I’ve been posting solo videos/pictures and making custom videos for clients for about a year and a half now. I’ve never done anything that elicits public feedback. Getting lots of opinions from strangers is a totally new experience for me. When folks started messaging to say they were getting off on my stuff I almost didn’t believe it. It was a surreal/abstract thing to think about. It was flattering, humbling, and totally weird, but in a good way.
The DMs I get from fans are usually very complimentary, often sexually assertive, and sometimes quite vulnerable. But what’s been the most surprising to me has been how sincerely appreciate some viewers are. It’s the second most frequent type of message I get. (Sorry if this sounds like a humblebrag. I really don’t mean for it to). I just didn’t anticipate that type of response at all.
Even though my personal porn use was low for the average straight guy (or so I’m told) I’ve always been porn/sex positive. But I definitely had a superficial view of porn use in general. And I never really thought about gay men’s porn use at all. The experience of producing adult content has totally changed my view of porn and porn consumption. Until I started posting and getting appreciative kinds of messages, I never thought that making porn could actually be a type of meaningful service.
But viewers have made me see that it is sometimes. So while I’m still somewhat surprised that anyone is interested in watching my stuff at all, I actually feel quite good about providing adult content. I’m not saving the world or doing anything deep at all. But it’s nice to know that something I already do on a regular basis may have helped someone have a moment of pleasurable distraction or entertainment. ‘Cause fuck if we don’t all need that more than ever these days.
TLDR: When I hear that someone has gotten off to my content, I feel like I’ve done a little good deed for the day.