Hi, I've been with my boyfriend for the past 4 years and can't get over his sexual past. The is especially because I feel envious of his past experiences, mostly because he has been with well endowned guys, which is a fetish of mine that I have never been able to fullfil. I love him and want to stay with him, but the thought of not being able to make my fantasies come true creeps me. I also would not be ready for an open relationship, neither would he. I don't know if I watched too much porn, but the craving for big dick has been killing me recently. I really don't know how to get over it. I asked details about his past experiences and now I have made up images in my head that I can't stop imagining.