James Jamesson

Internalised shame, unfortunately...
Yes, and also the communities they come from aren’t accepting of their porn past. For those that want to renter those communities, “salvation” is the the walk of shame and contrition they take.
 
James/Shawn was a true character.. he lived with me whenever he was in NYC...He was a great cook, ripped to shit and was a hard working guy. Regarding gay for pay.. he got paid and was gay when he had to be. His girlfriend was a pain in the ass.... she wanted more and more and more plastic surgery for "her" and her mother. He tired of that. The last I saw of him was the night he won an award at the then Out hotel. He was over the gay life and returned to the west coast.... randomly several months later he contacted me out of the blue.... and then i lost touch touch with him completely. Cleaning out recently I came across two zip lock bags of his shaved pubes.... from 2011!!!! I hope he is well.. and his cock was LEGENDARY.
"He was over the gay life," not sure what that means. Do you mean he was over the gay PORN life? Or the G4P porn life?
 
"He was over the gay life," not sure what that means. Do you mean he was over the gay PORN life? Or the G4P porn life?
The last time that I physically saw him was that the adult video awards in New York City and he had one in awards that night and he was so disinterested in anything having to do with that evening and from there he just stepped away from it all. I think he was over the gay for pay life the gay porn life having a transsexual girlfriend life. He was done.
 
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The last time that I physically saw him was that the adult video awards in New York City and he had one in awards that night and he was so disinterested in anything having to do with that evening and from there he just stepped away from it all. I think he was over the gay for pay life the gay porn life having a transsexual girlfriend life. He was done.
Thanks Dive. Always interesting. I guess to many of these guys, gay porn is an extreme choice because they are not gay in real life. So when they leave gay porn, they seek out an extreme version of a life.

The rest of us are just trying to get full equal rights for our normal gay and bisexual lives.
 
Thanks Dive. Always interesting. I guess to many of these guys, gay porn is an extreme choice because they are not gay in real life. So when they leave gay porn, they seek out an extreme version of a life.

The rest of us are just trying to get full equal rights for our normal gay and bisexual lives.
He went from prison to porn to make money and as a male with a big cock you were going to make your money in gay porn and not street porn and that’s what he did. I think underneath it all he liked it a little more than he thought.