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Chapter 1: Having People Over
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David stepped mindlessly out of the shower. Most things he was doing lately felt bereft of purpose, intention or joy. He was probably in a middling depression though he had yet to put those words together. All he knew was that he had not felt any joy in going to work in over a year. It had started out much better but five years of putting his heart and soul, and every creative fiber of his being into finding a treatment, without even a hint of success, had drained him. Failed experiment after failed experiment and new team members constantly traipsing through the lab, all coming in with fire and energy, and all leaving discouraged and convinced the effort was useless; this took a toll.
He reached for a towel hanging on the wall. Immediately he felt the soft fluff of the freshly laundered material. Just by touching it he stirred up the smell of the fabric softener which today was woodsy and bright. If he had stuck his hand in a nest full of baby chicks it could not have been softer. He relished the instant but was immediately troubled. He hated that his mom felt obliged to do housework for him. “Honey, please let me do this,” she had said. “I am already such a burden.”
“Mom, you are never a burden, I can take care of those things and you don’t need to tire yourself out on things like that,” he would respond.
That conversation had been repeated many times over. Recently, she had gone further. “Hijo,” she said, “I know I am a burden. You never have people over, I feel like I am in the way, maybe you will be better if I go to Catarina’s?”
Her head slouched forward a bit, she was crying. She had said ‘people,’ not girls, not women, not girlfriends. It was her acknowledgment of an unspoken secret between mother and son. It was the best this kind and gentle Christian woman could do at the moment. She had seen her son struggle for years with his own desires. She had seen him go through a slate of physical changes and an existential crisis all at the same time. He had been such a good, happy kid and then puberty hit. He became withdrawn, serious, mostly sad, and with every passing day, he had fewer and fewer friends. She felt guilty at the time. She believed that she had imposed a burden that he had accepted and internalized, and he had done everything in his power to become someone different. She was not sure what she was ready to accept, but his unhappiness for the rest of his life felt like a horrible price. Was she ready to watch him hold hands with a man? Could she be ok with him kissing a man? She was not sure. She was certain she could not watch him attempt to kiss another woman. If she knew nothing else, the kiss he shared with Tammy Calvin was absolutely a sin – and a disastrous one at that.
“When I’m ready, mom.” He lifted her chin gently with his finger and gave her a kiss on the cheek. “When I’m ready I’ll bring people over.”
“Thank you for taking care of me, David.” The conversation had been left there.
David pulled the towel towards his body and let the fibers, which felt like a million silk covered fingers, caress his chest and abdomen. He pulled the cloth up to his face and dried off the golden brown hair. He let the towel rest over his shoulders and looked briefly at the mirror. His dick caught his eye. He was glad his parents had left him intact and he was grateful for whomever gave him the genes that resulted in the biggest dick he had ever seen in real life and bigger than most he had seen in porn. It was no small irony to him though that one of the most beautiful dicks on the planet got so little use. He had used it, on both men and women. He so wanted to enjoy the women but mostly he felt inauthentic. It often took Viagra and a lot of mental notes from favorite Twitter accounts to get him through those experiences. The few fucks he shared with men had been better in terms of his own motivation. But worse as they were the source of a great deal of guilt and anger.
He let his hands travel slowly down the center ridge of his square, full pectorals. His fingers made small circles as they traveled past a beautiful patch of soft hair that grew from mid chest down to the underside of his lower chest. Large nipples, each nearly the size of a silver dollar began to contract at his touch. He put his thumb and index finger briefly in his mouth and came back to pinch his now erect nipple. He closed his eyes and tilted his head back, letting out a soft moan as he pinched harder. The smell of his soap and towel, the softness of the cloth around his neck and the touch of his own hand created a sensory cloud, he let himself be cloaked in it for just a few minutes, knowing the real world was just outside the bathroom door.
His left hand traveled down his treasure trail, a thin line of hair under his belly button, but which widened substantially at the base of his cock. The hair was soft, it gave him the appearance of virility and strength that was the envy of anyone who saw him shirtless, his well-formed muscles certainly contributed to both the impression and the admiration he received. His pubic hair grew much thicker and wilder than the rest of the hair on his body and seemed like a thick moss from which the majestic, massive pole sprung away from his body. He slid his meat between his middle and ring fingers, pushing his hand up and away from his crotch as the fingers rode his cock all the way to the foreskin covered glans. He moaned again as he felt himself getting hard. He stopped fucking the space between his fingers and instead gripped his dick with his left hand, barely making the full circumference. It was nearly eight inches round and eleven inches long, it was an ass wrecking crew of one.
David looked again in the mirror. His dick was beautiful. His abs were not popping like they did when he was a teenager, but he preferred this growing fit daddy look. He still had a phenomenal six pack, a beautiful natural tone to his skin thanks to his mother’s Colombian roots, and a dick so straight and so fat it could have made him a millionaire on OnlyFans.
As he began to stroke faster, his hazel eyes stared at the muscles on his left hand, he could see his chest and abs contracting, the rhythm was beautiful to him and every pull made his dick harder. He moved his right hand down to his testicles. He grabbed both balls and twisted and pulled them as he continued to jack his meat slowly. There was a dull, pleasant pain. Underneath his dickhead he could feel his frenulum stretching every time he pulled his sac. He loved the soft ache he got when he squeezed his balls tight.
He beat his dick faster and moved his right hand back to his lips, sucking on his right index finger and then moving it behind him as he bent forward and put his face all the way down on the counter. The granite was cold to his cheek, moist from the condensed steam that had filled the room during his shower. As his ass cheeks spread open, his wrist helped him navigate to his goal. He could feel the soft dusting of hair on his ass and the contours of his generous mounds of muscle and soft flesh. He felt his way along as his wrist descended and his fingers spread his cheeks apart to make space for the wet middle finger to do his bidding.
His finger knew where to go. Muscle memory knew where his hole would be found and he started drawing figure eights with his wet finger over his tight pucker. He had never let anyone fuck him but he wondered if the feeling of an actual dick would be proportional to the pleasure he felt when he finger fucked his own hole. With that thought, he pushed on the doughnut shaped muscle. After about a minute, he could feel his finger was dry. He thought he should stop but his dick was not in agreement. It wanted to explode.
He reached up with his right hand towards a bottle on the counter and quickly pumped a small amount of lotion on his fingers. He want back to working his hole as he continued to masturbate with his left hand. The pressure of his finger tapping, pressing, pushing, and rubbing his hole provided phenomenal sensations. If there was joy in this day, it would be in this moment, he thought. As his finger continued to insist, his hole eventually relaxed until it gave way with just a flicker of pain. It was gone in the time it took David to slide the full length. He was close. He continued to fuck himself, pressing and prodding on his prostate, while his left hand took to beating his cock furiously, the friction and heat sliding over each nerve ending on his cock augmenting the pleasure he was creating in his hole.
As he felt his load building, he pulled his finger from his ass and away from the prostate he had been massaging. He quickly grabbed his towel and threw it in front himself on the counter, moving his right hand down to his dick, two-fisting his throbbing torpedo as he flexed his back, pushing his hips forward and tilting his head to the sky.
It was a silent torrent. Ribbon after ribbon of sticky cum jetted from his thick, golden brown cock head and soaked what had been a pristine towel minutes earlier. He said nothing and felt everything. His balls tight against his body, the pulsing muscles twitching deep inside him pushing out all his creamy goodness, his dick thickening with each pulse as if the heart of a wild beast were beating just inside his shaft. At the last stream subsided, he milked his dick for the remaining droplets and shook it with one solid flick onto the towel. He wiped his dick on a clean corner, gathered the towel up in a clump with the cum side in and threw it in the laundry basket. Evidence gone. He washed his hands of cum and ass juice and wondered if his mother knew about the abuse her freshly laundered towels took. He went through ten to twelve of them a week, probably she knew.
David put on his boxer briefs, adjusted his still engorged member and went into his room to get dressed for a job about which he no longer felt hopeful.
Thanks for reading!
Chapter 1: Having People Over
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David stepped mindlessly out of the shower. Most things he was doing lately felt bereft of purpose, intention or joy. He was probably in a middling depression though he had yet to put those words together. All he knew was that he had not felt any joy in going to work in over a year. It had started out much better but five years of putting his heart and soul, and every creative fiber of his being into finding a treatment, without even a hint of success, had drained him. Failed experiment after failed experiment and new team members constantly traipsing through the lab, all coming in with fire and energy, and all leaving discouraged and convinced the effort was useless; this took a toll.
He reached for a towel hanging on the wall. Immediately he felt the soft fluff of the freshly laundered material. Just by touching it he stirred up the smell of the fabric softener which today was woodsy and bright. If he had stuck his hand in a nest full of baby chicks it could not have been softer. He relished the instant but was immediately troubled. He hated that his mom felt obliged to do housework for him. “Honey, please let me do this,” she had said. “I am already such a burden.”
“Mom, you are never a burden, I can take care of those things and you don’t need to tire yourself out on things like that,” he would respond.
That conversation had been repeated many times over. Recently, she had gone further. “Hijo,” she said, “I know I am a burden. You never have people over, I feel like I am in the way, maybe you will be better if I go to Catarina’s?”
Her head slouched forward a bit, she was crying. She had said ‘people,’ not girls, not women, not girlfriends. It was her acknowledgment of an unspoken secret between mother and son. It was the best this kind and gentle Christian woman could do at the moment. She had seen her son struggle for years with his own desires. She had seen him go through a slate of physical changes and an existential crisis all at the same time. He had been such a good, happy kid and then puberty hit. He became withdrawn, serious, mostly sad, and with every passing day, he had fewer and fewer friends. She felt guilty at the time. She believed that she had imposed a burden that he had accepted and internalized, and he had done everything in his power to become someone different. She was not sure what she was ready to accept, but his unhappiness for the rest of his life felt like a horrible price. Was she ready to watch him hold hands with a man? Could she be ok with him kissing a man? She was not sure. She was certain she could not watch him attempt to kiss another woman. If she knew nothing else, the kiss he shared with Tammy Calvin was absolutely a sin – and a disastrous one at that.
“When I’m ready, mom.” He lifted her chin gently with his finger and gave her a kiss on the cheek. “When I’m ready I’ll bring people over.”
“Thank you for taking care of me, David.” The conversation had been left there.
David pulled the towel towards his body and let the fibers, which felt like a million silk covered fingers, caress his chest and abdomen. He pulled the cloth up to his face and dried off the golden brown hair. He let the towel rest over his shoulders and looked briefly at the mirror. His dick caught his eye. He was glad his parents had left him intact and he was grateful for whomever gave him the genes that resulted in the biggest dick he had ever seen in real life and bigger than most he had seen in porn. It was no small irony to him though that one of the most beautiful dicks on the planet got so little use. He had used it, on both men and women. He so wanted to enjoy the women but mostly he felt inauthentic. It often took Viagra and a lot of mental notes from favorite Twitter accounts to get him through those experiences. The few fucks he shared with men had been better in terms of his own motivation. But worse as they were the source of a great deal of guilt and anger.
He let his hands travel slowly down the center ridge of his square, full pectorals. His fingers made small circles as they traveled past a beautiful patch of soft hair that grew from mid chest down to the underside of his lower chest. Large nipples, each nearly the size of a silver dollar began to contract at his touch. He put his thumb and index finger briefly in his mouth and came back to pinch his now erect nipple. He closed his eyes and tilted his head back, letting out a soft moan as he pinched harder. The smell of his soap and towel, the softness of the cloth around his neck and the touch of his own hand created a sensory cloud, he let himself be cloaked in it for just a few minutes, knowing the real world was just outside the bathroom door.
His left hand traveled down his treasure trail, a thin line of hair under his belly button, but which widened substantially at the base of his cock. The hair was soft, it gave him the appearance of virility and strength that was the envy of anyone who saw him shirtless, his well-formed muscles certainly contributed to both the impression and the admiration he received. His pubic hair grew much thicker and wilder than the rest of the hair on his body and seemed like a thick moss from which the majestic, massive pole sprung away from his body. He slid his meat between his middle and ring fingers, pushing his hand up and away from his crotch as the fingers rode his cock all the way to the foreskin covered glans. He moaned again as he felt himself getting hard. He stopped fucking the space between his fingers and instead gripped his dick with his left hand, barely making the full circumference. It was nearly eight inches round and eleven inches long, it was an ass wrecking crew of one.
David looked again in the mirror. His dick was beautiful. His abs were not popping like they did when he was a teenager, but he preferred this growing fit daddy look. He still had a phenomenal six pack, a beautiful natural tone to his skin thanks to his mother’s Colombian roots, and a dick so straight and so fat it could have made him a millionaire on OnlyFans.
As he began to stroke faster, his hazel eyes stared at the muscles on his left hand, he could see his chest and abs contracting, the rhythm was beautiful to him and every pull made his dick harder. He moved his right hand down to his testicles. He grabbed both balls and twisted and pulled them as he continued to jack his meat slowly. There was a dull, pleasant pain. Underneath his dickhead he could feel his frenulum stretching every time he pulled his sac. He loved the soft ache he got when he squeezed his balls tight.
He beat his dick faster and moved his right hand back to his lips, sucking on his right index finger and then moving it behind him as he bent forward and put his face all the way down on the counter. The granite was cold to his cheek, moist from the condensed steam that had filled the room during his shower. As his ass cheeks spread open, his wrist helped him navigate to his goal. He could feel the soft dusting of hair on his ass and the contours of his generous mounds of muscle and soft flesh. He felt his way along as his wrist descended and his fingers spread his cheeks apart to make space for the wet middle finger to do his bidding.
His finger knew where to go. Muscle memory knew where his hole would be found and he started drawing figure eights with his wet finger over his tight pucker. He had never let anyone fuck him but he wondered if the feeling of an actual dick would be proportional to the pleasure he felt when he finger fucked his own hole. With that thought, he pushed on the doughnut shaped muscle. After about a minute, he could feel his finger was dry. He thought he should stop but his dick was not in agreement. It wanted to explode.
He reached up with his right hand towards a bottle on the counter and quickly pumped a small amount of lotion on his fingers. He want back to working his hole as he continued to masturbate with his left hand. The pressure of his finger tapping, pressing, pushing, and rubbing his hole provided phenomenal sensations. If there was joy in this day, it would be in this moment, he thought. As his finger continued to insist, his hole eventually relaxed until it gave way with just a flicker of pain. It was gone in the time it took David to slide the full length. He was close. He continued to fuck himself, pressing and prodding on his prostate, while his left hand took to beating his cock furiously, the friction and heat sliding over each nerve ending on his cock augmenting the pleasure he was creating in his hole.
As he felt his load building, he pulled his finger from his ass and away from the prostate he had been massaging. He quickly grabbed his towel and threw it in front himself on the counter, moving his right hand down to his dick, two-fisting his throbbing torpedo as he flexed his back, pushing his hips forward and tilting his head to the sky.
It was a silent torrent. Ribbon after ribbon of sticky cum jetted from his thick, golden brown cock head and soaked what had been a pristine towel minutes earlier. He said nothing and felt everything. His balls tight against his body, the pulsing muscles twitching deep inside him pushing out all his creamy goodness, his dick thickening with each pulse as if the heart of a wild beast were beating just inside his shaft. At the last stream subsided, he milked his dick for the remaining droplets and shook it with one solid flick onto the towel. He wiped his dick on a clean corner, gathered the towel up in a clump with the cum side in and threw it in the laundry basket. Evidence gone. He washed his hands of cum and ass juice and wondered if his mother knew about the abuse her freshly laundered towels took. He went through ten to twelve of them a week, probably she knew.
David put on his boxer briefs, adjusted his still engorged member and went into his room to get dressed for a job about which he no longer felt hopeful.