My life has been shit this past week it seems. I had a date with this guy I had been talking to for a week. He lives an hour and 20 minutes away from me. I drive to his farm and I spent the night. He's super nice and hospitable. He made me feel comfortable immediately, but i wasn't that attracted to him physically. He's had some health issues so I know it's not his fault, and honestly he wasn't even like he was obese or something. And I looked past it at first, but I feel like I use any excuse to get out of what could potentially end up being a relationship.
Then I started talking to a different guy. Married to a woman but they agreed to have a "poly connection" relationship. So he was in the market for a boyfriend. Nice guy, attractive, actually wanted a relationship. Then he texted me today about how he was going to meet a dom and sub that he knew. I asked him if it was for sex and he told me just dinner and how he and the dom have shared subs. I said your told me it had been a long time since you were with a guy. He said subs can be women. I apologized profusely for getting defensive. He left me on read. So hopefully he messages me back. We had plans to go on a date tomorrow but idk I might've ruined it.
And on top of that I quit my job today cause everyone talks to me like I'm stupid. So I walked my happy ass right outta there. So yeah things are a mess. Forever alone I guess
Then I started talking to a different guy. Married to a woman but they agreed to have a "poly connection" relationship. So he was in the market for a boyfriend. Nice guy, attractive, actually wanted a relationship. Then he texted me today about how he was going to meet a dom and sub that he knew. I asked him if it was for sex and he told me just dinner and how he and the dom have shared subs. I said your told me it had been a long time since you were with a guy. He said subs can be women. I apologized profusely for getting defensive. He left me on read. So hopefully he messages me back. We had plans to go on a date tomorrow but idk I might've ruined it.
And on top of that I quit my job today cause everyone talks to me like I'm stupid. So I walked my happy ass right outta there. So yeah things are a mess. Forever alone I guess
