- Aldu,
I feel shitty writing this stupid story, very ashamed and I have noone to really share this with. Sometimes I do feel like wanting a hole opening up right in front of me and just disappearing.
I did speak to a friend and they believe it's just my grief speaking as I lost my dad 3 months ago.
Anyway...
A couple of months ago a young 26 year old tapped me on Grindr, I had not paid attention until later on that evening.
I engaged with him, opened up my album and we started to have a very sexual chat.
This man is very into 'older men who love to please'.. Whatever that means...
We exchanged photos, videos, and his were very much him topping older men. Needless to say this man is hot. Not my type but really hot.
I made a joke about wanting to join and the convo turned into 3 some.
He gave me his number then we left the app and continued the chat on Whatsapp.
I asked if he wanted to meet up, but he claimed having flatmates at the property. I then offered to pick him up and take him to mine but that did not happen.
He asked if I knew bottom or a top to join, cause he is strictly top and loves him a very sub bottom that wears thong, panties or jocks which I am not and don't. I am bottom though.
The chat was interesting, banter was good, but something deep inside me was telling me that guy was probably an escorted, a fraud, or somebody looking for a suga dad. There is no way a 26 y o would just be interested in an older man that much. Even though I'm in my late 30's.
Suddenly a good friend of mine who is in his early 60's, someone I know since my early 20s and whom I consider like a brother came up to mind. He is a feminine power bottom who would be the perfect fit for that 3 some we were trying to set up.
But he just would not return my call. He had gone bed early.
I eventually got hold of him the following day. Upon his consent I shared a picture of him with the younger guy who responded 'he is my type 1000%.
My older friend is not really a looker but he goes to the gym and has a fabulous body. He is also someone who helped me become the man I am today.
Stupidly, and THAT IS MY DAMN ISSUE, I gave them each other's number
Then my friend of many years told me the guy messaged him straight away.
I was like 'that's fast'...
Since then, the younger top completely ghosted me, my friend became the one to keep me informed lol. I was so gutted, so annoyed. And to make matters worse, my old friend no longer does 3somes.
Last I spoke to my friend was 2 weeks ago, he actually called me and I became so upset over the phone he mentioned It was just my grief speakimh and that I was not acting normal.
He did say that him and the younger man had been texting each other, were meant to meet up but it never happened. But he believes the guy is a 100% genuine. Which I never did
Anyway, I since have not spoken to my old friend.
I felt ashamed for many things, giving out numbers, not giving the benefit of the doubt, probably putting my friend in a non safe situation...
I have found my sleeping pattern quite disturbed, the younger being constantly in my mind, even though I have never met him.
One thing I know is that he is always online on Grindr.
Then last week, out of the blue, the younger dude messaged me on Grindr, requesting I don't text his number and to keep the chats on Geindr. We even exchanged snap...
He wanted to meet up, at lunch time, to have sex in a toilet at his office... I was like, I'm at my office not prepped for that, it was not planned.. Then he moved on by saying a friend had invited for lunch so it might be tricky to meet. Nasty piece of crap...
Again, I don't know this guy, I do not know his motives but why does he bother my brain like that... I do not know whether or not he met with my friend, we have not spoken for the past fee weeks now.
I mean, he could have told me he was not interested, I would have moved but to ask for my friend number and move on quickly to him and ghosting is just disrespectful.
I feel loads of emotions right now, I am not sure why. This is a situation I usually handle very well in normal times.
I would have blocked that guy straight away.
His pictures, the situation were too good to be true which is probably why I thought he was an escort.
Update: I gave him a piece of my mind on Grindr which made him eventually block me but I'm still on his WhatsApp...
Your thoughts please? How to move on from this nonsense. I am not willing to speak to my friend of 20 years now, I am jus not interested. Is that a wrong thing?
Cheers.
Your thoughts...
I did speak to a friend and they believe it's just my grief speaking as I lost my dad 3 months ago.
Anyway...
A couple of months ago a young 26 year old tapped me on Grindr, I had not paid attention until later on that evening.
I engaged with him, opened up my album and we started to have a very sexual chat.
This man is very into 'older men who love to please'.. Whatever that means...
We exchanged photos, videos, and his were very much him topping older men. Needless to say this man is hot. Not my type but really hot.
I made a joke about wanting to join and the convo turned into 3 some.
He gave me his number then we left the app and continued the chat on Whatsapp.
I asked if he wanted to meet up, but he claimed having flatmates at the property. I then offered to pick him up and take him to mine but that did not happen.
He asked if I knew bottom or a top to join, cause he is strictly top and loves him a very sub bottom that wears thong, panties or jocks which I am not and don't. I am bottom though.
The chat was interesting, banter was good, but something deep inside me was telling me that guy was probably an escorted, a fraud, or somebody looking for a suga dad. There is no way a 26 y o would just be interested in an older man that much. Even though I'm in my late 30's.
Suddenly a good friend of mine who is in his early 60's, someone I know since my early 20s and whom I consider like a brother came up to mind. He is a feminine power bottom who would be the perfect fit for that 3 some we were trying to set up.
But he just would not return my call. He had gone bed early.
I eventually got hold of him the following day. Upon his consent I shared a picture of him with the younger guy who responded 'he is my type 1000%.
My older friend is not really a looker but he goes to the gym and has a fabulous body. He is also someone who helped me become the man I am today.
Stupidly, and THAT IS MY DAMN ISSUE, I gave them each other's number
Then my friend of many years told me the guy messaged him straight away.
I was like 'that's fast'...
Since then, the younger top completely ghosted me, my friend became the one to keep me informed lol. I was so gutted, so annoyed. And to make matters worse, my old friend no longer does 3somes.
Last I spoke to my friend was 2 weeks ago, he actually called me and I became so upset over the phone he mentioned It was just my grief speakimh and that I was not acting normal.
He did say that him and the younger man had been texting each other, were meant to meet up but it never happened. But he believes the guy is a 100% genuine. Which I never did
Anyway, I since have not spoken to my old friend.
I felt ashamed for many things, giving out numbers, not giving the benefit of the doubt, probably putting my friend in a non safe situation...
I have found my sleeping pattern quite disturbed, the younger being constantly in my mind, even though I have never met him.
One thing I know is that he is always online on Grindr.
Then last week, out of the blue, the younger dude messaged me on Grindr, requesting I don't text his number and to keep the chats on Geindr. We even exchanged snap...
He wanted to meet up, at lunch time, to have sex in a toilet at his office... I was like, I'm at my office not prepped for that, it was not planned.. Then he moved on by saying a friend had invited for lunch so it might be tricky to meet. Nasty piece of crap...
Again, I don't know this guy, I do not know his motives but why does he bother my brain like that... I do not know whether or not he met with my friend, we have not spoken for the past fee weeks now.
I mean, he could have told me he was not interested, I would have moved but to ask for my friend number and move on quickly to him and ghosting is just disrespectful.
I feel loads of emotions right now, I am not sure why. This is a situation I usually handle very well in normal times.
I would have blocked that guy straight away.
His pictures, the situation were too good to be true which is probably why I thought he was an escort.
Update: I gave him a piece of my mind on Grindr which made him eventually block me but I'm still on his WhatsApp...
Your thoughts please? How to move on from this nonsense. I am not willing to speak to my friend of 20 years now, I am jus not interested. Is that a wrong thing?
Cheers.
Your thoughts...
