Erotic Story - Shadow Dreams Chapter 1

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Shadow Dreams​

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chapter 1 anonymity​

the Morning Light was bright as it stream through the open window it made Leo's head throb from last night's boozed Leo's whole body ached and everything hurt he started to stretch in his bad when he hit something and realized he was not in bed alone yesterday he had celebrated his 19th birthday as he sat up looking at his apartment all he could think was was it real?

Tim the man of his dreams was sleeping naked beside him it had not been a dream it was real



the world is far as Leo knew it for most of his now 19 years was a grim place it had firm rules on how to behave and the slightest deviation would be severely punished



his father never spared the rod so Leo learned to obey he did anything he was asked to do trying to be helpful he offered himself freely and helped out at their church he did whatever he could to try to get the love and approval he so desperately needed from his parents but they were unable to give it



Leo was a good boy most parents would have been proud of for the most part, he got decent grades and never got into the kind of trouble that involve the law



his teenage rebellion was limited to spending too much time playing video games something he did to keep his mind off the main hobby of most young men his age, SEX



SEX was a problem for young Leo since a lifetime of sitting in church pews had told him that men sleeping with men was an Abomination before the Lord but that was what Leo's hard wanted he had spent years trying to pray the gay away but it was still there beneath the surface just waiting to come rushing out of his turgid cock in a flood of semen his mind with swim with images of naked men doing glorious horrible things to each other each one vial in the eyes of the God he was brought up to believe in he hated himself for this he wanted to be good and virtuous but his mind would inevitably drift to some hot guy or another and what he would like to do with him once he relieved himself his gay desires were expelled with his semen after which a wave of self-loathing would overtake him



the only openly gay male at Leo school was a very a feminine guy and he was shown No Mercy by the homophobic jocks



Leo was not like that guy he did not want to be tormented for being attracted to guys the desperation of being the only normal acting gay guy he knew left Leo depressed and alone in a world that hate it people like him, his deepest fear was that he would die alone and unloved.



When Leo had arrived home from his high school graduation ceremony his mother went to make his favorite dinner this smells wafting up to his room and taste him as he lay on his bed like streaming in his room from the warm day outside everything seems right in the world we amused as he stroked his cock to thoughts of all the young hot men he had gone to school with. he knew he would never see most of them again after that day and it was a turning point in his life his hand knew just how to please his cock like most young men his age he did this several times a day.



There was a knock on the door and Leo pull his pants up and set up in bed he pulled the sheet over to cover his hard-on as his father walked into the room his father handed him a box with his graduation present Leo opened the box and found a nice gold dress watch normally he wore a sports watch with a plastic band



your mother and I figured you should have something suitable to wear for job interviews you have graduated and you are 18 so you are a man in the eyes of the law you and I both know your mother and I tried to get you to study harder so you could get a scholarship to college but you ignored us you played your video games and blew off school yes you passed, but I'm disappointed that you chose the harder route through life but it was your choice and the consequences are now yours it's time for you to get a real job and support yourself I've worked hundreds of hours of overtime to make ends meet and your mother and I hope for better for you but you chose not to cooperate by paid the way so far to keep a roof over your head and food in your belly but that's your obligation now I will give you time to find a full-time job but once you have one you need to get a place of your own once you're out from under my roof I don't want you calling back because you were unwilling to do what you were told or needed to do to take care of yourself I'm not without Mercy or affection for you you may visit but I am out of patience with you I have provided for you as a father and tried to teach you right from wrong I've tried to set you on a righteous path but where you go from here is on you.



Leo's father turned and walked out of the room Leo was stunned he had no clue this was coming Leo knew his mother would not agree with his father but she would not stand up to him either he was no longer welcome in his father's home and would need to survive by whatever means possible his father did not kick him out but his days and his parents home were numbered

 

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Leo had worked part-time for several years and a gift shop at a local animal-based theme park in Florida it was a year-round business so he always had work the Monday after graduation he went to the human resources department to apply for a full-time supervisor position over several of the gift shops Leo enter the personnel office is noticing how open Airy they were the department featured bright colors and large pictures of the animals from various locations in the theme park he was sitting in the waiting room for his appointed interview time



short dark hair guy with tight and pants a fitted white dress shirt and a tie walked in the outfit hinted at the toned body beneath his tight ass muscular thighs and well-developed back muscles proved he spent hours at the gym as he walked away from the reception desk with an application and a clipboard he scanned the room their eyes met and at that moment each recognized a kindred spirit in the other when he was a few feet away from Leo he spoke hello



I'm Dave



hi I'm Leo



what are you trying for I'm interviewing for a purchasing job in the merchandising how about you?



I already work here but I'm here to interview for a shop supervisor position that's currently open Department I just graduated with a marketing degree glad to hear that it would be a shame to hate you if you were the competition for my job



Dave's smiled from ear-to-ear and his big dimples accented his Pleasant face his small button nose gave him a mischievous impish look





Leo's heart skipped a beat or two as he looked deep into those blue gray eyes with the desire he never allowed himself to feel before



Leo is that short for Leonardo or something?



Nope like Leo the Lion since I was born on July 28th my mom thought it was cute the kids at school always make fun of me until I started working out once I booked up they left me alone nobody called me a pussy after that.



To Leo this was a plain statement of facts that intended to convey a certain toughness but Dave took one look at that hot ass and his Lusty Lear would have told Leo, Dave wanted him as a pussy if you knew how to interpret the look of a true alpha male, Dave admire Leo's Body he had clearly pumped a lot of iron based on the guns you had, his chest was Broad and has well-defined pecs show through the shirt he wore his dark hair and angled chiseled features gave him a classic Beauty found in sculptures of Greek and Roman Heroes is firm muscular body had made the girls Swoon when he passed by in high school in spite of his athletic form will you have not played any sports in high school he told people his parents would not approve the real reason was something he kept hidden everyone thought he was quite the ladies man because he flirted with so many girls but that also was part of his camouflage none of the people who thought they knew him were aware he was gay and a virgin when he graduated after staring for a couple of moments



Dave said with arms like that you look like the king of beasts



Leo blushed as a smile in his face



Leo discovered he was gay at a young age when he and his next door neighbor Matt who was the same age started comparing bodies and their case it went beyond simply comparing size to exploring each other's bodies Matt had dark brown hair and a nice tan from his Eastern European Heritage just before Matt's family moved away they found themselves grinding their cocks together with Leo on top of his friend in his bed the two young boys felt things they lights but couldn't understand but not turned over Leo rubbed his cock against Matt ass crack until he had a dry orgasm Leo is too young and not understand what it happened but he knew he wanted more when Matt's family moved Leo would hump his pillow imagining it was Matt's ass he was rubbing his cock against



at the time he did not know what was happening but in the years to come he figured it out as he grew he developed a paranoid fear of Discovery and dad that grew so did his skill at hiding it left him with an inability to trust other people as the years passed Leo found himself thinking of lots of different guys from school most were just hotbodies he saw in the shower in gym class others were more than just a lustful fantasies he had romantic feelings toward some but these were usually the same guys the girls were all over



Tim had been one of Leo's secret crush they had been at the same bus stop and ridden the same bus for Years Tim was thin with a strong jawline black hair thin lips and deep-set green eyes that could pierce your soul



Tim had often been the subject of Leo's masturbatory sessions for years one of Leo's favorite fantasies whatever time he was in the shower after physical education that he heard Tim, Ken and Randy call his name Leo turned and before him stood three of the hottest guys in school naked



Leo talk to them for a minute answering their questions while praying that the water flowing over his body would keep his cock from getting hard that was where the reality and fantasy part company in his dreams he dropped to his knees before Tim and the other guys and serviced their needs sucking each cock intern he dreamed of Tim and the others fucking him using him for their pleasure as he received pleasure from them but once Leo shot his load with images of looking into Tim's eyes as he fed him a load from his cock the dream was shattered as come splattered on his chest and Leo was brought back to reality



Tim was always happy with a big smile and he never had a cross word for anyone Tim was dating Helen my cheerleader whom Leo had known since second grade by high school she barely acknowledged his existence her disdain for him not being in the right clicks alienated Leo from the rest of the group at their bus stop and on their bus he was frequently the butt of Helen's put down and since no one else wanted to risk her wrath no one came to his defense he did not want to draw any more attention to himself so he just took the abuse she knew something was wrong with Leo but couldn't figure it out.



Tim and Leo were in the same history class and sat next to each other Tim regularly apologized for Helen's rudeness and said that he did not want Leo to think that he thought that way about him too, we always told him not to worry Helens rudeness wasn't Tim's fault or his problem and Leo's mind Tim was a cool guy and that could make him smile Tim also has cockroach under his desk so any excuse to talk to him maybe Leo happy.



Leo was torn by desperation born of the battle between his lust and loneliness and the fear of being discovered and subsequently rejected by everyone and everything in his life Leo had no safety net this caused him to send out mixed signals that kept anyone from really knowing who he was



Leo had a rational suspicions that other people thought he was gay and he expected to be out at any moment because he was sure his homophobic family would not approve he developed a huge inferiority complex that often manifested in antisocial behaviors. Leo had carefully crafted a public Persona that matched what people expected from a stud like him his straight alpha male or I had protected him from most harassment many people feared him, his aloofness was not just from his above-average intelligence it also served as a barrier to keep people at arm's length his low self-esteem left him depressed and introspective so he focused on school and work to fill his mind and time. He was Pleasant with people he liked but most people just gave him a wide berth he had a few acquaintances but was not close to anyone for fear he or she would discover his secret he kept barriers up not allowing people to get close to him



Dave's Noise brought out of his thoughts and back to reality maybe we could get together to work out



that sounds good to me 'Leo reply'



just then the girl at the desk call Dave up for his interview and let him away Leo could not keep his eyes off that fine ass as it moved away but his head cleared of its last he realized it was not a good move for him to risk exposing his secret as long as he still lived in his parents house a couple of minutes later Leo was called into his interview he was so pumped that when he left he did not register that Dave was waiting outside for him until he felt the firm hand on his shoulder he turned and looked into the face of an angel in the sunlight Dave's hair shown that is deep blue gray eyes were Mesmerizing the cute nose and dimples around his sparkling smile left Leo speechless he wanted to grab Dave and kiss him right there and then but a wave of fear and panic washed over him when he realized that he was openly expressing his attraction to this guy



we are changed in an instant and his face went from Enchanted to cold Leo felt his old safe mental defenses pop into position



Dave saw the changing expression and took his hand away



I wanted to get your number he said so we could get together maybe workout and other stuff he gestured to his car parked off to the left



sorry I need to get home my family is expecting me there was true they were going to have a barbecue his high school girlfriend was going to be there but he could have made an excuse to be his girlfriend Nikki was very religious and a pledge of celibacy until marriage made both of their parents happy she was the perfect cover for why he was not sleeping with other girls we all understood Dave wanted to work out with him but he could not trust his defenses he wasn't convinced that he could be alone with this man and not show his desire for him that absolute Panic set in and Leo ran to his car and sped off he knew his departure confused Dave later that night as Leo masturbated to images of him and Dave making love he knew he had missed a chance to lose his virginity to a guy he would now only know in his dreams.

 

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two days later Leo got a call telling him he had gotten the new job a week later he moved into an efficiency apartment just off campus on the other side of town from everything he knew the apartment he chose had a big window facing the pool which gave him a good view of all the nearly naked college guys in the complexes pool Leo was now a supervisor over three shops he knew he had to succeed failure would mean slinking back to his parents his house and constant verbal abuse from his father if they would even take him back Leo knew he was intelligent and had a need to control everything using his high standards to meet his needs to succeed he needed the authority of being a supervisor he felt a rush from being in command and made him feel more masculine when he told other people what to do enjoy giving personal orders to others he was mimicking his father's in-your-face style without seeing it in himself, he walked taller and felt more powerful the people who reported to him thought he was developing into a prima donna as he belittled others and issued verbal threats to control people just as his father had done to him.



Freedom was what Leo thought he had achieved by moving out he wanted to get away from his father's control but he was not prepared for the responsibility he had avoided by not being in control the consequences of his actions and choices would be his alone the new burden wait on him as he pondered every decision he overanalyzed everything and then attempts to always be prepared this was true both in his work and his personal life he did not want to lose the carefully constructed Public Image he had built over the years he felt the need to stand by the moral practices his parents had taught him.



In spite of the way he was treated Leah loved his parents they were still his parents which meant something to him Leo knew they would not accept his sexual preference even if he hadn't done anything in the week since he had moved into his apartment he had met his neighbors and the one side was a very attractive waitress with whom he had flirted to keep his straight public Persona on the other side where three college guys from University down the street but yeah I was mentally and emotionally conflicted he loved the authority of his new job but he was scared of the responsibility in part he wanted to give himself over to a strong man he wanted to explore new sexual opportunities but was terrified of being exposed for those desires he wanted to be a regular guy and be respected even as he resented the lies he was forced to live to give that appearance he wanted to be loved for who he was not for who he pretended to be but that kind of love would expose him as what he'd always been taught to hate.



A life in the shadows had not prepared Leo for an adult human relationship you never had to kiss anyone hold any one tenderly or even express his true honest romantic feelings, he cannot even admit to himself some of the feelings he had suppressed is emotional development had been stunted by his fear leaving him unable to experience the kind of relationships his straight friends have been having for years, a life spent outside the box looking in at the rest of the normal World leaves you disconnected and alone observing life not living it Leo spent hours looking at the large windows at the hot guys by the pool he always left the shades open so the view was unobstructed he placed his TV on the wall by the window so anyone looking into his apartment would think he was just watching TV not staring at his neighbor's this left him all hot and bothered which was why he finally decided to take his first steps to pursue his sexual preferences it was his day off and Leo was uncertain he was torn between his desires and his beliefs even though Society accepted the morality of his desires he did not and this caused him to be conflicted.

 

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short distance from his apartment Leo explored a light industrial area that featured numerous adult businesses including the bookstore with a video arcade that had only gay content, Leo figured he would not run into anybody he knew there since he was sure none of his friends were gay there were only a few cars in the parking lot when he arrived and he drove around the block twice before parking, as he got out of his car he kept his sunglasses on and his head down his stomach was turning somersaults because he was still worried that someone see him and recognize him going into a gay business walking into the business the only person Leo saw I was an older man behind the counter at 18 he thought isn't every adult older?



the clerk looked at him and said ID please startled by this Leo walked over the guy repeated his demand show me your ID or get out Leo was scared but he took out his wallet and headed his ID to the guy who is now officially the first person in his life who knew he was gay the machines in the back take bills the guy said you need any change Leo had to the guy a $20 bill the guy gave him a knowing smile and grinned at the new because he handed him the change the guys in the back were regulars who would be more than happy to suck a load or two out of this kid, 'have fun' the clerk said that he sat back down on his stool the clerk pretended to watch TV as he watched Leo's fine young ass walk away 'thank you' Leo managed weekly



he slowly walked to the store there was nobody out here but him and the clerk he looked at the covers of the videos and wanted to wank off right there he had not seen gay porn until I moved out he did not want parents to find it on his computer he had spent a lot of time in bodybuilder sites that he could easily explain away he had only gone to a couple of points site since he was living on his own but he had spent hours on them he had no clue there were so many available. Leo looked at the huge dildos which could not have been modeled from a human being his cock was on the low side of average it was nowhere near that size but since you're not been around he thought he was small especially after noticing some of the dildos were cast from the actual Cock of pornstars he was feeling more sexually inadequate than ever he was sure nobody would want him especially when I saw his cock which was only 7 inches and fully erect he was a grower not a shower so when flaccid his cock was small and this made him feel inferior to other guys reaching the door to the video arcade he walked into the room it was dark with minimal lighting to one side of the door was a lighted case with a bunch of video boxes and numbers he assumed this must be what was playing in the booth he like the cover of number 10 so he went to that booth number and entered when you open the door he saw a chair a bill changer and a channel control he realize that the videos were playing on different channels and the TV screen was behind come stained plexiglass Leo closed and locked the door behind him he pulled a couple of bills out of his pocket and fed them to the machine the screen came on with an image of two white guys facing each other they were kissing while stretched over a bench as two black guys fuck them we all slept through the channels stopping at images of guys he liked he stopped at one of a blonde surfer dude in a college dorm telling the guy kneeling before him to suck his cock or get out the kneeling man said yes sir, the next Channel offer to scene with the baseball team in the shower room two guys kissed in the shower and the whole team had a big orgy with one guy getting fucked by the whole team Leo had been sitting down beating his meat for a while when you heard a noise from the next Booth he noticed that someone was looking through a hole in the wall at him the guy tapped his fingers on the hole and his string quintet in the light Leo was not stupid he knew this was a gloryholes it was what he came there for and so he stood and faced the wall, Leo was standing a foot away with a hand reached through and rubbed his abdomen feeling the lines of his washboard abs and tracing the line of his Adonis belt finally the hand grab his balls and pull them forward and his cock passed through the whole Leo's life changed in an instant. He felt the warm wetness of a tongue running from the base of his cock toward the tip of the tongue flicked at the junction with the crown of his cock before circling it several times soon his full cock was encased in a warm mouth the sensation was something Leo had never imagined and he never wanted to do without this again waves of pleasure washed over Leo with each masterful stroke Leo threw his head back and moaned the man sucked and lick Leo cock when he sends to lie I was about to come he gave Leo's nuts a squeeze and just flicked his tongue at the shaft for a minute before he resumes sucking Leo was getting a rush from having another man on his knees serving his needs he felt empowered by the man's servitude DeLeo this seemed to last forever but in reality it was only a matter of minutes Leo's brain exploded as he felt his ass clenched in his balls pull up he spasmed as eager mouth Galt down shot after shot his cum Leo's cock became hypersensitive after shooting a load making the continued stimulation painful when the man finally released Leo's cock and balls after cleaning up every last drop of cum Leo had to sit for a minute to get his head back on, when he came down with you all realize the booth next to his was empty the video was now showing one guy fucking another using a bandana from around the neck of the bottom like reins on a horse to pull them back into the cock when he moved forward.



Leo got dressed and opened the door. He did you looked at the end of the hall where two guys in their thirties leaned against the wall the one that's at the other end said something he winked at Lee and licked his lips Leo recognize the ring he wore and knew this was the man who had sucked his virgin cock he nodded his head and left the arcade.

 

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Now there are three men who know I'm a fags he thought Leo's emotions ranged from self-loathing at being what his father considered a pervert a deviant an Abomination before God to the recently stated lust of a lustful young man



Leo was still horny enough that he picked up some magazines and a couple of bargain DVDs to play on his computer as the clerk was ringing up his order another Patron entered they looked at each other like deer in headlights with a Blank Stare if someone caught in the act of doing something he should not be doing after a pause they each looked away from a kindred spirit his lust satisfied.



Leo was not vulnerable to the doubts about who he was at his choices in life and the stress of keeping up a false straight face to the world that night between the magazine stories and pictures the video and memories of being sucked off Leo beat his meat and tell it hurt he no longer had any cum in his system when he felt his body shutter for the last time that day he had come to realize that the 30-something dude was not bad looking he may have been too quick to judge him.



After three days of beating off in the bathroom at his lunch break he went back to the bookstore to get sucked off that night every few days after that he did it again one day it was his turn he turned to the whole and this time he was the man facing a one-eyed monster he had often thought about seeing feeling smelling and tasting other men's bodies to this point other men had served to provide him pleasure and meet his sexual needs it had elevated his ego knowing they were on their knees before him but he was now being ask to reciprocate.



Leo was in denial he had told himself as long as I don't give a fuck as long as I don't suck a cock I am a real man not a faggot the self-contempt he felt that his desires was a testament to the heterocentric conditioning of his upbringing he had been brought up in a puritanical household homosexuality was an Abomination that was not to be spoken of he had spent his whole life in denial of his desires he admit to the homophobic rhetoric that had surrounded him and now he was at a point where he had to face and challenge those values this was a turning point in his life the first real step in learning to love a man the cock that he was facing was hard and thick with prominent veins it was pink and stood out from a red bush he stared at it this has been fun for him when he was the one being serviced.



We are reached up and touched it the warmth felt good that he instinctively pumped it a few times he liked the shalf of it in his hand it was firm and he could feel the heat emanating from it he thought he felt the pulse of the Cox owner or maybe it was his own heart racing



a deep voice from the other side of the partition made a request please suck it Leo fell to his knees before he was able to rationalize what was happening he gave in to the command from the masculine voice he surrendered to this one-eyed monster we also felt the knot in his throat from the anxiety of what he was about to do in a moment his lust overwhelmed him making the choice for him he leaned in inhaling the musk of the man deeply it overwhelmed his mind there was no going back now



he stuck his tongue out and licked at the head in the process he lapped up some precum that was seeping from the head Leo that his tongue caressed the soft underside of the cock he circled the head with his tongue letting the tip of his tongue passed through the piss slit opening at the head of the cock is eager tongue soaked up the precum that was seeping out he pulled his tongue back savoring his first real taste of another man he had tasted his own come but did not like taste this was different somehow it was more exotic



he licked his lips and then wrap them over his teeth before plunging his mouth over the flesh sword in the tradition of all sword swallowers the man Sabre slowly plunge down his throat to heal the flesh was stiff but the skin was soft against the sheath formed by his mouth the man's pubes tickled his nose the smell of his groin was not pleasant but it was a manly smell a strong and masculine sent holding his mouth are as his throat adjusted to fit the Invaders snuggly it felt natural Leo massage the cock with his throat you're not expected that the act of sucking a cock would give him as much pleasure as when he was being sucked off Leo heard moans from the man on the other side of the partition which he echo he moaned around the cock in his mouth massaging it the sounds of his pleasure we all realize cock sucking was a symbiotic relationship between two people in which each receive pleasure the one giving head was the one in the power position if he was successful each received pleasure if you failed both participants lost out he did not want this to end too quickly so we pulled off the cock he told first one ball and then the other into his mouth the musty smell and strong Taste of his partner's ball sweat was intoxicating we all returned his attention to the cock which now demanding his assistants by first licking it and then sucking it again he was playing with the man's balls in his hand when he felt them pull up the second the first shot of the man's come with straight down his throat he pulled back and the next two coded Leo's tongue the last shot coated his face



in Leo's mind this would forever Mark him as a cocksucker he savored the taste of the cum it was much better than his and ever tasted Leo scooped cum from his face and sucked it from his fingers as he watched the man on the other side pull up his underwear and jeans reaching into his pants he found them wet with pre-cum I left a big Mark in the front. he removed his cock from his pants and within a few Strokes he had shot a load on the plexiglass for the entire world to see.



Over the next couple of weeks Leo took his turn at sucking cocks and having his sucked he liked the anonymity of the gloryhole sex he could enjoy what he was doing without revealing himself he was free to enjoy himself and once he left the bookstore He Slipped back into his straight male Persona they gave him an escape into the world he had only fantasized about four years at the bookstore he felt there was a safe division between his public and private selves each in its proper place Leo became even harder in his determination not to show weakness in his public persona he had become harsh and critical of everyone nobody was going to see him as a sissy.

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