Overwhelmed (first ever internet forum post)

[newfam]

So I asked her (via text) ok this is what I texted:

So remember our night the day after the festival. Is that why you suggested I post on the website? Just curious and just wanted to make sure I didn't do anything weird/wrong/unsexy/etc.

Is that a dumb text? Probably lol But it's sent so too late now! I will update this post when she replies! And now to distract myself so I don't drive myself crazy

Also... THANK YOU to everyone for the warm welcome and for the valuable information you have all shared. The forum is really fun and even somewhat addicting! I did not think I'd enjoy it as much as this.

Yours truly,
Daniel

 

[newfam]

Hi everyone, I hope everyone is doing well!

So she texted me back and uh lol... yeah there was no pain for her when we were intimate, so that's number one. I'm very relieved as she said

"no no no, no pain at all except for the next day but that's a good pain"

So then (seemingly out of nowhere) she text "your cock is amazing" lol I'm like wtf for real? She said yes. We texted about some other things and then I said "So like... amazing how? In what way?" To this, she left me on read for what seemed like an eternity but then she text back this:

"cut, perfect size, and tastes awesome"

I had no idea what to say cuz I'm stupid so I said "Wow well thank you and I'm glad to hear you had a good time" Her reply to that was "lmao"

 

[deleted34605741]

"My upbringing was strict and I lived in an insular community until somewhat recently."

Would you explain about that (assuming you haven't already)?

 

[newfam]

Would you explain about that (assuming you haven't already)?

Sure! So most of my life so far has been spent in what's known as an "intentional community." I have to be somewhat vague to avoid revealing too much personal info, but think "hippie commune" but quasi-religious, luddite, and a rule-based process for decision making.

I'm no longer with this group but I am still friends with some of them. For the time that I was with them, I did not have much contact with what I now view as "normal life," which is strange to reconcile considering I have always thought my life was "normal" even in the past. My frame of reference for normal was different.

Anyway, a lot of things most people take for granted were strictly regimented, practiced, and obsessed over. This was all done in the name of personal development, and a sacrifice to be part of something "bigger than ourselves."

My best friend eventually left the community and encouraged me to do the same. I tried to get them to stay but eventually respected their decision. After they left, I was told by others not to speak to them, even though our community has no rules like this. I came to see this is an "unwritten rule" so not official or whatever, but if I were to stay in the community and continue talking to my friend, they would treat you like shit, almost like ostracizing you "for your own good," and hoping that by pressuring you, you will eventually stop.

When this happened, it's like all of my friend's seemingly (at the time) silly gripes with our community slowly started to make more and more sense, and "live rent free in my head" as they say. I never stopped talking to my friend, regardless of what anyone said. Most continued to "shame" me for it, so I left too.

 

[deleted34605741]

Sure

Thank you for replying. And good luck.

 

[newfam]

Thank you for replying. And good luck.

Thanks so much, and can I ask you a question? Why does it say on your profile "Account pending for deletion?" Just wondering as I've seen other profiles with this too. Do people request to be deleted?

 

[Femface_fluffbottom]

Welcome to the website.

 

[Adrian69702006]

Hi and welcome, Daniel. We're a friendly group and I hope you have a good time here.

 

[newfam]

Welcome to the website.

Thanks so much!

 

[newfam]

Hi and welcome, Daniel. We're a friendly group and I hope you have a good time here.

Hi Adrian! Thanks a lot, hope you're having a good day!