So yeah the story's a bit cliche. Gay guy falls for straight best friend he can never get with.
Long story short, we met, became close friends, until one day he finds out I like him because how I act towards him. We stayed friends, because he says he's been in my shoes concerning his ex gf. It's not been easy, because I think eventually we slowly became something else not friends as there's such a power imbalance between us. He even says that we are perfect as friends, but we aren't because of my feelings. He even wishes he should have cut me off when I confessed him my feelings, because he sees me in pain and blames himself for letting my feelings grow stronger. Not gonna lie, we have the greatest conversations and fun times, it's just difficult for me because of my feelings.
The thing is I think I'm bisexual, maybe 80% gay 20% straight? And I really want a MMF threesome. Hell, my fantasy is Double vaginal penetration (DVP). And I've imagined doing DVP with my str8 friend. We've even talked about it. We talked about our sexuality and he even said he was down for it. Great, right? Now, he says he's more hesistant because it's a little gay to have our dicks touching each other and it was never his fantasy; he agreed it to because it was something he was willing to do for me (and he wanted me to try pussy because he thinks pussy is great).
And I am crazy in love with this guy. I just want to fuck some pussy with him. Maybe it's in the homoerotic comradery way, having both our dicks inside her pounding her and nutting in her at the same time. And even if he says he doesn't want to do that no more, I just want to watch him fuck pussy while I sit behind him and watch his dick creampie her. And I just want to fuck that girl's cum filled pussy with jealousy and anger. Basically to be a gay cuck who watches his straight best friend crush fuck pussy.
Is this a weird kink? I honestly think this isn't healthy for me. Me and friend haven't talked in a while.. we had a nice time swimming together and decided it's not healthy to see each other anymore. He's really a great friend, it's just... become so toxic between us and part of me really really wishes I never fell in love with him.
I guess what I'm looking for on this forum is to find other gay guys who's been in similar situations. How did you and your friend overcome it? Did you ever overcome it? Just looking for advice or someone to tell me if this gay cuck kink is a bad thing or not.
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