alpha_centauri
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- Sexuality
- 50% Straight, 50% Gay
- Gender
- Male
Why do you have disgust about men or the male body?You and me both. In my life,I was always like "nah, boyfriends aren't for me" until I meant my first boyfriend although he was a transman and in the early stages of transitioning when we met and till date,he's still the only man I have ever been with as I couldn't be with a cis man because of my physical disgust of the male or masculine body,gay porn is super hot to me but when it comes to do the deed physically with a cis man,I can't as I puked the first and last time I was with a one (I owe that to the horrors and traumas I faced from conversion therapy in Nigeria though that made me feel nothing but disgust for the male form) but part of the reason I was closed to it was also the masculine and dominant over the submissive dynamic in same sex relationships,I have never been submissive before and I have always been curious about that dynamic in same sex relationships,like I see a same sex hypermasculine couple and I will just be wondering "how on earth does it work for them?","who cooks and cleans?", questions like these just pop into my head but I found out I was heteronormalizing same sex relationships which is why I couldn't see myself being romantic with a man. Fast forward to today,it's the exact opposite,I am beginning to even feel romantic towards men more and I want a boyfriend badly and a cis man at that,I want to submit to a man in all ramifications (first time i'm admitting this to myself as I associate submission with shame, feminity and weakness) and I want a man worthy of that submission
I don't have disgust or revulsion unless a man or woman is morbidly obese, anorexic, does not practise basic hygiene, chain smokes or vapes non-stop, is a hard drug addict that is the type that wants others to get addicted just like they are, is extremely strung out from drugs or lack of sleep, and not sorry the bareback porn with guys who have AIDS or are close to it all strung out on methamphetamine and having unsafe sex is a turn off.
Facial tattoos and piercings are not nasty to me. I have none and do not want any. I am from the time when only men in the military or ex military, prisoners/ex-convicts, criminals, and bikers or guys in motorcycle clubs had them.
IF you have anal sex with men or get into sex kinks such as submission use condoms avoid sex with anyone who wants it unsafe-I don't care if the guy or woman claims she or he is "neg" and on prep or shows just 1 recent test that at the time says she or he is neg, and be extremely picky and careful who you have anal sex with, don't swallow cum, and even more careful who you do bondage and discipline with.