Just a little note before we get into it -- I'm trying something a little different here, but don't worry, queer stuff will show up eventually.
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It wasn’t the first time we’d fought, but it was the first time we’d gone to bed angry.
And it hadn’t gone away the next morning. Or the morning after. We grumpily crawled into bed and made perfunctory noises at each other, faced away from each other, and slept without cuddling.
This fight had been over dumb ordinary everyday stuff – money was tight and we were sharing expenses, and she saw some of my food splurges as extravagant. And I retorted that I needed protein and it was food and it wasn’t my fault that meat prices had gone up so much, but she didn’t need spa days and expensive hair and nail treatments.
It kind of went downhill from there. And honestly, she had a point – she worked in sales and needed to be super presentable, but I was just trying to hold onto my college physique and maybe build a little more muscle. But by the time I internally realized we were both working on our own vanity, but she had a slightly better argument for her hair and nails than I did for my 100g/day protein needs, it was already too late.
Then Melinda went to visit her friends – well, one cousin and two college friends – for the following weekend. It was at Gloria’s place, as usual; her family was loaded and had gifted her a very pleasant place to live just outside town in a pricey suburb. Every few months the girls would gather and spend the weekend together, doing whatever it is that girls do – “we window shop, drink wine, watch sappy movies, and complain about our partners”, she’d said. They’d collect her on the way home Friday and drop her off Sunday after dinner. I often managed to connect with my friends while she was away, but on this occasion the timing didn’t work out, so my big plan was to spend most of it riding my bike, playing video games, and sleeping. In practice, I had some angry jerk-off sessions to bad pornhub scenes, finished the latest Zelda game, and skipped my workouts.
I’d hoped the time apart would calm things down. It didn’t.
*****
I was dozing on the couch watching a Marvel movie when the sound of keys and annoyance woke me. My hand was down the front of my shorts and I hadn’t showered.
“I’m back,” she announced.
“Great,” I said, still grumpy.
She glared at me, clearly still grumpy.
“Mason, tell me you didn’t spend the weekend jerking it to Thor,” she said.
“Not to Thor, no,” I said rather snidely. “Tell me you didn’t spend the weekend telling the girls I’m awful and having them agree.”
“No, you’re pretty on target there. Judging by the mess, you made dinner?”
“Baked chicken, brown rice, veggies,” I said. “Just the cheap stuff, I didn’t break out a steak without permission. Wouldn’t want to be extravagant,” I snapped.
“Well, I *did* have a mani-pedi, but Gloria paid for it, so you don’t have to worry.”
She huffed and dragged her luggage back to the bedroom to unpack, presumably, but returned to the living room almost immediately. “Are those CUM RAGS on the table?”
“Yes…. I was about to clean them up.”
“You know, Gloria was right. You’re a useless horndog. Just good for sex and keeping the bed warm.”
“Fuck Gloria,” I said. Bitch had never approved of me, and I’d long suspected she was actively sabotaging our relationship.
“Her chances are better than yours right now,” she said.
“Look, I’ll clean up the dishes and stuff. I thought I had an hour before you got home.” She said nothing, just retreated to the bedroom.
We avoided each other for a while, and then at 11, I crawled into bed while she was still fucking around with her phone. No doubt complaining on the group chat.
My noncommittal “g’night” got no response.
*****
I had weird dreams that night, and I can’t remember any of them.
But when I woke up and opened my eyes, I had the distinct feeling I’d missed something important.
Melinda stood by the bed, fully dressed, giving me the stink eye.
“For fucks sake Mel, I said I was sorry, and I cleaned up. You can’t still be mad,” I growled.
“It’s not about last night,” she said, “or about the stupid argument the other day. It’s about all the other shit before that. I’m tired of the way you’ve been treating me.”
“The way I’ve….” I began.
“No. Save it for tonight,” she said decisively. “I have a meeting. But tonight, we need to have a long conversation.”
“Fine. But I get to talk too,” I said, “you don’t just get to yell at me and expect me to put up with it.”
She stomped out, and while she didn’t exactly slam any doors, she closed them with a bit of unnecessary force.
*****
One of the sources of friction was that I was unemployed, and hadn’t yet found a new job after the budget cuts at the VA hospital where I’d worked as an orderly. It was kind of tough work and paid shit, but there were benefits and I genuinely liked old folks. My favorite uncle had been in the army and I respected the folks who’d worn uniforms.
I’d been holding out for actual work that had benefits, or paid better, and nothing had materialized for four months. So I’d been focusing on getting into better shape, rather than wasting away or eating my sorrows. One of the vets had suggested I do personal training or physical therapy, but certifications cost money. Still, I was young and in good shape, and figured I could at least start a side hustle to help cover bills. Turns out getting into shape cost more than I’d realized. My savings drained quickly, but at least it was paying off in terms of physique.
Melinda worked in sales, mostly B2B stuff. Restaurant decoration and supplies, or something. She did okay, but things had been tight and I wasn’t bringing in enough. Which of course left me feeling like a shitty partner. The worst part was knowing why I’d been a dick, but unable to stop doing it.
I checked my email and some job sites, then hit the gym for a few hours, determined to burn off my own frustration via cardio and weights. Unfortunately I was late getting back, so Melinda was already home, and kind of pissed.
“So, what, you hid out in the gym to avoid talking?”
“Hello, honey, how was your day?” I snapped back sarcastically. “Can’t I even get in the door first?”
“Apparently not,” she barked back.
“Fine, talk,” I said. “Just do it while I eat.”
Ever try to pull out and reheat leftovers angrily while the person you’re angry at is standing in the dead center of the kitchen, glaring at you? Yeah, it really put the icing on the shit cake. But I was hungry and I wasn’t letting her make me miss my macros.
“For fucks sake, don’t you even want to fix this?”
“Fix this? I’m unemployed, we’re broke, you’re a bitch, and I’m a jerk.” The microwave beeped. “I’m hungry and I’m sore. Lecture away.”
“Unbelievable,” she said. “ I almost felt bad for this, you know. I wanted to give you a chance to ….well, it doesn’t matter now.” She sighed.
“Whether you know it or not, Mason, I didn’t really want this. But I really don’t think you’re going to learn any other way.”
I rolled my eyes as she pulled a small piece of wood carved with runes, and snapped it. “You have a great dick and a hot bod, but your fragile toxic masculinity got old fast. So I thought, how can I change you, really change you, so that the good stuff stays and the rest goes?”
I suddenly felt …weird. Tunnel vision. Vertigo.
“Gloria’s friend said this should do the trick. Guess we will find out.”
And then everything went dark.
*****
“Holy shit, it actually worked,” she said from somewhere behind me.
Light was streaming into the kitchen, but my perspective seemed off.
“Fuck,” she said. “Look at you. Are you awake?”
I tried to speak but couldn’t, nor could I move at all.
“Can’t believe I’m seeing this,” she said. And then something moved briefly in front of me and I was hoisted upright.
“I can’t believe it worked…holy crap!” She said. “You’re so lifelike!”
Lifelike?
“I’m going to pretend you can understand me, because if this works the way they said, you deserve to at least know what’s going on here. What you are, at least for now. Stand and follow me.”
I was moving, somehow, following Melinda into the bedroom. “Stop,” she said, and pointed at the full-length mirror on the closet door. “Take off your clothes and look at yourself. You need to understand this.”
I saw myself, or rather some semblance of myself, in the mirror. But it was more like an idealized version of me, like a video game render or something. I looked damned good, my muscles well defined and bulging, along with my dick. My hair was tousled perfectly, I was manscaped and tidy, and I looked healthy….but also a little unreal.
“You aren’t a person, Mason, you’re not even a living thing. You’re a sex toy completely under my control. And you will remain so for three months.”
Three months!?
“You don’t need to eat or drink or shit or sleep. You’re jacked and won’t need to hit the gym.”
And then she grabbed me by my junk and stood me up.
“But THIS”, she said, “this dick is going to get a workout. Get hard now,” she barked.
I was instantly hard! My sturdy not-quite-seven-inch cock lurched almost painfully erect.
“Go soft,” she said. And sure enough, my noodle drooped.
Fuck that was weird. Not quite as weird as the look in her eyes.
“Your foreskin is growing back,” she said quietly. What? But I was cut, like most —
I felt my foreskin slide across the head of my cock like a turtleneck. The sensation was completely new to me and quite arousing, but my body wasn’t reflecting my mental arousal. I wanted to look but apparently I had so little autonomy that I couldn’t even bend my neck without her say-so.
“Fuck that’s hot,” she said. She came closer, now confident in her absolute control. She reached a delicate hand out and stroked my now uncut dick.
“No pubic hair,” she said. And it was gone. She stroked the smooth skin around my junk, enraptured.
“This is fucking amazing.” Then she placed a hand on my chest. “No breathing, no heartbeat. You feel real enough…”
I stood there, helpless, as she took stock of my body.
“I wonder. Let’s see you if you were a little more defined, maybe five pounds leaner,” she said. The fat melted off me as I stared at my reflection. She paced around me like a tiger stalking prey. “Another five pounds leaner.”
I began to panic. I was a passenger in a body that increasingly drifted from what I knew to by my own. I was just barely 6 feet tall and weighed in at 191 as of that afternoon - probably 2-3 pounds below my normal, because I hadn’t eaten dinner and fully rehydrated.
Now I was 181, apparently, but I’d become cut and defined in a way I’d only hoped to be.
“You’re too hairy. Reduce your body hair by about half,” she said. My body complied, and soon I was much sparser. The chest and belly hair that had gradually gotten thicker now resembled what it had been in my teen years.
She petted my belly, and whispered, “let’s see those abs.” I flexed involuntarily, but my abs had never lent themselves to visibility before. I had decent core strength but like most of the guys I hung with, I’d been more concerned with beefing up my chest and arms. But now I was a lot leaner, and the layer of unavoidable pudge around the middle had melted away completely. You could see them, but they weren’t nearly as impressive as the rest of me.
“I’ve always liked abs on a man,” she said. “It always annoyed me that you never got those washboard abs that really turn me on. But guess what? You now have the abs of a gymnast. Like those guys in the Olympics who work the rings.”
I was already competition-level lean, but I felt something shift as my midsection firmed up considerably. My abs popped as an enviable six-pack emerged, along with all the nice side cobbles, and an Adonis belt carved itself in.
“You were always pretty hot, Mason, but now that you’re my toy, you’re going to be my goddamned fantasy. Do you like what I’m doing?”
I did, but I didn’t want to give her the satisfaction. Plus I still couldn’t move or speak.
“Oh, of course. Can’t talk, can you? And I kind of like it that way. Let’s do this, then. Your dick can show how you really feel, without all the back talk and sarcasm. So it will get hard if you like what’s happening, and if you don’t, it’ll go soft.”
Did I like what was happening? No! I hated it! I hated not being in control!
But apparently my dick knew better.
“Interesting,” she said. “Not that it matters all that much.”
For the next several minutes, Melinda played with her toy — me — like she was creating a video game character with some decidedly non-PG options. She returned my dick to its usual cut state but continued to tweak me. Tighter butt. Softer skin. More compact ball sack. My nondescript brown hair streaked itself with gold highlights and got shaggy like a surfer. I still looked like me, but an increasingly idealized version. Every so often she would revert something, confirming that the changes could be undone, but she continued to refine my look. I could smell her arousal.
Fifteen minutes later she stopped relentlessly editing me and took stock of her work.
“Goddamn, you are so delicious looking,” she said huskily. “Time to take this hot rod for a test drive. Follow me to the bedroom, my little sex toy.”
*****
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It wasn’t the first time we’d fought, but it was the first time we’d gone to bed angry.
And it hadn’t gone away the next morning. Or the morning after. We grumpily crawled into bed and made perfunctory noises at each other, faced away from each other, and slept without cuddling.
This fight had been over dumb ordinary everyday stuff – money was tight and we were sharing expenses, and she saw some of my food splurges as extravagant. And I retorted that I needed protein and it was food and it wasn’t my fault that meat prices had gone up so much, but she didn’t need spa days and expensive hair and nail treatments.
It kind of went downhill from there. And honestly, she had a point – she worked in sales and needed to be super presentable, but I was just trying to hold onto my college physique and maybe build a little more muscle. But by the time I internally realized we were both working on our own vanity, but she had a slightly better argument for her hair and nails than I did for my 100g/day protein needs, it was already too late.
Then Melinda went to visit her friends – well, one cousin and two college friends – for the following weekend. It was at Gloria’s place, as usual; her family was loaded and had gifted her a very pleasant place to live just outside town in a pricey suburb. Every few months the girls would gather and spend the weekend together, doing whatever it is that girls do – “we window shop, drink wine, watch sappy movies, and complain about our partners”, she’d said. They’d collect her on the way home Friday and drop her off Sunday after dinner. I often managed to connect with my friends while she was away, but on this occasion the timing didn’t work out, so my big plan was to spend most of it riding my bike, playing video games, and sleeping. In practice, I had some angry jerk-off sessions to bad pornhub scenes, finished the latest Zelda game, and skipped my workouts.
I’d hoped the time apart would calm things down. It didn’t.
*****
I was dozing on the couch watching a Marvel movie when the sound of keys and annoyance woke me. My hand was down the front of my shorts and I hadn’t showered.
“I’m back,” she announced.
“Great,” I said, still grumpy.
She glared at me, clearly still grumpy.
“Mason, tell me you didn’t spend the weekend jerking it to Thor,” she said.
“Not to Thor, no,” I said rather snidely. “Tell me you didn’t spend the weekend telling the girls I’m awful and having them agree.”
“No, you’re pretty on target there. Judging by the mess, you made dinner?”
“Baked chicken, brown rice, veggies,” I said. “Just the cheap stuff, I didn’t break out a steak without permission. Wouldn’t want to be extravagant,” I snapped.
“Well, I *did* have a mani-pedi, but Gloria paid for it, so you don’t have to worry.”
She huffed and dragged her luggage back to the bedroom to unpack, presumably, but returned to the living room almost immediately. “Are those CUM RAGS on the table?”
“Yes…. I was about to clean them up.”
“You know, Gloria was right. You’re a useless horndog. Just good for sex and keeping the bed warm.”
“Fuck Gloria,” I said. Bitch had never approved of me, and I’d long suspected she was actively sabotaging our relationship.
“Her chances are better than yours right now,” she said.
“Look, I’ll clean up the dishes and stuff. I thought I had an hour before you got home.” She said nothing, just retreated to the bedroom.
We avoided each other for a while, and then at 11, I crawled into bed while she was still fucking around with her phone. No doubt complaining on the group chat.
My noncommittal “g’night” got no response.
*****
I had weird dreams that night, and I can’t remember any of them.
But when I woke up and opened my eyes, I had the distinct feeling I’d missed something important.
Melinda stood by the bed, fully dressed, giving me the stink eye.
“For fucks sake Mel, I said I was sorry, and I cleaned up. You can’t still be mad,” I growled.
“It’s not about last night,” she said, “or about the stupid argument the other day. It’s about all the other shit before that. I’m tired of the way you’ve been treating me.”
“The way I’ve….” I began.
“No. Save it for tonight,” she said decisively. “I have a meeting. But tonight, we need to have a long conversation.”
“Fine. But I get to talk too,” I said, “you don’t just get to yell at me and expect me to put up with it.”
She stomped out, and while she didn’t exactly slam any doors, she closed them with a bit of unnecessary force.
*****
One of the sources of friction was that I was unemployed, and hadn’t yet found a new job after the budget cuts at the VA hospital where I’d worked as an orderly. It was kind of tough work and paid shit, but there were benefits and I genuinely liked old folks. My favorite uncle had been in the army and I respected the folks who’d worn uniforms.
I’d been holding out for actual work that had benefits, or paid better, and nothing had materialized for four months. So I’d been focusing on getting into better shape, rather than wasting away or eating my sorrows. One of the vets had suggested I do personal training or physical therapy, but certifications cost money. Still, I was young and in good shape, and figured I could at least start a side hustle to help cover bills. Turns out getting into shape cost more than I’d realized. My savings drained quickly, but at least it was paying off in terms of physique.
Melinda worked in sales, mostly B2B stuff. Restaurant decoration and supplies, or something. She did okay, but things had been tight and I wasn’t bringing in enough. Which of course left me feeling like a shitty partner. The worst part was knowing why I’d been a dick, but unable to stop doing it.
I checked my email and some job sites, then hit the gym for a few hours, determined to burn off my own frustration via cardio and weights. Unfortunately I was late getting back, so Melinda was already home, and kind of pissed.
“So, what, you hid out in the gym to avoid talking?”
“Hello, honey, how was your day?” I snapped back sarcastically. “Can’t I even get in the door first?”
“Apparently not,” she barked back.
“Fine, talk,” I said. “Just do it while I eat.”
Ever try to pull out and reheat leftovers angrily while the person you’re angry at is standing in the dead center of the kitchen, glaring at you? Yeah, it really put the icing on the shit cake. But I was hungry and I wasn’t letting her make me miss my macros.
“For fucks sake, don’t you even want to fix this?”
“Fix this? I’m unemployed, we’re broke, you’re a bitch, and I’m a jerk.” The microwave beeped. “I’m hungry and I’m sore. Lecture away.”
“Unbelievable,” she said. “ I almost felt bad for this, you know. I wanted to give you a chance to ….well, it doesn’t matter now.” She sighed.
“Whether you know it or not, Mason, I didn’t really want this. But I really don’t think you’re going to learn any other way.”
I rolled my eyes as she pulled a small piece of wood carved with runes, and snapped it. “You have a great dick and a hot bod, but your fragile toxic masculinity got old fast. So I thought, how can I change you, really change you, so that the good stuff stays and the rest goes?”
I suddenly felt …weird. Tunnel vision. Vertigo.
“Gloria’s friend said this should do the trick. Guess we will find out.”
And then everything went dark.
*****
“Holy shit, it actually worked,” she said from somewhere behind me.
Light was streaming into the kitchen, but my perspective seemed off.
“Fuck,” she said. “Look at you. Are you awake?”
I tried to speak but couldn’t, nor could I move at all.
“Can’t believe I’m seeing this,” she said. And then something moved briefly in front of me and I was hoisted upright.
“I can’t believe it worked…holy crap!” She said. “You’re so lifelike!”
Lifelike?
“I’m going to pretend you can understand me, because if this works the way they said, you deserve to at least know what’s going on here. What you are, at least for now. Stand and follow me.”
I was moving, somehow, following Melinda into the bedroom. “Stop,” she said, and pointed at the full-length mirror on the closet door. “Take off your clothes and look at yourself. You need to understand this.”
I saw myself, or rather some semblance of myself, in the mirror. But it was more like an idealized version of me, like a video game render or something. I looked damned good, my muscles well defined and bulging, along with my dick. My hair was tousled perfectly, I was manscaped and tidy, and I looked healthy….but also a little unreal.
“You aren’t a person, Mason, you’re not even a living thing. You’re a sex toy completely under my control. And you will remain so for three months.”
Three months!?
“You don’t need to eat or drink or shit or sleep. You’re jacked and won’t need to hit the gym.”
And then she grabbed me by my junk and stood me up.
“But THIS”, she said, “this dick is going to get a workout. Get hard now,” she barked.
I was instantly hard! My sturdy not-quite-seven-inch cock lurched almost painfully erect.
“Go soft,” she said. And sure enough, my noodle drooped.
Fuck that was weird. Not quite as weird as the look in her eyes.
“Your foreskin is growing back,” she said quietly. What? But I was cut, like most —
I felt my foreskin slide across the head of my cock like a turtleneck. The sensation was completely new to me and quite arousing, but my body wasn’t reflecting my mental arousal. I wanted to look but apparently I had so little autonomy that I couldn’t even bend my neck without her say-so.
“Fuck that’s hot,” she said. She came closer, now confident in her absolute control. She reached a delicate hand out and stroked my now uncut dick.
“No pubic hair,” she said. And it was gone. She stroked the smooth skin around my junk, enraptured.
“This is fucking amazing.” Then she placed a hand on my chest. “No breathing, no heartbeat. You feel real enough…”
I stood there, helpless, as she took stock of my body.
“I wonder. Let’s see you if you were a little more defined, maybe five pounds leaner,” she said. The fat melted off me as I stared at my reflection. She paced around me like a tiger stalking prey. “Another five pounds leaner.”
I began to panic. I was a passenger in a body that increasingly drifted from what I knew to by my own. I was just barely 6 feet tall and weighed in at 191 as of that afternoon - probably 2-3 pounds below my normal, because I hadn’t eaten dinner and fully rehydrated.
Now I was 181, apparently, but I’d become cut and defined in a way I’d only hoped to be.
“You’re too hairy. Reduce your body hair by about half,” she said. My body complied, and soon I was much sparser. The chest and belly hair that had gradually gotten thicker now resembled what it had been in my teen years.
She petted my belly, and whispered, “let’s see those abs.” I flexed involuntarily, but my abs had never lent themselves to visibility before. I had decent core strength but like most of the guys I hung with, I’d been more concerned with beefing up my chest and arms. But now I was a lot leaner, and the layer of unavoidable pudge around the middle had melted away completely. You could see them, but they weren’t nearly as impressive as the rest of me.
“I’ve always liked abs on a man,” she said. “It always annoyed me that you never got those washboard abs that really turn me on. But guess what? You now have the abs of a gymnast. Like those guys in the Olympics who work the rings.”
I was already competition-level lean, but I felt something shift as my midsection firmed up considerably. My abs popped as an enviable six-pack emerged, along with all the nice side cobbles, and an Adonis belt carved itself in.
“You were always pretty hot, Mason, but now that you’re my toy, you’re going to be my goddamned fantasy. Do you like what I’m doing?”
I did, but I didn’t want to give her the satisfaction. Plus I still couldn’t move or speak.
“Oh, of course. Can’t talk, can you? And I kind of like it that way. Let’s do this, then. Your dick can show how you really feel, without all the back talk and sarcasm. So it will get hard if you like what’s happening, and if you don’t, it’ll go soft.”
Did I like what was happening? No! I hated it! I hated not being in control!
But apparently my dick knew better.
“Interesting,” she said. “Not that it matters all that much.”
For the next several minutes, Melinda played with her toy — me — like she was creating a video game character with some decidedly non-PG options. She returned my dick to its usual cut state but continued to tweak me. Tighter butt. Softer skin. More compact ball sack. My nondescript brown hair streaked itself with gold highlights and got shaggy like a surfer. I still looked like me, but an increasingly idealized version. Every so often she would revert something, confirming that the changes could be undone, but she continued to refine my look. I could smell her arousal.
Fifteen minutes later she stopped relentlessly editing me and took stock of her work.
“Goddamn, you are so delicious looking,” she said huskily. “Time to take this hot rod for a test drive. Follow me to the bedroom, my little sex toy.”
*****