Hey community, I feel almost ungrateful posting this but I genuinely need advice from someone who's maybe been in my position.
Firstly I am not a virgin, I'm 32 and have been around the block for half that time. I especially pride myself on my ability to suck cock and deep throat and I really live to please my top.
However....
Last night I met up with a guy who I really like, we've been talking for some time. He's 19 for later context.
He mentioned a few times that he has a big dick and to be honest I assumed he was exaggerating, as most guys do.
Fast forward to later in the evening and we're at my place. I pull his pants down and begin to blow him. Before I know it, it feels like my throat is being ripped open and I barely make it 3/4 way down my throat. After multiple attempts I had to abandon the idea of going balls deep. Any further attempts could honestly lead to hospitalisation
.
Then he gets super eager to fuck me and I think to myself, ok sure, no problem, I've played with bigger toys. Boy was I wrong.
It felt like I was taking cock for the very first time, and not in a good way. No matter how much I tried it hurt like a bitch, but I was determined to get him in. So against my own better judgement we just kept going till I had him inside me. To be honest I honestly can't so whether it felt good or bad. My body was rejecting him.
Then I kept praying that it will just be a few minutes then he'll finish and it will be over.
I was wrong.
That 19yr old mf just did not stop. He just kept going and going. Taking brief breaks, without pulling out, and then resumed the pounding. I honestly thought I might die.
Eventually after about an hour he finally came and I was so glad it was over.
We cuddled for a bit, but not even 20 minutes later he was rock hard again. I was under the impression that at least my hole has been warmed up to his size so it won't be an issue the second time.
Again....I was wrong.
It was like taking him for the first time all over again.
This went on about 3 more times till 4am. And by that point I was almost crying.
Now I'm sitting here, feeling like I've been tripled fisted in prison and he's so eager to make plans to see me again.
I don't know if I can go through that experience again. I'm all for a good time but apparently there is such a thing as too big.
The worst part is that all I ever wanted was to experience a big cock one day, thinking it will never happen, and now I realised how naive I was.
What should I do?
