Chapter 21: Way too good (Part 2)
I did not know what else to say. He had for sure lived up to his reputation.
I farted some of his loads out. There was so much cream bathing in my asshole. For a second ejaculation, my roommate had a lot of juice left in his tank.
He chuckled.
"Happy if I were of any service to my bro."
He extended his arm for a friendly fist-bump.
I fist-bumped him, although, I was regretting the French-kissing already.
"You're sure you want this to be our last rodeo?" I asked, coming back to my senses.
For once, Samuel's usual cheeky smile disappeared from his face.
"Yeah, man. I think it's better to end this before it gets weird. Don't you think?"
Do you know the sound of broken glass you could hear in old sitcoms when something bad was happening to the main characters?
Well, there would have definitely been a sound of broken glass if my life was a nineties series.
"You... You're probably right."
What else was I supposed to say?
Samuel did not add another word and he returned to his bedroom.
It was meant to be our first night apart in days.
We had gone from one-hundred to zero in less than thirty seconds.
I had been warned, Samuel had been straight-forward, I was aware for months of the high-risks I was taking of getting hurt. From the very start, I knew it was a bad idea to get involved with my quote-on-quote "straight roommate"...
Yet, here I was, at the hurting and suffering part, right after the very-best orgasm of my freaking life, and maybe, the best moment of my life overall.
The way he had told me it was over like it did not matter much. So simply, so casually. It tore my heart out.
"Before it gets weird..."
Come on!
We were so past this point.
It had been weeks since we had been more than roommates, more than friends.
And there, as I was trying to collect myself, I remembered one of the very first conversations Samuel and I ever had.
It was about his former-roommate.
"I've been trying hard not to bang her... But let's say that I have not hooked up with anyone and I come back home by myself, blue balls, and she's here, acting slutty... It's pretty impossible to resist! And then, she imagines things. Is it so difficult to understand that a man can use a blowjob before going to bed without it meaning anything?"
His words were resonating differently now.
I had become the roommate offering him some release.
I was the one who could not understand that the sparks between us did not mean anything....
No matter what I had said and repeated countless of times to Samuel, I could not accept that this was only the expression mindless recreation between mates.
He must have had feelings for me as well!
Right?
Or maybe not...
Maybe I was just delusional.
Between the most amazing sex of my life and Samuel ending things abruptly, my mind was just a blank. It could no longer operate or think reasonably.
I fell asleep with my own cum drying on my skin, and Samuel's cum coating in my throat, oesophagus and asshole.
*
I woke up a few hours later, and both to my delight and demise, I realized that the night before had not been a dream.
Everything had happened just like I remembered, my sore ass being the main evidence of the crime.
Samuel had already left for the gym.
He was supposed to meet a girl there, and he surely did.
He had fucked me like never before and then, just like that, he had decided we had done enough.
For the first night, he had the common sense not to bring his bitch home, - although, maybe it was only a matter of it being more practical to bang her at the gym -, but from the following night, just like before and as if nothing had happened between us, he was bringing his preys to our apartment.
I was falling from cloud nine, hearing them fuck.
I was crashing from the high.
And as the wise Katy Perry had once said, after being sleep-deprived for weeks, I was wide awake!
Believe me, the realization that I had only been a convenient distraction hurt worse than a hangover.
Again, I had no claim at being mad.
I had pretended again and again that I did not have any feelings.
This being exactly what I expected did not prevent it from hurting though.
Thankfully, this also meant that I had more time for myself and for once, I had a project I was actually interested in: The naughty adventures of SuperSam!
Okay, it might not have been the best thing that I was literally writing a comic book based on the guy I was supposed to "move on from", but eh, this was what I had at the time, and it actually made me happy.
I could put my headphones on, ignored Sam fucking and dirty talking on the other side of the wall, and focused on his fantasy version instead.
I simply had to remember that the SuperSam I was drawing was not real and would never be.
To get my mind off things, I got to see Franck.
I did not explain everything to him but he knew enough so he would get where I was at.
As usual, he was making fun of me, but he was also a great support. He could tell that I was not feeling great.
I also told Jenna that I had been fired.
Obviously, I did not tell her about the e-mail and my project to sell erotic comic books online. I simply explained that I was looking for another job during our weekly video-call.
My sister was visibly worried and that bugged me.
"How are you gonna deal with paying the rent? Do you need help?"
Jenna and her boyfriend were both working for a large bank in London, they definitely did not have any money issue.
"I'll be fine, I have some leads for something else already. I'll find a job."
"You're sure? I'll talk about it with Alfie, you know that he has clients in many fields. I'm sure that he could figure something for you..."
"I don't need your boyfriend's charity, Jenna. I'm telling you; I'll be fine."
She sighed over the call.
"Don't be like that, God. You and your stupid ego..."
Just to be clear, Jenna and I had always gotten along but we could rarely have a discussion without arguing.
I suppose this is what relatives do.
"Are you coming back soon?" I asked.
I missed her. It had been four months since she was gone.
"We should have a couple of weeks off for the holidays. I'll bring you some British tea. Should I bring some for your roommate too? How is he?"
I was not talking about Samuel often because I did not want my sister to know about my crush.
"He's fine, we're good friends now."
"He sure looks fine..." She commented.
It seemed like she had snooped and found his Instagram anyway.
I pretended that I had to leave for a job interview to end the call. Talking about how good-looking Samuel was with my big sister was the last thing I wanted to do.
And as it turned out, I had somewhere to be.
Kurt had texted me to grab a drink.
See, he was seeing Samuel all the time at the gym and I had some news through my roommate, but I had not had the opportunity to see Kurt since he had moved out about a week prior.
I thought it was a great idea to go out and we met at a bar downtown.
This way, I may not have to hear every little bit of Samuel's sexual performances all evening.
Kurtis and I had a strange relationship. We were friends through the intermediary of another friend.
Basically, we were only seeing each other when Samuel was around and it was the first time that we were meeting by ourselves.
Also, oddly, I was one of the few people in Kurtis' life with such an intimate knowledge of his personal (and sexual) life.
That being said, I liked the guy, especially since I had learnt about his relationship with Paul and his coming out. I had gone from being annoyed with him to finding Kurtis endearing and touching.
We drank a beer and talked about pretty much anything else aside from his sexual orientation.
To be fair, once again, the conversation was revolving a lot around Samuel.
I told Kurt that I was seeing the girls coming in and out the apartment and hearing them getting hard-fucked in Sam's bedroom.
Kurtis confirmed that he was witnessing even more shenanigans happening at the gym.
"It's like Sam is over compensating for last month." He told me.
It was difficult to hear him say that.
Compensating for what? He had had the best time of his life! With me!
I mean, Samuel could not fake how hard his cock was when he was ploughing me.
I tried to hide my bitterness and jealousy. At this point, I was trying to come to terms with the fact that Samuel was simply not into me.
I did notice that Kurt seemed a bit bitter himself.
That was not surprising as I had been suspecting him to be into Samuel since the very first day we met.
And as the evening progressed, - and the beers were disappearing in our respective stomach -, we got to a point where finally, Kurtis started confiding in me.
"How are you feeling, as a freshly out gay man?" I asked.
"Strange... A weight's been lifted off my shoulders for sure but it's a learning curve."
"Have you dated anyone? Any news from Paul?"
"You saw how it went with Paul. We're not... I mean, I like the guy and we had a great time but I think he was more into me than I was into him."
"That's so typical."
"What is?"
"I feel like in most relationships, there's always someone who's more into it... It simply rarely works. Love sucks." I summed-up.
"I guess."
"But you're free, Kurt. You look insanely hot; you could easily date around and maybe find a guy for something more tangible. Unless you're like Sam and you're not looking for anyone serious."
"I'm not like Sam."
I burst out laughing.
The drinks helped, but come on, I had to laugh! The guy was the exact copy of his mentor and was doing pretty much anything that he could to be like him.
"What? I'm not!" He defended himself.
"Dude, you're like a four-years younger version of Samuel. How can you not see that?"
"Not on this point though. Not on relationships... Sam's not gay, well, I don't know, not really."
I bit my lips.
Despite the beers, I managed to refrain myself from talking too much.
Was Samuel not gay? He had been fucking my ass pretty good, and for a while now...
"Yeah, well, I'm not worried about you. You'll find someone."
Kurtis looked uncomfortable.
"I don't know. The thing is, I think I have already someone in mind but I'm not sure it could work... I don't think he's interested in me."
There we were.
Finally, he was admitting his feelings for my roommate.
Maybe I should admit mine, the both of us in the same boat, desperately lusting over Samuel Piper.
"Why so pessimistic? Is this mysterious crush not really gay?" I asked, referencing what he had just told me about Samuel.
Kurtis sighed.
"No. That's not the problem."
"What is then?"
"Damn, Oliver, open your eyes! It's you! Why did you think I invited you to have a drink?"
I almost spilled my beer on the table.
I was shook.
"Wait... What?"
"I thought... Fuck, I'm an idiot. Oliver, I thought this could be, like... Like a date!"
Fuck my life, Kurtis had invited me on a date and I was so freaking dumb that I had not even realized it.
[To be continued]