I was married three times first two was almost eighteen years my first wife would give me a little every four to six weeks that's when I been to fantasize about men then being open wasn't something men did was one man everyone called him queer I didn't find someone that attracted to I was to afraid getting caught they both knew I had a stack of porn I regularly jack off to they didn't I licked cum from my fingers I wanted some Playgirl magazine s only once with my second wife I bought mine and said I this for her and sat beside looking at the pics I loved how beautiful women in playboy were penthouse every month had a couple with pic's always a nice cock after my second divorce I was forty five so obsessed wanting to get a nans hard dick in my mouth never thought about black men he spent the night with me I had never seen anyone that was as big as him sucking his uncircumcised ten cock that dark skin licking his balls like sucking on a radiator hose drinking from firehouse he didn't fuck my ass because he was pierced with a ring couldn't remove . Caught.y first wife cheating I could taste his cum I wanted tell her gkad I didn't Id shoot little cum in both them licked it out.i sucked a few men wanted to try being heterosexual