Jealous(?) and attracted at the same time

[silversurfer1]

I am 23 years old cis gender male and I recently discovered something about my sexuality.

I had sex lots of times with women in the past. But I never had sex with a male.

I am definitely attracted to some men. The thing is.. I believe that I am attracted only to men that I consider as more attractive and masculine than me. Specifically, I don't imagine to have sex with them but I imagine being them during sex or masturbation and feeling their orgasm.

To be honest, I am a bit afraid that my behavior is problematic. Maybe lack of self-esteem? What do you think?

 

[MeatStickSupreme]

I am 23 years old cis gender male and I recently discovered something about my sexuality.

I had sex lots of times with women in the past. But I never had sex with a male.

I am definitely attracted to some men. The thing is.. I believe that I am attracted only to men that I consider as more attractive and masculine than me. Specifically, I don't imagine to have sex with them but I imagine being them during sex or masturbation and feeling their orgasm.

To be honest, I am a bit afraid that my behavior is problematic. Maybe lack of self-esteem? What do you think?

I often feel the same way, a mix of attraction and jealousy towards other guys more attractive than me.

I guess its a problem unique to being gay or lesbian. Straight people are attracted to the opposite gender but they dont want to be the opposite gender and dont need to compare.

What helps me cope is trying to work out and improve myself so i can somewhat get to the same level as my crushes. Ive fallen off the bandwagon a little but heres hoping i get back on track. No idea if what im doing is healthy but its the only thing i got

 

[silversurfer1]

I guess its a problem unique to being gay or lesbian. Straight people are attracted to the opposite gender but they dont want to be the opposite gender and dont need to compare.

Well, it's possible to feel "not enough" in front of a woman that you like. But it is not an important factor for your sexual relations. I would say that I find it easier to handle my relation with a woman. My role is clear, in terms of masculinity.

Thanks for your answer t. I feel better knowing that other people have experienced same feelings too.

 

[AceWilde]

I've joked many times about how when I see a really hot guy it's hard for me to tell if I want to fuck with him or be him. But it's not really a joke. I'd say most times my attraction to guys is about wanting to do things with them but there are plenty who my attraction has been more like worship for the man I'm trying to become, if that makes sense.