I am 65 years old and I lost my partner 3 years ago, died from Covid-19. I masturbate almost every day without necessarily cumming every time. I chose not to rebuild a couple. After 32 years of living together, in my head I am and will remain with my boyfriend but I am now physically alone. I have my toys and porn to support my alone-sexuality and I started again dating partners who I always cum with. When I have sex with guys, I feel less need to masturbate.