Ex gf's current boyfriend is bigger than me, and it's stirring something inside me

[Thickershock]

Hey, not sure if this is the right forum for this, but I wanted to share because it's an unfamiliar feeling for me and I was curious if anyone else has had a similar experience.

I'm pretty hung (about 8" and thick), and I'm used to being the biggest whoever my partner has had. Until recently, no woman has told me that they had been with a bigger guy, so it's been a source of pride for me. I consider myself pretty dominant and alpha and often fantasize about being the bull for couples. After catching up with my recent ex girlfriend though and hearing about her current man, that's all starting to change. The TLDR is that he is bigger than me and she admitted the sex is amazing, better than with me. No one has ever said that to me, and now it's giving me very strong cuckold feelings.

This ex (let's call her Lauren) and I dated for about 2 years. She's great, but we had opposite schedules and she ended up moving away for work, so we decided to split. We ended things on good terms and have kept in touch. Recently she brought up her boyfriend and I asked how things were going, and she said everything was great. I made a joking comment, hoping he wasn't another "Daniel" (an ex she had before me who she said had a small penis and came almost instantly). She replied and said "no, quite the opposite!!". So that piqued my interest. Here's how the convo went, but let me preface that she is not some sexual freak: she literally grew up on a farm and has the ultimate girl-next-door look. She got straight As in school and is super sweet and pretty shy. Kinda nerdy in a great way, but has a bangin body and an amazing bubble butt for a white girl. I was obsessed with it. Her current boyfriend is this ripped black guy that I think she met on a dating app. Anyways, here's how the convo went after she said "no, quite the opposite!!":

Me: "Oh, that's good! So he's big then?"
Lauren: "Ummm.... yes LOL"
Me: "Good for you! Not bigger than me I hope?? lol"
Lauren: <monkey covering mouth emoji>
Me: "Wow, good for you!"
Lauren: "Sorry, you asked!"
Me: "No, it's all good! You know I'm not the jealous type. Happy to hear you're getting the good stuff lol. So it sounds like the sex is good then?"
Lauren: "Its really good."
Me: "Awesome, I'm glad for you. I'm surprised you can take him if he's bigger than me!"
Lauren: "I know right?!"
Me: "How much bigger is he than me? Just curious"
Lauren: "Lol, why do you want to know?"
Me: "I dunno, it's kinda hot to think about"
Lauren: "Really? Why is that?"
(it took me a bit to figure out the best reply for this bc I didn't want to weird her out and I wanted her to keep talking)
Me: "Hard to explain! But it's hot to imagine you taking a really huge dick. That's probably weird for me to say lol. But part of it is also that I know you enjoyed mine, so you must really enjoy his, so it makes me happy that you're happy and having good sex."
Lauren: "Aww! That's not weird. It's actually pretty sweet!"
Lauren: "Yes, I do enjoy his. He's probably an inch or so bigger than you and maybe thicker too. And it curves in a way that feels amazing. It's also really pretty to look at (like yours!)"
Me: "Nice! Sounds like you hit the dick jackpot lol"
Lauren: "LOL I really did. And he really knows how to use it. I can't get enough lol"
Me: "That's so hot"
Lauren: "LOL you're funny. Are you sure you're OK with me saying things like that? I don't want to hurt feelings or make you jealous, you know I'm not like that. I'm only saying these things bc you asked!"
Me: "No, it's good, keep going! It's really hot to hear"
Lauren: "Lol are you getting turned on?"
Me: "Kinda, yeah!"
Lauren: "Really? You're so funny"
Me: <shrugging emoji>
Lauren: "but yeah, everything is good in the sex department."
Me: "Sounds like it, that's awesome. Sounds like some epic sex. Hope he gives it to you often!"
Lauren: "Almost every day, unless I'm too sore LOL. But even if I can't have sex, I at least will give him a BJ."
Lauren: "He tole me he wants a blowjob ever day and I think I've done it every day since. I actually really enjoy it. I like the challenge LOL"
Me: "Hot!! He's a lucky man..."
Lauren: "I'm lucky too though, for real. Sometimes I think I enjoy giving him head more than he does lol. Not that he doesn't like it, it's just that it turns me on to do it."
Me: "That's awesome. You think it turns you on because he's so big?"
Lauren: "Yeah, that's a big part of it. It's big but also beautiful. I get wet when I do it"
Lauren: "Sorry if that is TMI!! We can talk about something else if you want lol"
Me: "No, I appreciate you sharing this with me and love hearing about it! Thank you for being so open"
Lauren: "Thanks for being cool about it! You know I really enjoyed the sex we had too, right?"
Me: "I do, and I enjoyed it too, and you saying these things doesn't make me feel any different about anything, so we're all good."
Lauren: "OK cool. I'm happy to answer questions bc you seem to be enjoying it lol but let me know if I say something that hurts your feelings. I don't want that at all."
Me: "I know, and you're not at all, seriously. I'm really enjoying the convo."
Lauren: OK cool
Me: "So he asked to get a BJ every day and you get wet doing it, that is so hot."
Lauren: "Yeah, I often wake him up with one, first thing in the morning
Me: "What a way to start the day!!"
Lauren; "LOL, right?? But sometimes I stop before he cums because I want to have sex."
Me: "If you don't have sex, where does he cum?"
Lauren: "... I swallow it <monkey closing mouth emoji>"
Me: "Damn girl!! Amazing!! He is living the best life!"
(At this point I'm feeling some jealousy because she never swallowed me, ever, and she blew me maybe 2 times a month...But I'm not going to bring that up)
Lauren: LOL yup
Me: "Does he ask you to swallow it?"
Lauren: "No, actually. I just do it. I just kinda have an urge to do it and just go with it. I actually enjoy it."
Me: "That is so hot. I'm glad you are both benefiting from it and enjoying it."
Lauren:
Me: "Do you try to deepthroat it?"
Lauren: "I do, but I am not coming close lol. I practice though. He said he wants to train me lol."
Me: "Practice makes perfect!"
Lauren: "Lol yep! It's fun trying"
Me: "Damn, must be a hot sight. And the sex doesn't hurt?"
Lauren: "No, it feels amazing. He's gentle with me at first and then gets pretty dominant which I've found that I enjoy. Not like pain stuff, but he's strong and can toss me around lol"
Me: "Sounds like orgasms galore lol"
Lauren: "Seriously! I climax every time, and you know that is hard for me to do!"
(My jaw was on the ground at this point because her thing was that she had never cum from penetration - not with me, or with any guy before me. She would tell me she thought it was impossible for her. And now I'm hearing that she cums EVERY TIME with this guy....)
Me: "Amazing!! That is awesome, I'm so happy for you!!"
Lauren: "Thank you!! I'm happy too, you know I thought it would never happen."
Me: "What do you think it is that did it, the size?"
Lauren: "The size is a big part. The shape, how he uses it, I dunno... whatever it is, it works lol"
Me: "That's awesome, I'm glad to hear it!"
Lauren: "I even squirt sometimes!"
Me: "Woah!!"
(I am floored)
Lauren: "I know! I was so embarrassed when it happened the first time, I didn't know what was happening lol. Then it happened again and it would always coincide with a really big orgasm and I now can feel it coming. Crazy!!"
Me: "That is so hot. You must need to change your sheets often lol"
Lauren: "I do! We put an extra sheet down now LOL"
Me: "Lol amazing"
Me: "So this sounds like some best-ever type sex here. Is he a porn star or something??"
Lauren: "It really is. Nope, just a regular guy!"
(Hearing it's the best sex ever for her gave me a feeling in the pit of my stomach, but I was also rock hard)
Me: "Well you better not let him go, it sounds like you picked a winner there"
Lauren: "Oh, he's not going anywhere lol. I want to have sex with him for the rest of my life, I literally can't get enough lol. It's insane."
Lauren: ""That's another part of why I suck him every day, I want to keep him happy lol"
Me: "Damn, that's hot. I bet you guys look insanely hot having sex"
Lauren: "I think we do
Me: "He must love your ass. Is he obsessed with it like I was?"
Lauren: "Oh yeah lol. He's always grabbing it or smacking it. He wants me to wear booty shorts in the house all the time lol"
Me: "I don't blame him! Do you wear them?"
Lauren: "Yup Or just revealing underwear or a thong"
Me: "Holy fuck this is so hot"
Lauren: "lol"

( actually came at this point. I was so hard and was stroking in between texts, and the thought of my sweet, dorky ex walking around in booty shorts for this ripped black guy with a huge cock was too much. I busted an enormous load. Then I started coming down and the I felt a little awkward for asking all those questions, so I felt I should wrap it up. I basically told her that I should go, and thanks for sharing, and she said thanks for being cool and she asked me things about my life and my wife and we chatted a little longer about normal stuff.

Ever since, all I've been fantasizing about it the two of them together. Her cumming, squirting, swallowing his cum, worshipping his cock. I even think about this guy fucking my wife. Like, I have an urge to hand her over to him and let him make my wife's pussy his. Like he deserves her. I picture my wife and my ex sucking his cock together. I picture my wife walking around in booty shorts for him. Her sitting on his lap and kissing him while she strokes his cock. I've been watching more cuckold porn and I never used to. It's like I've gone from a "bull" to a "cuckold" after a single text conversation. I'm feeling submissive, especially towards this guy who I've never met. It's a wild feeling that I'm not used to. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Am I crazy for feeling this way? Is this a phase, or do you think this was something that's been inside me that just got unlocked?

Thanks for reading this wall of text!

 

[Thickershock]

Hey, not sure if this is the right forum for this, but I wanted to share because it's an unfamiliar feeling for me and I was curious if anyone else has had a similar experience.

I'm pretty hung (about 8" and thick), and I'm used to being the biggest whoever my partner has had. Until recently, no woman has told me that they had been with a bigger guy, so it's been a source of pride for me. I consider myself pretty dominant and alpha and often fantasize about being the bull for couples. After catching up with my recent ex girlfriend though and hearing about her current man, that's all starting to change. The TLDR is that he is bigger than me and she admitted the sex is amazing, better than with me. No one has ever said that to me, and now it's giving me very strong cuckold feelings.

This ex (let's call her Lauren) and I dated for about 2 years. She's great, but we had opposite schedules and she ended up moving away for work, so we decided to split. We ended things on good terms and have kept in touch. Recently she brought up her boyfriend and I asked how things were going, and she said everything was great. I made a joking comment, hoping he wasn't another "Daniel" (an ex she had before me who she said had a small penis and came almost instantly). She replied and said "no, quite the opposite!!". So that piqued my interest. Here's how the convo went, but let me preface that she is not some sexual freak: she literally grew up on a farm and has the ultimate girl-next-door look. She got straight As in school and is super sweet and pretty shy. Kinda nerdy in a great way, but has a bangin body and an amazing bubble butt for a white girl. I was obsessed with it. Her current boyfriend is this ripped black guy that I think she met on a dating app. Anyways, here's how the convo went after she said "no, quite the opposite!!":

Me: "Oh, that's good! So he's big then?"
Lauren: "Ummm.... yes LOL"
Me: "Good for you! Not bigger than me I hope?? lol"
Lauren: <monkey covering mouth emoji>
Me: "Wow, good for you!"
Lauren: "Sorry, you asked!"
Me: "No, it's all good! You know I'm not the jealous type. Happy to hear you're getting the good stuff lol. So it sounds like the sex is good then?"
Lauren: "Its really good."
Me: "Awesome, I'm glad for you. I'm surprised you can take him if he's bigger than me!"
Lauren: "I know right?!"
Me: "How much bigger is he than me? Just curious"
Lauren: "Lol, why do you want to know?"
Me: "I dunno, it's kinda hot to think about"
Lauren: "Really? Why is that?"
(it took me a bit to figure out the best reply for this bc I didn't want to weird her out and I wanted her to keep talking)
Me: "Hard to explain! But it's hot to imagine you taking a really huge dick. That's probably weird for me to say lol. But part of it is also that I know you enjoyed mine, so you must really enjoy his, so it makes me happy that you're happy and having good sex."
Lauren: "Aww! That's not weird. It's actually pretty sweet!"
Lauren: "Yes, I do enjoy his. He's probably an inch or so bigger than you and maybe thicker too. And it curves in a way that feels amazing. It's also really pretty to look at (like yours!)"
Me: "Nice! Sounds like you hit the dick jackpot lol"
Lauren: "LOL I really did. And he really knows how to use it. I can't get enough lol"
Me: "That's so hot"
Lauren: "LOL you're funny. Are you sure you're OK with me saying things like that? I don't want to hurt feelings or make you jealous, you know I'm not like that. I'm only saying these things bc you asked!"
Me: "No, it's good, keep going! It's really hot to hear"
Lauren: "Lol are you getting turned on?"
Me: "Kinda, yeah!"
Lauren: "Really? You're so funny"
Me: <shrugging emoji>
Lauren: "but yeah, everything is good in the sex department."
Me: "Sounds like it, that's awesome. Sounds like some epic sex. Hope he gives it to you often!"
Lauren: "Almost every day, unless I'm too sore LOL. But even if I can't have sex, I at least will give him a BJ."
Lauren: "He tole me he wants a blowjob ever day and I think I've done it every day since. I actually really enjoy it. I like the challenge LOL"
Me: "Hot!! He's a lucky man..."
Lauren: "I'm lucky too though, for real. Sometimes I think I enjoy giving him head more than he does lol. Not that he doesn't like it, it's just that it turns me on to do it."
Me: "That's awesome. You think it turns you on because he's so big?"
Lauren: "Yeah, that's a big part of it. It's big but also beautiful. I get wet when I do it"
Lauren: "Sorry if that is TMI!! We can talk about something else if you want lol"
Me: "No, I appreciate you sharing this with me and love hearing about it! Thank you for being so open"
Lauren: "Thanks for being cool about it! You know I really enjoyed the sex we had too, right?"
Me: "I do, and I enjoyed it too, and you saying these things doesn't make me feel any different about anything, so we're all good."
Lauren: "OK cool. I'm happy to answer questions bc you seem to be enjoying it lol but let me know if I say something that hurts your feelings. I don't want that at all."
Me: "I know, and you're not at all, seriously. I'm really enjoying the convo."
Lauren: OK cool
Me: "So he asked to get a BJ every day and you get wet doing it, that is so hot."
Lauren: "Yeah, I often wake him up with one, first thing in the morning
Me: "What a way to start the day!!"
Lauren; "LOL, right?? But sometimes I stop before he cums because I want to have sex."
Me: "If you don't have sex, where does he cum?"
Lauren: "... I swallow it <monkey closing mouth emoji>"
Me: "Damn girl!! Amazing!! He is living the best life!"
(At this point I'm feeling some jealousy because she never swallowed me, ever, and she blew me maybe 2 times a month...But I'm not going to bring that up)
Lauren: LOL yup
Me: "Does he ask you to swallow it?"
Lauren: "No, actually. I just do it. I just kinda have an urge to do it and just go with it. I actually enjoy it."
Me: "That is so hot. I'm glad you are both benefiting from it and enjoying it."
Lauren:
Me: "Do you try to deepthroat it?"
Lauren: "I do, but I am not coming close lol. I practice though. He said he wants to train me lol."
Me: "Practice makes perfect!"
Lauren: "Lol yep! It's fun trying"
Me: "Damn, must be a hot sight. And the sex doesn't hurt?"
Lauren: "No, it feels amazing. He's gentle with me at first and then gets pretty dominant which I've found that I enjoy. Not like pain stuff, but he's strong and can toss me around lol"
Me: "Sounds like orgasms galore lol"
Lauren: "Seriously! I climax every time, and you know that is hard for me to do!"
(My jaw was on the ground at this point because her thing was that she had never cum from penetration - not with me, or with any guy before me. She would tell me she thought it was impossible for her. And now I'm hearing that she cums EVERY TIME with this guy....)
Me: "Amazing!! That is awesome, I'm so happy for you!!"
Lauren: "Thank you!! I'm happy too, you know I thought it would never happen."
Me: "What do you think it is that did it, the size?"
Lauren: "The size is a big part. The shape, how he uses it, I dunno... whatever it is, it works lol"
Me: "That's awesome, I'm glad to hear it!"
Lauren: "I even squirt sometimes!"
Me: "Woah!!"
(I am floored)
Lauren: "I know! I was so embarrassed when it happened the first time, I didn't know what was happening lol. Then it happened again and it would always coincide with a really big orgasm and I now can feel it coming. Crazy!!"
Me: "That is so hot. You must need to change your sheets often lol"
Lauren: "I do! We put an extra sheet down now LOL"
Me: "Lol amazing"
Me: "So this sounds like some best-ever type sex here. Is he a porn star or something??"
Lauren: "It really is. Nope, just a regular guy!"
(Hearing it's the best sex ever for her gave me a feeling in the pit of my stomach, but I was also rock hard)
Me: "Well you better not let him go, it sounds like you picked a winner there"
Lauren: "Oh, he's not going anywhere lol. I want to have sex with him for the rest of my life, I literally can't get enough lol. It's insane."
Lauren: ""That's another part of why I suck him every day, I want to keep him happy lol"
Me: "Damn, that's hot. I bet you guys look insanely hot having sex"
Lauren: "I think we do
Me: "He must love your ass. Is he obsessed with it like I was?"
Lauren: "Oh yeah lol. He's always grabbing it or smacking it. He wants me to wear booty shorts in the house all the time lol"
Me: "I don't blame him! Do you wear them?"
Lauren: "Yup Or just revealing underwear or a thong"
Me: "Holy fuck this is so hot"
Lauren: "lol"

( actually came at this point. I was so hard and was stroking in between texts, and the thought of my sweet, dorky ex walking around in booty shorts for this ripped black guy with a huge cock was too much. I busted an enormous load. Then I started coming down and the I felt a little awkward for asking all those questions, so I felt I should wrap it up. I basically told her that I should go, and thanks for sharing, and she said thanks for being cool and she asked me things about my life and my wife and we chatted a little longer about normal stuff.

Ever since, all I've been fantasizing about it the two of them together. Her cumming, squirting, swallowing his cum, worshipping his cock. I even think about this guy fucking my wife. Like, I have an urge to hand her over to him and let him make my wife's pussy his. Like he deserves her. I picture my wife and my ex sucking his cock together. I picture my wife walking around in booty shorts for him. Her sitting on his lap and kissing him while she strokes his cock. I've been watching more cuckold porn and I never used to. It's like I've gone from a "bull" to a "cuckold" after a single text conversation. I'm feeling submissive, especially towards this guy who I've never met. It's a wild feeling that I'm not used to. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Am I crazy for feeling this way? Is this a phase, or do you think this was something that's been inside me that just got unlocked?

Thanks for reading this wall of text!

 

[Evenflow618]

I doubt he is bigger than 8 inches. She probably is more attracted to him. Women are horrible at estimating size.

 

[ananwiwi88]

Hey!

That thing of having a feeling in the pit of the stomach and being hard at the same time could mean something, yes. Sex balances our psyche, if you have built your own identity during all your life basing in your size and in being dominant (two things that normally are expected by girls to come along when you're a straight/bi big guy), it is normal to be punctually attracted towards more submissive-role experiences. Something similar happens to powerful people (CEOs, politicians...) when they search dominatrix, etc (first hand information).

Probably what turns you on is the concept of two women being submissive to a super alpha male, or maybe addopting the cuckold role. In my case, I would say that the first option is more likely to be the case.
Anyhoo, I would definetly be open minded towards your sexuality and accept every turnon unless it's harmfull for anyone else (which is not the case). You will still be the same alpha jock regardless of what you fantasize about or what you turnons are

P.S. 8" WOW

 

[Thickershock]

Hey!

That thing of having a feeling in the pit of the stomach and being hard at the same time could mean something, yes. Sex balances our psyche, if you have built your own identity during all your life basing in your size and in being dominant (two things that normally are expected by girls to come along when you're a straight/bi big guy), it is normal to be punctually attracted towards more submissive-role experiences. Something similar happens to powerful people (CEOs, politicians...) when they search dominatrix, etc (first hand information).

Probably what turns you on is the concept of two women being submissive to a super alpha male, or maybe addopting the cuckold role. In my case, I would say that the first option is more likely to be the case.
Anyhoo, I would definetly be open minded towards your sexuality and accept every turnon unless it's harmfull for anyone else (which is not the case). You will still be the same alpha jock regardless of what you fantasize about or what you turnons are

P.S. 8" WOW

Thank you for the thoughtful reply! I think you're onto something. It's a bit of a role reversal to feel submissive like this, and it's a new concept to hear about someone being bigger and fucking better than me, so the jealousy is tied with arousal for sure. The idea of two women that I have had sex with becoming submissive with a super alpha who is more hung, more fit, stronger, more dominant, etc. is wildly arousing. I just didn't expect to feel that way. I'm definitely open minded when it comes to my sexuality, so I'm embracing it and not trying not to let myself feel bad about it. I'm still being dominant with my wife in the bedroom and am still feeling alpha in general, so that's a good sign. But at the same time, I would pay to watch this guy fuck my wife, and that sounds so crazy to me! But it's a common enough fantasy

 

[Derringer]

I have a tiny penis and developed a SPH fetish ( small penis humiliation) which led me to several telationships where I have engaged in cuckold activity. I totally get off being outmanned by other guys and watching them fuck my partner(s). Of course it is the norm that other guys are better endowed than me and most of my exes confessed I was smaller than any of the guys they have fucked.

 

[deleted18817831]

Thank you for the thoughtful reply! I think you're onto something. It's a bit of a role reversal to feel submissive like this, and it's a new concept to hear about someone being bigger and fucking better than me, so the jealousy is tied with arousal for sure. The idea of two women that I have had sex with becoming submissive with a super alpha who is more hung, more fit, stronger, more dominant, etc. is wildly arousing. I just didn't expect to feel that way. I'm definitely open minded when it comes to my sexuality, so I'm embracing it and not trying not to let myself feel bad about it. I'm still being dominant with my wife in the bedroom and am still feeling alpha in general, so that's a good sign. But at the same time, I would pay to watch this guy fuck my wife, and that sounds so crazy to me! But it's a common enough fantasy

I've always loved the cuck fantasy. Knowing another man can do stuff you can't. The humiliation and jealousy is just a bonus

 

[deleted18817831]

Thank you for the thoughtful reply! I think you're onto something. It's a bit of a role reversal to feel submissive like this, and it's a new concept to hear about someone being bigger and fucking better than me, so the jealousy is tied with arousal for sure. The idea of two women that I have had sex with becoming submissive with a super alpha who is more hung, more fit, stronger, more dominant, etc. is wildly arousing. I just didn't expect to feel that way. I'm definitely open minded when it comes to my sexuality, so I'm embracing it and not trying not to let myself feel bad about it. I'm still being dominant with my wife in the bedroom and am still feeling alpha in general, so that's a good sign. But at the same time, I would pay to watch this guy fuck my wife, and that sounds so crazy to me! But it's a common enough fantasy

Btw, beautiful prick and body. Would you do a bi 3way with your wife and another dude?

 

[glocker288]

While I didn’t know the term cuckold at the time, hearing about an ex girlfriend being with another guy was what sparked my interest in having women in my life currently or previously be with other men that were bigger than me. Ever since my wife and I were dating before marriage, I have thought about her being with other men and loved hearing about her ex before me and his size.

 

[Derringer]

Thank you for the thoughtful reply! I think you're onto something. It's a bit of a role reversal to feel submissive like this, and it's a new concept to hear about someone being bigger and fucking better than me, so the jealousy is tied with arousal for sure. The idea of two women that I have had sex with becoming submissive with a super alpha who is more hung, more fit, stronger, more dominant, etc. is wildly arousing. I just didn't expect to feel that way. I'm definitely open minded when it comes to my sexuality, so I'm embracing it and not trying not to let myself feel bad about it. I'm still being dominant with my wife in the bedroom and am still feeling alpha in general, so that's a good sign. But at the same time, I would pay to watch this guy fuck my wife, and that sounds so crazy to me! But it's a common enough fantasy

Part of my sph kick is down to being a generally alpha type but having a tiny penis. I particularily get off on watching otherwise less outwardly alpha personality guys with big cocks fucking my gf.

 

[deleted18817831]

Part of my sph kick is down to being a generally alpha type but having a tiny penis. I particularily get off on watching otherwise less outwardly alpha personality guys with big cocks fucking my gf.

I think tiny penises can be sexy

 

[Derringer]

I think tiny penises can be sexy

soft mine is better described as a large clit (if you factor in shrinkage) Compared to larger swinging dicks it definitely looks like a clit even without shrinkage.

 

[deleted18817831]

soft mine is better described as a large clit (if you factor in shrinkage) Compared to larger swinging dicks it definitely looks like a clit even without shrinkage.

I'd love to lick and suck it

 

[marriedasian]

I don't think size has anything to do with this story but more so that the OP got out-played by another. The new BF was able to give his ex-GF something that he wasn't able to. Since the OP's pride is penis-centric, the OP will automatically gravitate towards "bigger dick = better everything". The odd coincidence that the new BF is "bigger" than the OP is an alarming and unforeseen set of circumstances that the OP has never had to deal with so the confusion is embarrassing, belittling, and erotic at the same time especially hearing it directly from the ex-GF. I wonder how things would be if the new BF was able to do all that but had a smaller penis; would that have been harder to swallow?

to the OP: you already won the lottery with a thick 8-incher, there's no need to get hung up on your ex's new BF. it's impossible for you to be the "biggest". be happy and very grateful that you are "big" and go get that next pussy instead of being hung up on previous pussy.

 

[heinz.friedrich]

Since the OP's pride is penis-centric, the OP will automatically gravitate towards "bigger dick = better everything". The odd coincidence that the new BF is "bigger" than the OP is an alarming and unforeseen set of circumstances that the OP has never had to deal with so the confusion is embarrassing, belittling, and erotic at the same time especially hearing it directly from the ex-GF.

Agree. I want to expand on it.

Pride is usually that you the feeling of superiority ( I am not a native English speaker but I think this means the same in English). There is a saying: Pride comes before the fall. You are usually not the best at anything so you fall logically at a time in the future, when you discover that you are not the best at this thing you are prideful about.

IF you were not prideful in the first place, you would not fall, because you do not attribute a value on penis size.

The TLDR is that he is bigger than me and she admitted the sex is amazing, better than with me. No one has ever said that to me, and now it's giving me very strong cuckold feelings.

You are judging yourself as inferior, so you have lack of respect for yourself. The is the opposite of pride. You feel inferior instead of superior.

Is this a phase, or do you think this was something that's been inside me that just got unlocked?

If you value everybody including yourself regardless of penis size, you will care about the size of another and therefore you wont feel anything. It depends if you what you will do.

 

[ItalTony9]

Hey, not sure if this is the right forum for this, but I wanted to share because it's an unfamiliar feeling for me and I was curious if anyone else has had a similar experience.

I'm pretty hung (about 8" and thick), and I'm used to being the biggest whoever my partner has had. Until recently, no woman has told me that they had been with a bigger guy, so it's been a source of pride for me. I consider myself pretty dominant and alpha and often fantasize about being the bull for couples. After catching up with my recent ex girlfriend though and hearing about her current man, that's all starting to change. The TLDR is that he is bigger than me and she admitted the sex is amazing, better than with me. No one has ever said that to me, and now it's giving me very strong cuckold feelings.

This ex (let's call her Lauren) and I dated for about 2 years. She's great, but we had opposite schedules and she ended up moving away for work, so we decided to split. We ended things on good terms and have kept in touch. Recently she brought up her boyfriend and I asked how things were going, and she said everything was great. I made a joking comment, hoping he wasn't another "Daniel" (an ex she had before me who she said had a small penis and came almost instantly). She replied and said "no, quite the opposite!!". So that piqued my interest. Here's how the convo went, but let me preface that she is not some sexual freak: she literally grew up on a farm and has the ultimate girl-next-door look. She got straight As in school and is super sweet and pretty shy. Kinda nerdy in a great way, but has a bangin body and an amazing bubble butt for a white girl. I was obsessed with it. Her current boyfriend is this ripped black guy that I think she met on a dating app. Anyways, here's how the convo went after she said "no, quite the opposite!!":

Me: "Oh, that's good! So he's big then?"
Lauren: "Ummm.... yes LOL"
Me: "Good for you! Not bigger than me I hope?? lol"
Lauren: <monkey covering mouth emoji>
Me: "Wow, good for you!"
Lauren: "Sorry, you asked!"
Me: "No, it's all good! You know I'm not the jealous type. Happy to hear you're getting the good stuff lol. So it sounds like the sex is good then?"
Lauren: "Its really good."
Me: "Awesome, I'm glad for you. I'm surprised you can take him if he's bigger than me!"
Lauren: "I know right?!"
Me: "How much bigger is he than me? Just curious"
Lauren: "Lol, why do you want to know?"
Me: "I dunno, it's kinda hot to think about"
Lauren: "Really? Why is that?"
(it took me a bit to figure out the best reply for this bc I didn't want to weird her out and I wanted her to keep talking)
Me: "Hard to explain! But it's hot to imagine you taking a really huge dick. That's probably weird for me to say lol. But part of it is also that I know you enjoyed mine, so you must really enjoy his, so it makes me happy that you're happy and having good sex."
Lauren: "Aww! That's not weird. It's actually pretty sweet!"
Lauren: "Yes, I do enjoy his. He's probably an inch or so bigger than you and maybe thicker too. And it curves in a way that feels amazing. It's also really pretty to look at (like yours!)"
Me: "Nice! Sounds like you hit the dick jackpot lol"
Lauren: "LOL I really did. And he really knows how to use it. I can't get enough lol"
Me: "That's so hot"
Lauren: "LOL you're funny. Are you sure you're OK with me saying things like that? I don't want to hurt feelings or make you jealous, you know I'm not like that. I'm only saying these things bc you asked!"
Me: "No, it's good, keep going! It's really hot to hear"
Lauren: "Lol are you getting turned on?"
Me: "Kinda, yeah!"
Lauren: "Really? You're so funny"
Me: <shrugging emoji>
Lauren: "but yeah, everything is good in the sex department."
Me: "Sounds like it, that's awesome. Sounds like some epic sex. Hope he gives it to you often!"
Lauren: "Almost every day, unless I'm too sore LOL. But even if I can't have sex, I at least will give him a BJ."
Lauren: "He tole me he wants a blowjob ever day and I think I've done it every day since. I actually really enjoy it. I like the challenge LOL"
Me: "Hot!! He's a lucky man..."
Lauren: "I'm lucky too though, for real. Sometimes I think I enjoy giving him head more than he does lol. Not that he doesn't like it, it's just that it turns me on to do it."
Me: "That's awesome. You think it turns you on because he's so big?"
Lauren: "Yeah, that's a big part of it. It's big but also beautiful. I get wet when I do it"
Lauren: "Sorry if that is TMI!! We can talk about something else if you want lol"
Me: "No, I appreciate you sharing this with me and love hearing about it! Thank you for being so open"
Lauren: "Thanks for being cool about it! You know I really enjoyed the sex we had too, right?"
Me: "I do, and I enjoyed it too, and you saying these things doesn't make me feel any different about anything, so we're all good."
Lauren: "OK cool. I'm happy to answer questions bc you seem to be enjoying it lol but let me know if I say something that hurts your feelings. I don't want that at all."
Me: "I know, and you're not at all, seriously. I'm really enjoying the convo."
Lauren: OK cool
Me: "So he asked to get a BJ every day and you get wet doing it, that is so hot."
Lauren: "Yeah, I often wake him up with one, first thing in the morning
Me: "What a way to start the day!!"
Lauren; "LOL, right?? But sometimes I stop before he cums because I want to have sex."
Me: "If you don't have sex, where does he cum?"
Lauren: "... I swallow it <monkey closing mouth emoji>"
Me: "Damn girl!! Amazing!! He is living the best life!"
(At this point I'm feeling some jealousy because she never swallowed me, ever, and she blew me maybe 2 times a month...But I'm not going to bring that up)
Lauren: LOL yup
Me: "Does he ask you to swallow it?"
Lauren: "No, actually. I just do it. I just kinda have an urge to do it and just go with it. I actually enjoy it."
Me: "That is so hot. I'm glad you are both benefiting from it and enjoying it."
Lauren:
Me: "Do you try to deepthroat it?"
Lauren: "I do, but I am not coming close lol. I practice though. He said he wants to train me lol."
Me: "Practice makes perfect!"
Lauren: "Lol yep! It's fun trying"
Me: "Damn, must be a hot sight. And the sex doesn't hurt?"
Lauren: "No, it feels amazing. He's gentle with me at first and then gets pretty dominant which I've found that I enjoy. Not like pain stuff, but he's strong and can toss me around lol"
Me: "Sounds like orgasms galore lol"
Lauren: "Seriously! I climax every time, and you know that is hard for me to do!"
(My jaw was on the ground at this point because her thing was that she had never cum from penetration - not with me, or with any guy before me. She would tell me she thought it was impossible for her. And now I'm hearing that she cums EVERY TIME with this guy....)
Me: "Amazing!! That is awesome, I'm so happy for you!!"
Lauren: "Thank you!! I'm happy too, you know I thought it would never happen."
Me: "What do you think it is that did it, the size?"
Lauren: "The size is a big part. The shape, how he uses it, I dunno... whatever it is, it works lol"
Me: "That's awesome, I'm glad to hear it!"
Lauren: "I even squirt sometimes!"
Me: "Woah!!"
(I am floored)
Lauren: "I know! I was so embarrassed when it happened the first time, I didn't know what was happening lol. Then it happened again and it would always coincide with a really big orgasm and I now can feel it coming. Crazy!!"
Me: "That is so hot. You must need to change your sheets often lol"
Lauren: "I do! We put an extra sheet down now LOL"
Me: "Lol amazing"
Me: "So this sounds like some best-ever type sex here. Is he a porn star or something??"
Lauren: "It really is. Nope, just a regular guy!"
(Hearing it's the best sex ever for her gave me a feeling in the pit of my stomach, but I was also rock hard)
Me: "Well you better not let him go, it sounds like you picked a winner there"
Lauren: "Oh, he's not going anywhere lol. I want to have sex with him for the rest of my life, I literally can't get enough lol. It's insane."
Lauren: ""That's another part of why I suck him every day, I want to keep him happy lol"
Me: "Damn, that's hot. I bet you guys look insanely hot having sex"
Lauren: "I think we do
Me: "He must love your ass. Is he obsessed with it like I was?"
Lauren: "Oh yeah lol. He's always grabbing it or smacking it. He wants me to wear booty shorts in the house all the time lol"
Me: "I don't blame him! Do you wear them?"
Lauren: "Yup Or just revealing underwear or a thong"
Me: "Holy fuck this is so hot"
Lauren: "lol"

( actually came at this point. I was so hard and was stroking in between texts, and the thought of my sweet, dorky ex walking around in booty shorts for this ripped black guy with a huge cock was too much. I busted an enormous load. Then I started coming down and the I felt a little awkward for asking all those questions, so I felt I should wrap it up. I basically told her that I should go, and thanks for sharing, and she said thanks for being cool and she asked me things about my life and my wife and we chatted a little longer about normal stuff.

Ever since, all I've been fantasizing about it the two of them together. Her cumming, squirting, swallowing his cum, worshipping his cock. I even think about this guy fucking my wife. Like, I have an urge to hand her over to him and let him make my wife's pussy his. Like he deserves her. I picture my wife and my ex sucking his cock together. I picture my wife walking around in booty shorts for him. Her sitting on his lap and kissing him while she strokes his cock. I've been watching more cuckold porn and I never used to. It's like I've gone from a "bull" to a "cuckold" after a single text conversation. I'm feeling submissive, especially towards this guy who I've never met. It's a wild feeling that I'm not used to. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Am I crazy for feeling this way? Is this a phase, or do you think this was something that's been inside me that just got unlocked?

Thanks for reading this wall of text!

It seems like you felt worse and worse as the conversation continued,
expecting to feel better, but it went on too long and now you have feelings of inadequacy. There doesn't have to be one hung guy in the world, ya know..and she seems caught up with this current guy which doesn't diminish your value...if you were getting attention from soeone else, you probably wouldnt care.

 

[TinyPrincess]

Hey, not sure if this is the right forum for this, but I wanted to share because it's an unfamiliar feeling for me and I was curious if anyone else has had a similar experience.

I'm pretty hung (about 8" and thick), and I'm used to being the biggest whoever my partner has had. Until recently, no woman has told me that they had been with a bigger guy, so it's been a source of pride for me. I consider myself pretty dominant and alpha and often fantasize about being the bull for couples. After catching up with my recent ex girlfriend though and hearing about her current man, that's all starting to change. The TLDR is that he is bigger than me and she admitted the sex is amazing, better than with me. No one has ever said that to me, and now it's giving me very strong cuckold feelings.

This ex (let's call her Lauren) and I dated for about 2 years. She's great, but we had opposite schedules and she ended up moving away for work, so we decided to split. We ended things on good terms and have kept in touch. Recently she brought up her boyfriend and I asked how things were going, and she said everything was great. I made a joking comment, hoping he wasn't another "Daniel" (an ex she had before me who she said had a small penis and came almost instantly). She replied and said "no, quite the opposite!!". So that piqued my interest. Here's how the convo went, but let me preface that she is not some sexual freak: she literally grew up on a farm and has the ultimate girl-next-door look. She got straight As in school and is super sweet and pretty shy. Kinda nerdy in a great way, but has a bangin body and an amazing bubble butt for a white girl. I was obsessed with it. Her current boyfriend is this ripped black guy that I think she met on a dating app. Anyways, here's how the convo went after she said "no, quite the opposite!!":

Me: "Oh, that's good! So he's big then?"
Lauren: "Ummm.... yes LOL"
Me: "Good for you! Not bigger than me I hope?? lol"
Lauren: <monkey covering mouth emoji>
Me: "Wow, good for you!"
Lauren: "Sorry, you asked!"
Me: "No, it's all good! You know I'm not the jealous type. Happy to hear you're getting the good stuff lol. So it sounds like the sex is good then?"
Lauren: "Its really good."
Me: "Awesome, I'm glad for you. I'm surprised you can take him if he's bigger than me!"
Lauren: "I know right?!"
Me: "How much bigger is he than me? Just curious"
Lauren: "Lol, why do you want to know?"
Me: "I dunno, it's kinda hot to think about"
Lauren: "Really? Why is that?"
(it took me a bit to figure out the best reply for this bc I didn't want to weird her out and I wanted her to keep talking)
Me: "Hard to explain! But it's hot to imagine you taking a really huge dick. That's probably weird for me to say lol. But part of it is also that I know you enjoyed mine, so you must really enjoy his, so it makes me happy that you're happy and having good sex."
Lauren: "Aww! That's not weird. It's actually pretty sweet!"
Lauren: "Yes, I do enjoy his. He's probably an inch or so bigger than you and maybe thicker too. And it curves in a way that feels amazing. It's also really pretty to look at (like yours!)"
Me: "Nice! Sounds like you hit the dick jackpot lol"
Lauren: "LOL I really did. And he really knows how to use it. I can't get enough lol"
Me: "That's so hot"
Lauren: "LOL you're funny. Are you sure you're OK with me saying things like that? I don't want to hurt feelings or make you jealous, you know I'm not like that. I'm only saying these things bc you asked!"
Me: "No, it's good, keep going! It's really hot to hear"
Lauren: "Lol are you getting turned on?"
Me: "Kinda, yeah!"
Lauren: "Really? You're so funny"
Me: <shrugging emoji>
Lauren: "but yeah, everything is good in the sex department."
Me: "Sounds like it, that's awesome. Sounds like some epic sex. Hope he gives it to you often!"
Lauren: "Almost every day, unless I'm too sore LOL. But even if I can't have sex, I at least will give him a BJ."
Lauren: "He tole me he wants a blowjob ever day and I think I've done it every day since. I actually really enjoy it. I like the challenge LOL"
Me: "Hot!! He's a lucky man..."
Lauren: "I'm lucky too though, for real. Sometimes I think I enjoy giving him head more than he does lol. Not that he doesn't like it, it's just that it turns me on to do it."
Me: "That's awesome. You think it turns you on because he's so big?"
Lauren: "Yeah, that's a big part of it. It's big but also beautiful. I get wet when I do it"
Lauren: "Sorry if that is TMI!! We can talk about something else if you want lol"
Me: "No, I appreciate you sharing this with me and love hearing about it! Thank you for being so open"
Lauren: "Thanks for being cool about it! You know I really enjoyed the sex we had too, right?"
Me: "I do, and I enjoyed it too, and you saying these things doesn't make me feel any different about anything, so we're all good."
Lauren: "OK cool. I'm happy to answer questions bc you seem to be enjoying it lol but let me know if I say something that hurts your feelings. I don't want that at all."
Me: "I know, and you're not at all, seriously. I'm really enjoying the convo."
Lauren: OK cool
Me: "So he asked to get a BJ every day and you get wet doing it, that is so hot."
Lauren: "Yeah, I often wake him up with one, first thing in the morning
Me: "What a way to start the day!!"
Lauren; "LOL, right?? But sometimes I stop before he cums because I want to have sex."
Me: "If you don't have sex, where does he cum?"
Lauren: "... I swallow it <monkey closing mouth emoji>"
Me: "Damn girl!! Amazing!! He is living the best life!"
(At this point I'm feeling some jealousy because she never swallowed me, ever, and she blew me maybe 2 times a month...But I'm not going to bring that up)
Lauren: LOL yup
Me: "Does he ask you to swallow it?"
Lauren: "No, actually. I just do it. I just kinda have an urge to do it and just go with it. I actually enjoy it."
Me: "That is so hot. I'm glad you are both benefiting from it and enjoying it."
Lauren:
Me: "Do you try to deepthroat it?"
Lauren: "I do, but I am not coming close lol. I practice though. He said he wants to train me lol."
Me: "Practice makes perfect!"
Lauren: "Lol yep! It's fun trying"
Me: "Damn, must be a hot sight. And the sex doesn't hurt?"
Lauren: "No, it feels amazing. He's gentle with me at first and then gets pretty dominant which I've found that I enjoy. Not like pain stuff, but he's strong and can toss me around lol"
Me: "Sounds like orgasms galore lol"
Lauren: "Seriously! I climax every time, and you know that is hard for me to do!"
(My jaw was on the ground at this point because her thing was that she had never cum from penetration - not with me, or with any guy before me. She would tell me she thought it was impossible for her. And now I'm hearing that she cums EVERY TIME with this guy....)
Me: "Amazing!! That is awesome, I'm so happy for you!!"
Lauren: "Thank you!! I'm happy too, you know I thought it would never happen."
Me: "What do you think it is that did it, the size?"
Lauren: "The size is a big part. The shape, how he uses it, I dunno... whatever it is, it works lol"
Me: "That's awesome, I'm glad to hear it!"
Lauren: "I even squirt sometimes!"
Me: "Woah!!"
(I am floored)
Lauren: "I know! I was so embarrassed when it happened the first time, I didn't know what was happening lol. Then it happened again and it would always coincide with a really big orgasm and I now can feel it coming. Crazy!!"
Me: "That is so hot. You must need to change your sheets often lol"
Lauren: "I do! We put an extra sheet down now LOL"
Me: "Lol amazing"
Me: "So this sounds like some best-ever type sex here. Is he a porn star or something??"
Lauren: "It really is. Nope, just a regular guy!"
(Hearing it's the best sex ever for her gave me a feeling in the pit of my stomach, but I was also rock hard)
Me: "Well you better not let him go, it sounds like you picked a winner there"
Lauren: "Oh, he's not going anywhere lol. I want to have sex with him for the rest of my life, I literally can't get enough lol. It's insane."
Lauren: ""That's another part of why I suck him every day, I want to keep him happy lol"
Me: "Damn, that's hot. I bet you guys look insanely hot having sex"
Lauren: "I think we do
Me: "He must love your ass. Is he obsessed with it like I was?"
Lauren: "Oh yeah lol. He's always grabbing it or smacking it. He wants me to wear booty shorts in the house all the time lol"
Me: "I don't blame him! Do you wear them?"
Lauren: "Yup Or just revealing underwear or a thong"
Me: "Holy fuck this is so hot"
Lauren: "lol"

( actually came at this point. I was so hard and was stroking in between texts, and the thought of my sweet, dorky ex walking around in booty shorts for this ripped black guy with a huge cock was too much. I busted an enormous load. Then I started coming down and the I felt a little awkward for asking all those questions, so I felt I should wrap it up. I basically told her that I should go, and thanks for sharing, and she said thanks for being cool and she asked me things about my life and my wife and we chatted a little longer about normal stuff.

Ever since, all I've been fantasizing about it the two of them together. Her cumming, squirting, swallowing his cum, worshipping his cock. I even think about this guy fucking my wife. Like, I have an urge to hand her over to him and let him make my wife's pussy his. Like he deserves her. I picture my wife and my ex sucking his cock together. I picture my wife walking around in booty shorts for him. Her sitting on his lap and kissing him while she strokes his cock. I've been watching more cuckold porn and I never used to. It's like I've gone from a "bull" to a "cuckold" after a single text conversation. I'm feeling submissive, especially towards this guy who I've never met. It's a wild feeling that I'm not used to. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Am I crazy for feeling this way? Is this a phase, or do you think this was something that's been inside me that just got unlocked?

Thanks for reading this wall of text!

Only read the start and ending, so sorry if I missed out.

How much is about her - missing her and having sex with her?

How much is raceplay? Guess you're a white American, so would you feel similarly if her new bf was white, Asian or other?

 

[Thickershock]

How much is about her - missing her and having sex with her?

I do miss having sex with her, but sex with my wife is good too. They're just different. So maybe I subconsciously miss the different type of sex that I had with my ex, but before this conversation I hadn't been thinking about her sexually much at all.

How much is raceplay? Guess you're a white American, so would you feel similarly if her new bf was white, Asian or other?

I'm a white American. I think I would feel similarly? But would maybe feel more competitive if her new bf was white, as opposed to how I feel submissive in this case. I didn't initially think it was a race thing, but I guess I shouldn't rule it out as being a factor.

 

[MilfBanger78]

I doubt he is bigger than 8 inches. She probably is more attracted to him. Women are horrible at estimating size.

That was my thought. legit 8 inch dicks are like maybe 1% of the male pop.
Monstercock Ramon, one of the biggest in porn..he had a pic with his dick measured against a DVD case (DVD cases are standard 7.5") and Ramon's dick was basically dead even with the case. OP's dick is pretty big, looks to be within an inch of being as big as Ramon's. so the odds of new guy being way above 8"+, eh... If he's black that could be part of it...darker shade looks bigger. and of course she could be just throwing a lil bit of shade/bragging at an ex.

Ramon

MA

 

[Bellavie]

Hey, not sure if this is the right forum for this, but I wanted to share because it's an unfamiliar feeling for me and I was curious if anyone else has had a similar experience.

I'm pretty hung (about 8" and thick), and I'm used to being the biggest whoever my partner has had. Until recently, no woman has told me that they had been with a bigger guy, so it's been a source of pride for me. I consider myself pretty dominant and alpha and often fantasize about being the bull for couples. After catching up with my recent ex girlfriend though and hearing about her current man, that's all starting to change. The TLDR is that he is bigger than me and she admitted the sex is amazing, better than with me. No one has ever said that to me, and now it's giving me very strong cuckold feelings.

This ex (let's call her Lauren) and I dated for about 2 years. She's great, but we had opposite schedules and she ended up moving away for work, so we decided to split. We ended things on good terms and have kept in touch. Recently she brought up her boyfriend and I asked how things were going, and she said everything was great. I made a joking comment, hoping he wasn't another "Daniel" (an ex she had before me who she said had a small penis and came almost instantly). She replied and said "no, quite the opposite!!". So that piqued my interest. Here's how the convo went, but let me preface that she is not some sexual freak: she literally grew up on a farm and has the ultimate girl-next-door look. She got straight As in school and is super sweet and pretty shy. Kinda nerdy in a great way, but has a bangin body and an amazing bubble butt for a white girl. I was obsessed with it. Her current boyfriend is this ripped black guy that I think she met on a dating app. Anyways, here's how the convo went after she said "no, quite the opposite!!":

Me: "Oh, that's good! So he's big then?"
Lauren: "Ummm.... yes LOL"
Me: "Good for you! Not bigger than me I hope?? lol"
Lauren: <monkey covering mouth emoji>
Me: "Wow, good for you!"
Lauren: "Sorry, you asked!"
Me: "No, it's all good! You know I'm not the jealous type. Happy to hear you're getting the good stuff lol. So it sounds like the sex is good then?"
Lauren: "Its really good."
Me: "Awesome, I'm glad for you. I'm surprised you can take him if he's bigger than me!"
Lauren: "I know right?!"
Me: "How much bigger is he than me? Just curious"
Lauren: "Lol, why do you want to know?"
Me: "I dunno, it's kinda hot to think about"
Lauren: "Really? Why is that?"
(it took me a bit to figure out the best reply for this bc I didn't want to weird her out and I wanted her to keep talking)
Me: "Hard to explain! But it's hot to imagine you taking a really huge dick. That's probably weird for me to say lol. But part of it is also that I know you enjoyed mine, so you must really enjoy his, so it makes me happy that you're happy and having good sex."
Lauren: "Aww! That's not weird. It's actually pretty sweet!"
Lauren: "Yes, I do enjoy his. He's probably an inch or so bigger than you and maybe thicker too. And it curves in a way that feels amazing. It's also really pretty to look at (like yours!)"
Me: "Nice! Sounds like you hit the dick jackpot lol"
Lauren: "LOL I really did. And he really knows how to use it. I can't get enough lol"
Me: "That's so hot"
Lauren: "LOL you're funny. Are you sure you're OK with me saying things like that? I don't want to hurt feelings or make you jealous, you know I'm not like that. I'm only saying these things bc you asked!"
Me: "No, it's good, keep going! It's really hot to hear"
Lauren: "Lol are you getting turned on?"
Me: "Kinda, yeah!"
Lauren: "Really? You're so funny"
Me: <shrugging emoji>
Lauren: "but yeah, everything is good in the sex department."
Me: "Sounds like it, that's awesome. Sounds like some epic sex. Hope he gives it to you often!"
Lauren: "Almost every day, unless I'm too sore LOL. But even if I can't have sex, I at least will give him a BJ."
Lauren: "He tole me he wants a blowjob ever day and I think I've done it every day since. I actually really enjoy it. I like the challenge LOL"
Me: "Hot!! He's a lucky man..."
Lauren: "I'm lucky too though, for real. Sometimes I think I enjoy giving him head more than he does lol. Not that he doesn't like it, it's just that it turns me on to do it."
Me: "That's awesome. You think it turns you on because he's so big?"
Lauren: "Yeah, that's a big part of it. It's big but also beautiful. I get wet when I do it"
Lauren: "Sorry if that is TMI!! We can talk about something else if you want lol"
Me: "No, I appreciate you sharing this with me and love hearing about it! Thank you for being so open"
Lauren: "Thanks for being cool about it! You know I really enjoyed the sex we had too, right?"
Me: "I do, and I enjoyed it too, and you saying these things doesn't make me feel any different about anything, so we're all good."
Lauren: "OK cool. I'm happy to answer questions bc you seem to be enjoying it lol but let me know if I say something that hurts your feelings. I don't want that at all."
Me: "I know, and you're not at all, seriously. I'm really enjoying the convo."
Lauren: OK cool
Me: "So he asked to get a BJ every day and you get wet doing it, that is so hot."
Lauren: "Yeah, I often wake him up with one, first thing in the morning
Me: "What a way to start the day!!"
Lauren; "LOL, right?? But sometimes I stop before he cums because I want to have sex."
Me: "If you don't have sex, where does he cum?"
Lauren: "... I swallow it <monkey closing mouth emoji>"
Me: "Damn girl!! Amazing!! He is living the best life!"
(At this point I'm feeling some jealousy because she never swallowed me, ever, and she blew me maybe 2 times a month...But I'm not going to bring that up)
Lauren: LOL yup
Me: "Does he ask you to swallow it?"
Lauren: "No, actually. I just do it. I just kinda have an urge to do it and just go with it. I actually enjoy it."
Me: "That is so hot. I'm glad you are both benefiting from it and enjoying it."
Lauren:
Me: "Do you try to deepthroat it?"
Lauren: "I do, but I am not coming close lol. I practice though. He said he wants to train me lol."
Me: "Practice makes perfect!"
Lauren: "Lol yep! It's fun trying"
Me: "Damn, must be a hot sight. And the sex doesn't hurt?"
Lauren: "No, it feels amazing. He's gentle with me at first and then gets pretty dominant which I've found that I enjoy. Not like pain stuff, but he's strong and can toss me around lol"
Me: "Sounds like orgasms galore lol"
Lauren: "Seriously! I climax every time, and you know that is hard for me to do!"
(My jaw was on the ground at this point because her thing was that she had never cum from penetration - not with me, or with any guy before me. She would tell me she thought it was impossible for her. And now I'm hearing that she cums EVERY TIME with this guy....)
Me: "Amazing!! That is awesome, I'm so happy for you!!"
Lauren: "Thank you!! I'm happy too, you know I thought it would never happen."
Me: "What do you think it is that did it, the size?"
Lauren: "The size is a big part. The shape, how he uses it, I dunno... whatever it is, it works lol"
Me: "That's awesome, I'm glad to hear it!"
Lauren: "I even squirt sometimes!"
Me: "Woah!!"
(I am floored)
Lauren: "I know! I was so embarrassed when it happened the first time, I didn't know what was happening lol. Then it happened again and it would always coincide with a really big orgasm and I now can feel it coming. Crazy!!"
Me: "That is so hot. You must need to change your sheets often lol"
Lauren: "I do! We put an extra sheet down now LOL"
Me: "Lol amazing"
Me: "So this sounds like some best-ever type sex here. Is he a porn star or something??"
Lauren: "It really is. Nope, just a regular guy!"
(Hearing it's the best sex ever for her gave me a feeling in the pit of my stomach, but I was also rock hard)
Me: "Well you better not let him go, it sounds like you picked a winner there"
Lauren: "Oh, he's not going anywhere lol. I want to have sex with him for the rest of my life, I literally can't get enough lol. It's insane."
Lauren: ""That's another part of why I suck him every day, I want to keep him happy lol"
Me: "Damn, that's hot. I bet you guys look insanely hot having sex"
Lauren: "I think we do
Me: "He must love your ass. Is he obsessed with it like I was?"
Lauren: "Oh yeah lol. He's always grabbing it or smacking it. He wants me to wear booty shorts in the house all the time lol"
Me: "I don't blame him! Do you wear them?"
Lauren: "Yup Or just revealing underwear or a thong"
Me: "Holy fuck this is so hot"
Lauren: "lol"

( actually came at this point. I was so hard and was stroking in between texts, and the thought of my sweet, dorky ex walking around in booty shorts for this ripped black guy with a huge cock was too much. I busted an enormous load. Then I started coming down and the I felt a little awkward for asking all those questions, so I felt I should wrap it up. I basically told her that I should go, and thanks for sharing, and she said thanks for being cool and she asked me things about my life and my wife and we chatted a little longer about normal stuff.

Ever since, all I've been fantasizing about it the two of them together. Her cumming, squirting, swallowing his cum, worshipping his cock. I even think about this guy fucking my wife. Like, I have an urge to hand her over to him and let him make my wife's pussy his. Like he deserves her. I picture my wife and my ex sucking his cock together. I picture my wife walking around in booty shorts for him. Her sitting on his lap and kissing him while she strokes his cock. I've been watching more cuckold porn and I never used to. It's like I've gone from a "bull" to a "cuckold" after a single text conversation. I'm feeling submissive, especially towards this guy who I've never met. It's a wild feeling that I'm not used to. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Am I crazy for feeling this way? Is this a phase, or do you think this was something that's been inside me that just got unlocked?

Thanks for reading this wall of text!

This is fucking weird. Even more weird you sat here and typed an entire dialog.