I have myself at 20% bi on the scale here, but I am thinking it's feeling more like 80 or 90% as time goes by!
I find my sexual desires are becoming exclusively craving needs for cock, cum, and anal penetration. Even looking at hetero porn I find it's my prostate that aches for stimulation, not my cock. I get hungry for cock and need something in my ass.
I feel and fear my bi desires are overtaking my sexual thoughts and desires. At 63 years old my sex life with my female partner of 14 years seems almost extinguished. Since menopause her libido has almost disappeared, and while I want to be with her in our relationship, I want to be able to fulfill the bisexual cravings I have.
Not sure if anyone can really weigh in on this, but I just want to share my frustrations! Maybe someone can share their thoughts who have some insights.
My fuckbuddy is in exactly the same place as he is in a sexless marriage. His wife lost interest years ago. He and her however are still very much in love and are very happy otherwise. He would never leave her and I dont want to be with a man in a personal intimate relationship.
I provide for him, a sexual outlet in many ways. A release. We meet up once a month to fuck. He is a top and Im the bottom, so naturally our needs are met.
We were aware up front from the beginning that this sexual relationship, would be only physical and were both happy with that. If anything I think thats the reason why we are happy and continue to see each other. Neither of us wants a personal relationship. Not to mention the vast age difference between us.
My fuckbuddy is a baby boomer. While he is in a sexless marriage, he still loves his wife and family. While I do consider myself bi but discrete. He still see's himself as "straight", which I respect as its none of my business or concern whatsoever. He is a very dominant, alpha male Top and I am a very submissive "feminine" bottom for him, so in many ways I provide for him a safe convenient sexual outlet for him. Our sex is mutually enjoyed, I love getting fucked by him and the way he makes me feel when we fuck, so I could not be more satisfied. Neither of us want anything more than just physical sex. There is no jealousies or feelings of being used. We continue our physical relationship, because we have good sex together, which is private, discrete and stress and drama free.
Its purely a carnal relationship, which is why I think we work so well.
I can tell there are times when he does miss the sex with his wife or a woman, because occasionally the MM sex we have, will be very "passionate" and more "love making", then usual depraved acts we enjoy and engage with. I actually enjoy the "love making" when it occasionally happens, as a point of difference. He will spend a lot of time kissing me, rimming me and sucking on me from head to toe, he is a lot more caring and loving in the way he treats my body. My hole is literally soaking from his saliva before he puts his dick inside me. Its careful, considerate and thoughtful. So naturally I adjust myself to his tempo and make sure Im a lot more feminine, caring and loving with him in response. The anal sex positions we engage with during these "love making" moments are only either spooning, suspended congress and of course missionary. He will always cum when we are in the missionary position and no other. He enjoys seeing me get off on being fucked, its about the only time when he is very considerate and careful when he fucks me.
As I said, I prefer the depraved acts we have, but also love the "love making" just because its something different and spices up our sex life. The biggest telltale sign I can tell immediately of whether we have depraved sex or love making, is the moment we meet up. If he starts kissing me passionately the moment I enter the door its always been a "romantic/love making" encounter ahead for us.
