldn't count on seeing him in my timeline. Maybe that's part of how I'm feeling. Like i'm only ever a good time, and I know i'm not really in a place for more anyway but I would at least like a "welp now I have a boyfriend".
Oh well, I guess I have defended ghosting if a person thinks it's better for their mental health and maybe it was for him. Maybe he just needed to unfriend the sex posters without confrontation and concentrate on his real life.
