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Hi all, I'm looking for advice. Long post incoming. I consider myself mostly straight, but that's not what I want to talk about. I'm trying to be short, but if you are interested in the fully detailed story, I will post it in another thread.
I have a very good friend of mine since high school, we have always liked talking about sexual stuff, girls, fucking, jerking habits etc. A few years ago, we started fooling around when we were high (we smoked a lot of weed together back then), jerked off together a few times. This started to become a huge turn on for me, we became jerk buddies. Jerking off together for straight porn became a regular thing, I started having fantasies about sucking him off and jerking his cock, playing with it (but not fucking or kissing, you know, just regular cock sucking without anything "romantic" or hardcore things). I told him about these thoughts, he seemed to be a partner, he was interested. But I was shy and kind of afraid of acting it out. So we were progressing gradually. Jerking off together a lot, watching, admiring his cock, then just touching it, holding it. Then jerking him. Because we live in different cities, this process took a few years. Mostly I was the one who initiated these jerk off sessions, but sometimes he started it. During these times we chatted a lot about this topic, and sucking him off, he told me a lot of times that he was okay with it, we can do it, but when I got the chance I always chickened out and ended up just jerking off together, maybe jerking him for a few minutes. He also sent me like a dozen dick picks (I requested most of them). Anyway, about 2 years ago, one hot summer evening my fantasy finally became reality and I sucked his cock in my car. We ended up finishing it by ourselves, but still it finally happened. After this about a week later he visited me with his girlfriend, and when his gf went into a store and we were alone, he told me: "while she's away, let's talk about the fact that you sucked my cock". He told me he liked it, and I was so good at it that I should charge money for it. I asked him if he wanted to take our friendship to this level where I would suck him off time to time. He said we could be like this, he is okay with it.
I don't precisely remember how he started to back up, but that was kind of the list time we had this kind of fun together. After a while he started saying things like: "I don't want to get gay anymore.", "I rather want to fuck girls.", "these kind of stuff don't turn me on".
I was relentless, asked him again and again, tryed to convince him. Once he even told me that he never really wanted it, he just couldn't say no.
The next and sadly probably last milestone in our story was when I had a chance to make a short amateur clip of me having sex with a girl and he really wanted to see it. I told him that if he wanted to jerk off to it, we have to do it together, I wouldn't give him the clip. He said okay. We put it on his big screen tv, after a long break I could finally see him whipping out his huge magnificent cock, he got incredably hard and big, I had never seen his dick that big before, it even scared me a little like "okay I knew he is big, thats why I loved his cock, but never knew he is really a monster". I even got a little more jealous than I had ever be before. He let me take a few pics of it (you can find it in my albums) and then said to grab it and jerk it. I jerked him, then we finished ourselves. After this, I asked him that we were back to this now or not. He said, yeah we could jerk off sometimes. I asked him if I could jerk him off again from now on. He said its okay, not sucking thou, thats too hardcore, but its okay to jerk him off sometimes. We had 2 additional jerk off session (but without jerking him). After these he went back to the "I don't want no more gay stuff" state. He even told me one time, that these things felt like rape for him.
I still can't let these fantasies go, I want to suck his cock again so badly I can't even describe. I have a girlfriend, our sex life is great, she turns me on beyond beleif. But sucking his cock means a totally different turn on for me. It's like two kind of horniness, not mixable. A completely separate and different part of my sexuality. The thing is, that he is the only guy whose cock I'm interested in sucking. Yeah there are a lot of cocks I seen online that I would theoretically suck, but in real life, I'm not interested in initiating this kind of sexual relationship or finding another guy like him. I want only his cock. And thinking about this whole story, deep down I know or I hope that it was not a one sided adventure. That it was not something I just forced out of someone. But it seems so strange to me, that a lot of times he was so omboard, we even had a lot of sextings, where he was reassuring that it turned him on. I do not exactly know what happened that turned him away. One theory of mine js that he consideres himself unsuccesful with girls (he even tells me this a lot) and this fact keeps him from continuing with these not so straights stuff. Sometimes I think if he could fuck girls regularly he would be more open again. But I'm not sure. Maybe it wasn't his thing entirely after all. Maybe he just simply chanhed his mind. We still talk regularly, we are good friends, but if I bring this topic up, he turns me down, or simply just ignores me. But getting back on with these incredably hot stuff is my dream. I love his dick so much, it's like being in love with a body part of someone else. And if we had it once, why can't we have it again? Do you guys have any advice how to get his cock again? Or if it seems impossible how to move on with my sexual life and desires. What do you think happened at his side? Was it mutual? Or was it forced out of a guy who couldn't say no?
I have a very good friend of mine since high school, we have always liked talking about sexual stuff, girls, fucking, jerking habits etc. A few years ago, we started fooling around when we were high (we smoked a lot of weed together back then), jerked off together a few times. This started to become a huge turn on for me, we became jerk buddies. Jerking off together for straight porn became a regular thing, I started having fantasies about sucking him off and jerking his cock, playing with it (but not fucking or kissing, you know, just regular cock sucking without anything "romantic" or hardcore things). I told him about these thoughts, he seemed to be a partner, he was interested. But I was shy and kind of afraid of acting it out. So we were progressing gradually. Jerking off together a lot, watching, admiring his cock, then just touching it, holding it. Then jerking him. Because we live in different cities, this process took a few years. Mostly I was the one who initiated these jerk off sessions, but sometimes he started it. During these times we chatted a lot about this topic, and sucking him off, he told me a lot of times that he was okay with it, we can do it, but when I got the chance I always chickened out and ended up just jerking off together, maybe jerking him for a few minutes. He also sent me like a dozen dick picks (I requested most of them). Anyway, about 2 years ago, one hot summer evening my fantasy finally became reality and I sucked his cock in my car. We ended up finishing it by ourselves, but still it finally happened. After this about a week later he visited me with his girlfriend, and when his gf went into a store and we were alone, he told me: "while she's away, let's talk about the fact that you sucked my cock". He told me he liked it, and I was so good at it that I should charge money for it. I asked him if he wanted to take our friendship to this level where I would suck him off time to time. He said we could be like this, he is okay with it.
I don't precisely remember how he started to back up, but that was kind of the list time we had this kind of fun together. After a while he started saying things like: "I don't want to get gay anymore.", "I rather want to fuck girls.", "these kind of stuff don't turn me on".
I was relentless, asked him again and again, tryed to convince him. Once he even told me that he never really wanted it, he just couldn't say no.
The next and sadly probably last milestone in our story was when I had a chance to make a short amateur clip of me having sex with a girl and he really wanted to see it. I told him that if he wanted to jerk off to it, we have to do it together, I wouldn't give him the clip. He said okay. We put it on his big screen tv, after a long break I could finally see him whipping out his huge magnificent cock, he got incredably hard and big, I had never seen his dick that big before, it even scared me a little like "okay I knew he is big, thats why I loved his cock, but never knew he is really a monster". I even got a little more jealous than I had ever be before. He let me take a few pics of it (you can find it in my albums) and then said to grab it and jerk it. I jerked him, then we finished ourselves. After this, I asked him that we were back to this now or not. He said, yeah we could jerk off sometimes. I asked him if I could jerk him off again from now on. He said its okay, not sucking thou, thats too hardcore, but its okay to jerk him off sometimes. We had 2 additional jerk off session (but without jerking him). After these he went back to the "I don't want no more gay stuff" state. He even told me one time, that these things felt like rape for him.
I still can't let these fantasies go, I want to suck his cock again so badly I can't even describe. I have a girlfriend, our sex life is great, she turns me on beyond beleif. But sucking his cock means a totally different turn on for me. It's like two kind of horniness, not mixable. A completely separate and different part of my sexuality. The thing is, that he is the only guy whose cock I'm interested in sucking. Yeah there are a lot of cocks I seen online that I would theoretically suck, but in real life, I'm not interested in initiating this kind of sexual relationship or finding another guy like him. I want only his cock. And thinking about this whole story, deep down I know or I hope that it was not a one sided adventure. That it was not something I just forced out of someone. But it seems so strange to me, that a lot of times he was so omboard, we even had a lot of sextings, where he was reassuring that it turned him on. I do not exactly know what happened that turned him away. One theory of mine js that he consideres himself unsuccesful with girls (he even tells me this a lot) and this fact keeps him from continuing with these not so straights stuff. Sometimes I think if he could fuck girls regularly he would be more open again. But I'm not sure. Maybe it wasn't his thing entirely after all. Maybe he just simply chanhed his mind. We still talk regularly, we are good friends, but if I bring this topic up, he turns me down, or simply just ignores me. But getting back on with these incredably hot stuff is my dream. I love his dick so much, it's like being in love with a body part of someone else. And if we had it once, why can't we have it again? Do you guys have any advice how to get his cock again? Or if it seems impossible how to move on with my sexual life and desires. What do you think happened at his side? Was it mutual? Or was it forced out of a guy who couldn't say no?