So, chances probably are I am in a very small minority; I’m complex, lol.
I am not strictly a top – vers, but I pretty much only top, so vers top, if you will, a switch, and a number of other minority distinctions.
I lean more into the submissive, “service top” category. I can be dominate, but I have very little desire to destroy some guy’s anus (or vice versa) or be in control the majority of the time, and much rather my dick be used by the bottom as his own to get his rocks off. I get off more on giving/being forced to give pleasure. Add in some role play – me as a cop, con man, professor, etc., with a con man, cop, college student pairing bottom, bon appetit! That stated, those images Hennylee are hot af! I have never particularly been into puppy play, but that first image has me leaking. I can definitely be a submissive service top puppy with the leash and all, woof!
I imagine this is for several reasons. A switch, I love role reversal, so the thought of me as a top being dominated by a guy bottoming, that power dynamic, is exhilarating. I also require a level of mental stimulation that I have not seen in many other guys. I dabble in tantric practices and energy work, love foreplay, and am on some spectrum scale of sapiosexual and perhaps demisexual (or sexual-ish), as a friend suggests. Whereas I do not require a reciprocal emotional connection to be initially sexually attracted, there tends to need to be one for me to remain sexually attracted. Whether you include that in demisexual or sexual-ish, I do not know since its not really spoken of by most in terms of spectrum in and of themselves. Plus, there is a label for everything these days, who can even keep up, and I am only using these terms as a description reference point. Also, like tb_dln, penetrative sex is enough stimulation to get and keep me hard, but I rarely get off that way.
Aside from being an introvert and certain forms of overstimulation causing me a sort of sensory overload, I reckon some other contributing factors would be the concussions I suffered in HS and in the military, and the bad case of insomnia I had in college that nearly killed me. Especially given the later, many stimulants and depressants have the opposite-ish effects on my brain – sugar, guarana, energy puts me to sleep, red bull will have me knocked out, and may add to why I prefer a longer buildup.
