Yall so I don’t know if I want advice but I just want to talk about what happened last weekend.
It was a Friday so I walked up to my normal neighborhood bar. After a while, this fine man walked in. Black guy, hoodie, and started talking to me. Usually I’m there sitting alone so this surprised the hell out of me.
He asked if I partakes in some stuff which I normally do not do but he got me to that night lol we went to the bathroom (powdered our faces lol) and just vibed.
The bar was now closing but we could tell we both didn’t want the night to end. We ended back at my place. He was telling me his story of being locked away half his life, trying to figure things out, and trying to be a good dad. All admirable. As the night went on the discussion turned sexual. Now I thought he might get down because up until this point he was showing me his tattoos and kept his shirt off.
Once I heard that he was curious after I told him I was gay, it flipped the switch in me. I asked him if he would like to make out. He hesitated but then leaned in. I couldn’t control myself at this point lol and pretty much ate him alive. I might’ve been too aggressive tho. I thought we had a nice vibe going but after he started crying. I’m sitting there not knowing what to do because this man is a thug and he’s being this vulnerable, usually some physical aggression comes.
He clearly had regrets about what we did. But he stayed. So I’m trying to process all this with him but it’s like nothing I’m saying is clicking with him. Eventually he calmed down and we spent the next hours into the afternoon just talking about random stuff until I told him I needed to get some sleep.
Well I felt a connection and thought we were in a good space but he’s been so dry in texts since then.
I think imma just let him be for a min, hit him up the next weekend to see if he wants to hang. If he does I’ll apologize in person for being so aggressive that night now that we are both sober minded.
Even if he doesn’t want to be sexually involved again I would like to have him as a friend. Our vibe was just so connected that day.
It was a Friday so I walked up to my normal neighborhood bar. After a while, this fine man walked in. Black guy, hoodie, and started talking to me. Usually I’m there sitting alone so this surprised the hell out of me.
He asked if I partakes in some stuff which I normally do not do but he got me to that night lol we went to the bathroom (powdered our faces lol) and just vibed.
The bar was now closing but we could tell we both didn’t want the night to end. We ended back at my place. He was telling me his story of being locked away half his life, trying to figure things out, and trying to be a good dad. All admirable. As the night went on the discussion turned sexual. Now I thought he might get down because up until this point he was showing me his tattoos and kept his shirt off.
Once I heard that he was curious after I told him I was gay, it flipped the switch in me. I asked him if he would like to make out. He hesitated but then leaned in. I couldn’t control myself at this point lol and pretty much ate him alive. I might’ve been too aggressive tho. I thought we had a nice vibe going but after he started crying. I’m sitting there not knowing what to do because this man is a thug and he’s being this vulnerable, usually some physical aggression comes.
He clearly had regrets about what we did. But he stayed. So I’m trying to process all this with him but it’s like nothing I’m saying is clicking with him. Eventually he calmed down and we spent the next hours into the afternoon just talking about random stuff until I told him I needed to get some sleep.
Well I felt a connection and thought we were in a good space but he’s been so dry in texts since then.
I think imma just let him be for a min, hit him up the next weekend to see if he wants to hang. If he does I’ll apologize in person for being so aggressive that night now that we are both sober minded.
Even if he doesn’t want to be sexually involved again I would like to have him as a friend. Our vibe was just so connected that day.
