Nimajnev
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So, for me, I was with a good chunk of my friend group, some of them more than once, and most of the time in high school + a few years after. Some of them just close to being with. Most of them multiple times. One of them eventually came out as bi, but the others have gone on to have kids and a wife.
And you know what? As an adult, I genuinely regret a lot about being with one of them. I was lucky/unlucky, and got to be with the guy whom I fell in love with. I'd been in love with him prior to us getting together, and he was aware of my feelings. When we stayed at the same place, we always slept together. Eventually, we were hanging out at my place, chatting online ( primarily because of a long distance friend ) when said LD friend casually informed the dude I was with that I taught her how to suck a dick, and that I was clearly amazing at it, based on the reaction of the guys she'd been with.
And she straight up told him if he was curious, I'd probably show him. And he said yes.
We hooked up a few times - he never did anything to me, though we had a few conversations about what we did. He didn't deny it happened, and when we had those conversations, it became more and more clear that he was starting to feel something, too, and it scared him.
And now, over a decade later, I am still in love with him. He's got a girlfriend I like, twins, and a good life. I'm positive he doesn't think about me much any more, or if he does, it's a minor thing. I have a good job, and a decent life a few states away, and if he told me he wanted me to come back, I'd break my lease and get a new job up there in a heartbeat.
It hurts more than I can say, and genuinely makes me feel like I've missed out on being with the person I will always love, and I've honestly never felt that way about anyone else since. So yeah, I've been with a few straight friends, and it was probably one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
And you know what? As an adult, I genuinely regret a lot about being with one of them. I was lucky/unlucky, and got to be with the guy whom I fell in love with. I'd been in love with him prior to us getting together, and he was aware of my feelings. When we stayed at the same place, we always slept together. Eventually, we were hanging out at my place, chatting online ( primarily because of a long distance friend ) when said LD friend casually informed the dude I was with that I taught her how to suck a dick, and that I was clearly amazing at it, based on the reaction of the guys she'd been with.
And she straight up told him if he was curious, I'd probably show him. And he said yes.
We hooked up a few times - he never did anything to me, though we had a few conversations about what we did. He didn't deny it happened, and when we had those conversations, it became more and more clear that he was starting to feel something, too, and it scared him.
And now, over a decade later, I am still in love with him. He's got a girlfriend I like, twins, and a good life. I'm positive he doesn't think about me much any more, or if he does, it's a minor thing. I have a good job, and a decent life a few states away, and if he told me he wanted me to come back, I'd break my lease and get a new job up there in a heartbeat.
It hurts more than I can say, and genuinely makes me feel like I've missed out on being with the person I will always love, and I've honestly never felt that way about anyone else since. So yeah, I've been with a few straight friends, and it was probably one of the biggest mistakes of my life.