Kim and I had been dating for nearly two years since high school. The summer air in our hometown hung thick with humidity, the kind that made your shirt cling to your skin the moment you stepped outside. We'd been back from college for a couple of weeks, crashing at our respective parents' houses but spending most nights tangled up in my old twin bed, whispering about nothing until we fell asleep. We were high school sweethearts—started dating junior year after she laughed at my terrible joke in chemistry class—and now, at nineteen, almost twenty, we were supposed to be that unbreakable couple everyone envied.
College had been fine: same state school, shared dorm friends, weekend parties. But lately, something had shifted. Texts went unanswered for hours. Conversations felt like chores. We both pulled away, like magnets flipped the wrong way, without ever saying why. *I told myself it was just distance. Just growing up. But deep down, I knew I was losing her—and I hated myself for not fighting harder. For being too scared to ask what was wrong. For being the guy who lets things slip away.*
Kim and I had been back in our hometown for two weeks when she suggested we meet up with her cousin Lauren and Lauren's boyfriend Nick for a bonfire at the lake. We were nineteen, almost twenty, both in college together, and our relationship had been... fine. Lately, though, we'd both pulled away. Texts went unanswered. Conversations felt like chores. But summer was for pretending things were still easy, so I said yes. *Why did I say yes? I should've seen this coming. Should've felt the knife before it twisted.*
We picked them up in my Civic. Lauren was Kim's mini-me: same freckles, same bright laugh, but endowed in the chest, eighteen and vibrating with post-graduation freedom. Nick was lanky, backwards cap, shy grin—he looked Italian or Puerto Rican. He slid into the backseat with Lauren and immediately started stealing her fries from the McDonald's bag.
"Nick has to grab some stuff from his place first," Lauren announced. "Parents are out of town. Five minutes, tops."
Nick's house was a split-level on a quiet cul-de-sac. We followed them inside—cool air, the faint smell of Febreze and teenage boy. Lauren flopped onto the couch, kicking her sandals off. Kim sat beside her. I lingered by the kitchen island, scrolling my phone, trying not to feel like the odd man out. *Already on the outside. Story of my life with her lately. Always the guy holding the phone, pretending not to care.*
Nick jogged upstairs. "Be right back!"
The second his footsteps faded, Lauren leaned toward Kim, voice low but not low enough. "You should see what he's packing. Like, obscene. I'm talking wrist-thick, with balls so huge they slap like wrecking balls. I still can't believe it fits."
Kim's eyes went wide. "Lauren!"
"What? It's true. He's gotta angle it sideways in his boxers or it just... pokes. Like a third leg. And those nuts—each one's bigger than a tennis ball, heavy and full, always churning out more cum than should be possible." She giggled, wicked. "So big, Kimmy. Ruins you for anyone else."
I pretended to be very interested in a magnet on the fridge. My face burned. *She's never talked about me like that. Never even close. My dick's just... there. Normal. Forgettable.* Kim laughed, but it was that breathy, curious laugh she used when she was trying not to seem too interested. *She never laughs like that with me anymore. Not since... when? When did I stop making her laugh?*
"Does it... hurt?" Kim whispered, leaning in, her voice laced with something I hadn't heard in months—genuine excitement. *Excitement I used to spark. Now it's for him. For his fucking monster cock.*
"First couple times? Yeah. Now? I'm ruined for normal guys forever. That thickness stretches you until you feel hollow without it, and his balls... they empty so much inside you, you leak for hours, feel it sloshing with every step." Lauren winked. "Don't tell Nick I told you. He gets all shy about it."
Footsteps on the stairs. Nick appeared in basketball shorts—thin, gray, riding low on his hips. And Lauren hadn't been exaggerating. The outline was impossible to miss: a thick, heavy ridge snaking down his left thigh, the head clearly defined, swaying slightly as he walked. Below it, the bulge of his balls was obscene—two massive orbs straining the fabric, shifting with every step like overripe fruit ready to burst. He was soft and it still looked like he was smuggling a cucumber with a pair of grapefruits attached.
Kim's gaze flicked down, then away, then back again. Her cheeks flushed pink. She bit her lip. *She's staring. Right in front of me. And she knows I see it. My chest is caving in. My heart's pounding so hard I can hear it in my ears. This is how it starts. This is how I lose her. And I can't even look away.*
Nick didn't notice. "Got the cooler and the speaker. Ready?"
Lauren hopped up, smacking his ass as she passed. "Let's roll, tripod."
He rolled his eyes, but I caught the smirk. *He knows. He knows what he has. And now she does too. And I'm just the guy driving them to the lake. The guy who's about to watch his world burn.*
In the car, Kim sat up front with me. Her hand rested on my thigh like usual, but it felt different—mechanical, like an afterthought. Her eyes kept drifting to the rearview mirror. Lauren was curled against Nick, whispering something that made him laugh. Every bump in the road made the outline in his shorts shift—his cock flopping heavily, his balls bouncing visibly. Kim's fingers tightened on my leg, but not for me. I could feel it. *She's thinking about it. About him. While her hand's on me. While I'm right here. My skin's crawling. My throat's closing up. I want to scream. I want to pull over and throw him out. But I don't. Because I'm weak. Because I'm scared.*
"You okay?" I asked quietly, my voice already edged with something sharp, my grip tightening on the wheel until my knuckles went white, until I thought the plastic might crack.
"Yeah," she said, too fast, eyes still glued to the mirror. "Just... hot in here."
I wasn't imagining it. She was fascinated. And I hated that I noticed. Hated that it made my stomach knot, my chest tighten like someone was squeezing my heart. *Why aren't I enough? What did I do wrong? Why does she look at him like that? Like he's everything I'm not?*
At the lake, the bonfire was already crackling. Lauren dragged Nick off to "help" with the cooler, which meant making out behind the picnic table. Kim watched them, then turned to me.
"Did you see—" she started, then stopped. "Never mind."
"I saw," I said. My voice came out sharper than I meant, the words tasting like bile. *I see everything. I always have. And it kills me.*
She looked at me, really looked. "You're jealous."
"I'm not." *Liar. I'm dying inside. My ribs are cracking open.*
"You are." She stepped closer, voice soft, but there was a glint in her eye—pity? Amusement? "Sam. It's just a dick. A big, ridiculous dick with monster balls. Doesn't change anything."
But it did. It already had. Because now every time Nick laughed or handed Kim a beer or stretched and the waistband of his shorts dipped, I saw it again—the impossible girth, the low-hanging sack that promised overload. And Kim saw me seeing it. She *liked* that I saw it. The way her eyes flicked to me, then back to him, like she was testing how much it hurt. *She's enjoying this. Enjoying watching me squirm. Enjoying the power. And I hate her for it. I hate myself more.*
Later, when the fire died down and Lauren and Nick disappeared into the trees "to look at stars," Kim pulled me onto a blanket by the water. I nodded, but my hands were already under her shirt, possessive, desperate to reclaim her. She kissed me hard, grinding down, but even then, I could feel her mind elsewhere. *She's thinking about him. I know it. I can taste it in her kiss—distant, mechanical.* I forgot about Nick's stupid shorts for a while—but only because I was trying so hard to make her forget. *Trying to prove I'm still enough. Failing. My hands are shaking. My cock's hard but my heart's cold.*
The drive back from the lake was quiet, the kind that follows too many beers and too few answers. Kim's hand rested on my thigh again, but her fingers were still, like she was holding something back. I kept replaying Lauren's words in my head—the casual boasts about Nick's size, the way she'd measured him with her eyes and her hands, how his thickness and those churning balls had rewritten her. *Kim's thinking about it too. I can see it in her face. In the way she keeps glancing back. In the way her breath hitches when the car jolts.* I told myself it was nothing. Just curiosity. Just summer. But the jealousy was already festering, a hot coal in my throat, burning hotter with every mile. *I'm not enough. I never was. And now it's written on her face, in her eyes, in the way she doesn't even try to hide it.*
We'd left the bonfire early, claiming we were tired. Lauren and Nick had stayed behind to "clean up," which we all knew meant they'd be fucking in the woods within ten minutes. Kim and I had driven ahead to the cabin we'd rented for the weekend, a tiny A-frame with one loft, one bathroom, and walls thin enough to hear a heartbeat. It was supposed to be *our* escape, a place to reconnect away from parents and old routines. But as we pulled up, the porch light flickered on, and I spotted Nick's truck already parked out front. They must have beaten us here somehow—cut through the back trails, maybe. *Of course they did. He's already taken everything else. Even our weekend. Even the one place that was supposed to be ours.*
When we pushed open the door, the cabin wasn't empty. Lauren was on the couch, shirt off, bra pushed down under her breasts—big, heavy, spilling over Nick's hands as he knelt between her legs. Her head was thrown back, mouth open, a soft moan catching in her throat. Nick was shirtless, abs cut sharp in the lamplight, shorts still on but tented obscenely. He wasn't fully hard yet, but the ridge was thick, straining against the fabric like it was trying to escape, and below it, his balls bulged like overfilled water balloons, shifting with his movements. One of his hands was under Lauren's bra, the other sliding up her thigh.
They froze when the door creaked.
"Shit," Lauren gasped, half-laughing, not bothering to cover up. "We thought you guys were still at the lake."
Nick didn't move. Just looked over his shoulder, one eyebrow raised, that same lazy smirk. "Uh. Bad timing?"
Kim's hand tightened in mine. I felt her pulse jump. *She's excited. Not scared. Not embarrassed. Excited. And I'm standing here like an idiot, my stomach dropping through the floor, my blood turning to ice.*
Lauren sat up, breasts shifting with the motion, and shrugged. "We can stop. Or..." She glanced at Kim, then at me—*at me*, like she knew exactly how this would gut me. "It's a small cabin. You guys cool if we... keep going? We'll be quick."
Kim's voice came out breathy. "Yeah. Sure. We'll just... be over here."
*She didn't even hesitate. Didn't even look at me. My heart cracked, a physical pain in my chest, like someone drove a spike through it. My vision blurred. I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. I wanted to disappear.*
We moved to the far corner, the only space left: a narrow bench by the window. I pulled Kim down onto my lap, facing away from them, trying to block it out. My hands went to her waist, her hips, familiar territory. She kissed me hard, urgent, like she was trying to erase the room. I kissed back, sliding my hands under her shirt, thumbing her nipples through her bra. She moaned into my mouth, grinding down on me. *This is us. This is still us. Please let this be us.*
But then I felt it: her body still, her lips slowing. I opened my eyes. She was staring past me. At them. *Of course she is. Of course. My hands feel like dead weight. My mouth tastes like ash.*
Lauren had her bra off now, breasts bare, nipples hard. Nick had pushed his shorts down just enough to free himself—fully hard now, thick and flushed, the head slick. It was a monster: nearly nine inches of wrist-thick 18 year-old meat, veins bulging like ropes, the shaft so girthy it looked deformed in its perfection. And hanging below, his balls—each one a swollen, lemon-sized orb in a smooth, heavy sack, dangling low and full, promising a flood. Lauren's hand wrapped around the base, unable to close around it. She stroked him once, slow, and he groaned, low and rough, his nuts swaying hypnotically. Then she leaned forward, took him in her mouth, lips stretching wide.
Kim's breath hitched. Not from me. *She's wet for him. I can feel it through her shorts. Soaked like she never gets for me. My fingers are trembling. My cock's throbbing but my soul's screaming.*
I turned her face back to mine. "Hey. Look at me." *Please. Look at me. See me.*
She did, eyes glassy, pupils blown. "I'm sorry. I just—"
"It's fine," I lied. My voice was tight, cracking. "Just us." *Please let it be just us. Please don't make me watch this.*
I kissed her again, harder, sliding a hand into her shorts. She was soaked—*drenched*, more than she'd ever been for me, her arousal slick and hot against my fingers, coating my hand like betrayal. I hated that I noticed. Hated that part of me was hard because of it. She rocked against my fingers, moaning softly, but her head kept turning, just slightly, toward the couch. *She's not even trying to hide it. She wants me to know. She wants me to hurt.*
On the other side of the room, Nick had Lauren on her back now, legs spread, shorts gone. He was sliding into her slow, inch by inch, her back arching off the cushions. She gasped his name, loud enough to echo. Kim's hips jerked against my hand in time with Lauren's moan—*perfect sync*, like she was feeling it too. *Like she's already his. Like I'm just the warm-up act.*
I bit her neck, possessive, tasting salt and betrayal. "You're mine." *Say it. Mean it. Please.*
She nodded, frantic. "Yes. Yes."
But her eyes were open, fixed on Nick's back, on the way his ass flexed with each thrust, on the obscene stretch of Lauren around him, his massive balls slapping forward with every drive. *She's imagining it. Imagining him inside her. And I'm right here. Touching her. And it's not enough. It'll never be enough.*
We came like that: me with my hand in her shorts, her face buried in my shoulder, muffling a cry that wasn't just for me. Across the room, Lauren came—louder, longer, her scream echoing in my skull like a death knell, ripping through me, tearing me apart.
After, the cabin was silent except for breathing.
Lauren laughed, breathless. "Well. That was... something."
Kim didn't say anything. Just leaned into me, trembling. *Not from me. From watching him. From wanting him. My arms feel like lead. My chest is hollow.*
I held her tight, staring at the ceiling, wondering how we'd ever unsee this. *Wondering if she even wants to. Wondering why I let this happen. Why I didn't stop it. Why I'm still here.*
The air in the cabin was thick, humid with sex and the low hum of the lake outside. I sat frozen on the bench, Kim still half on my lap, her shorts unbuttoned, my fingers sticky from her. Across the room, Lauren and Nick were catching their breath, her breasts rising and falling, his cock still half-hard and glistening, his balls hanging even heavier now, slick and spent.
Then Kim moved.
She slid off me, knelt between my legs, and pulled my shorts down. My dick sprang out—hard, aching, but suddenly small. Slender. Normal. She wrapped her hand around it, stroking once, twice, like she was comparing. Her eyes flicked to Nick. I saw it. I felt it. *She's measuring me against him. And I'm losing. I've always been losing. My cock looks like a joke next to his. My heart feels like it's being crushed in a vice.*
College had been fine: same state school, shared dorm friends, weekend parties. But lately, something had shifted. Texts went unanswered for hours. Conversations felt like chores. We both pulled away, like magnets flipped the wrong way, without ever saying why. *I told myself it was just distance. Just growing up. But deep down, I knew I was losing her—and I hated myself for not fighting harder. For being too scared to ask what was wrong. For being the guy who lets things slip away.*
Kim and I had been back in our hometown for two weeks when she suggested we meet up with her cousin Lauren and Lauren's boyfriend Nick for a bonfire at the lake. We were nineteen, almost twenty, both in college together, and our relationship had been... fine. Lately, though, we'd both pulled away. Texts went unanswered. Conversations felt like chores. But summer was for pretending things were still easy, so I said yes. *Why did I say yes? I should've seen this coming. Should've felt the knife before it twisted.*
We picked them up in my Civic. Lauren was Kim's mini-me: same freckles, same bright laugh, but endowed in the chest, eighteen and vibrating with post-graduation freedom. Nick was lanky, backwards cap, shy grin—he looked Italian or Puerto Rican. He slid into the backseat with Lauren and immediately started stealing her fries from the McDonald's bag.
"Nick has to grab some stuff from his place first," Lauren announced. "Parents are out of town. Five minutes, tops."
Nick's house was a split-level on a quiet cul-de-sac. We followed them inside—cool air, the faint smell of Febreze and teenage boy. Lauren flopped onto the couch, kicking her sandals off. Kim sat beside her. I lingered by the kitchen island, scrolling my phone, trying not to feel like the odd man out. *Already on the outside. Story of my life with her lately. Always the guy holding the phone, pretending not to care.*
Nick jogged upstairs. "Be right back!"
The second his footsteps faded, Lauren leaned toward Kim, voice low but not low enough. "You should see what he's packing. Like, obscene. I'm talking wrist-thick, with balls so huge they slap like wrecking balls. I still can't believe it fits."
Kim's eyes went wide. "Lauren!"
"What? It's true. He's gotta angle it sideways in his boxers or it just... pokes. Like a third leg. And those nuts—each one's bigger than a tennis ball, heavy and full, always churning out more cum than should be possible." She giggled, wicked. "So big, Kimmy. Ruins you for anyone else."
I pretended to be very interested in a magnet on the fridge. My face burned. *She's never talked about me like that. Never even close. My dick's just... there. Normal. Forgettable.* Kim laughed, but it was that breathy, curious laugh she used when she was trying not to seem too interested. *She never laughs like that with me anymore. Not since... when? When did I stop making her laugh?*
"Does it... hurt?" Kim whispered, leaning in, her voice laced with something I hadn't heard in months—genuine excitement. *Excitement I used to spark. Now it's for him. For his fucking monster cock.*
"First couple times? Yeah. Now? I'm ruined for normal guys forever. That thickness stretches you until you feel hollow without it, and his balls... they empty so much inside you, you leak for hours, feel it sloshing with every step." Lauren winked. "Don't tell Nick I told you. He gets all shy about it."
Footsteps on the stairs. Nick appeared in basketball shorts—thin, gray, riding low on his hips. And Lauren hadn't been exaggerating. The outline was impossible to miss: a thick, heavy ridge snaking down his left thigh, the head clearly defined, swaying slightly as he walked. Below it, the bulge of his balls was obscene—two massive orbs straining the fabric, shifting with every step like overripe fruit ready to burst. He was soft and it still looked like he was smuggling a cucumber with a pair of grapefruits attached.
Kim's gaze flicked down, then away, then back again. Her cheeks flushed pink. She bit her lip. *She's staring. Right in front of me. And she knows I see it. My chest is caving in. My heart's pounding so hard I can hear it in my ears. This is how it starts. This is how I lose her. And I can't even look away.*
Nick didn't notice. "Got the cooler and the speaker. Ready?"
Lauren hopped up, smacking his ass as she passed. "Let's roll, tripod."
He rolled his eyes, but I caught the smirk. *He knows. He knows what he has. And now she does too. And I'm just the guy driving them to the lake. The guy who's about to watch his world burn.*
In the car, Kim sat up front with me. Her hand rested on my thigh like usual, but it felt different—mechanical, like an afterthought. Her eyes kept drifting to the rearview mirror. Lauren was curled against Nick, whispering something that made him laugh. Every bump in the road made the outline in his shorts shift—his cock flopping heavily, his balls bouncing visibly. Kim's fingers tightened on my leg, but not for me. I could feel it. *She's thinking about it. About him. While her hand's on me. While I'm right here. My skin's crawling. My throat's closing up. I want to scream. I want to pull over and throw him out. But I don't. Because I'm weak. Because I'm scared.*
"You okay?" I asked quietly, my voice already edged with something sharp, my grip tightening on the wheel until my knuckles went white, until I thought the plastic might crack.
"Yeah," she said, too fast, eyes still glued to the mirror. "Just... hot in here."
I wasn't imagining it. She was fascinated. And I hated that I noticed. Hated that it made my stomach knot, my chest tighten like someone was squeezing my heart. *Why aren't I enough? What did I do wrong? Why does she look at him like that? Like he's everything I'm not?*
At the lake, the bonfire was already crackling. Lauren dragged Nick off to "help" with the cooler, which meant making out behind the picnic table. Kim watched them, then turned to me.
"Did you see—" she started, then stopped. "Never mind."
"I saw," I said. My voice came out sharper than I meant, the words tasting like bile. *I see everything. I always have. And it kills me.*
She looked at me, really looked. "You're jealous."
"I'm not." *Liar. I'm dying inside. My ribs are cracking open.*
"You are." She stepped closer, voice soft, but there was a glint in her eye—pity? Amusement? "Sam. It's just a dick. A big, ridiculous dick with monster balls. Doesn't change anything."
But it did. It already had. Because now every time Nick laughed or handed Kim a beer or stretched and the waistband of his shorts dipped, I saw it again—the impossible girth, the low-hanging sack that promised overload. And Kim saw me seeing it. She *liked* that I saw it. The way her eyes flicked to me, then back to him, like she was testing how much it hurt. *She's enjoying this. Enjoying watching me squirm. Enjoying the power. And I hate her for it. I hate myself more.*
Later, when the fire died down and Lauren and Nick disappeared into the trees "to look at stars," Kim pulled me onto a blanket by the water. I nodded, but my hands were already under her shirt, possessive, desperate to reclaim her. She kissed me hard, grinding down, but even then, I could feel her mind elsewhere. *She's thinking about him. I know it. I can taste it in her kiss—distant, mechanical.* I forgot about Nick's stupid shorts for a while—but only because I was trying so hard to make her forget. *Trying to prove I'm still enough. Failing. My hands are shaking. My cock's hard but my heart's cold.*
The drive back from the lake was quiet, the kind that follows too many beers and too few answers. Kim's hand rested on my thigh again, but her fingers were still, like she was holding something back. I kept replaying Lauren's words in my head—the casual boasts about Nick's size, the way she'd measured him with her eyes and her hands, how his thickness and those churning balls had rewritten her. *Kim's thinking about it too. I can see it in her face. In the way she keeps glancing back. In the way her breath hitches when the car jolts.* I told myself it was nothing. Just curiosity. Just summer. But the jealousy was already festering, a hot coal in my throat, burning hotter with every mile. *I'm not enough. I never was. And now it's written on her face, in her eyes, in the way she doesn't even try to hide it.*
We'd left the bonfire early, claiming we were tired. Lauren and Nick had stayed behind to "clean up," which we all knew meant they'd be fucking in the woods within ten minutes. Kim and I had driven ahead to the cabin we'd rented for the weekend, a tiny A-frame with one loft, one bathroom, and walls thin enough to hear a heartbeat. It was supposed to be *our* escape, a place to reconnect away from parents and old routines. But as we pulled up, the porch light flickered on, and I spotted Nick's truck already parked out front. They must have beaten us here somehow—cut through the back trails, maybe. *Of course they did. He's already taken everything else. Even our weekend. Even the one place that was supposed to be ours.*
When we pushed open the door, the cabin wasn't empty. Lauren was on the couch, shirt off, bra pushed down under her breasts—big, heavy, spilling over Nick's hands as he knelt between her legs. Her head was thrown back, mouth open, a soft moan catching in her throat. Nick was shirtless, abs cut sharp in the lamplight, shorts still on but tented obscenely. He wasn't fully hard yet, but the ridge was thick, straining against the fabric like it was trying to escape, and below it, his balls bulged like overfilled water balloons, shifting with his movements. One of his hands was under Lauren's bra, the other sliding up her thigh.
They froze when the door creaked.
"Shit," Lauren gasped, half-laughing, not bothering to cover up. "We thought you guys were still at the lake."
Nick didn't move. Just looked over his shoulder, one eyebrow raised, that same lazy smirk. "Uh. Bad timing?"
Kim's hand tightened in mine. I felt her pulse jump. *She's excited. Not scared. Not embarrassed. Excited. And I'm standing here like an idiot, my stomach dropping through the floor, my blood turning to ice.*
Lauren sat up, breasts shifting with the motion, and shrugged. "We can stop. Or..." She glanced at Kim, then at me—*at me*, like she knew exactly how this would gut me. "It's a small cabin. You guys cool if we... keep going? We'll be quick."
Kim's voice came out breathy. "Yeah. Sure. We'll just... be over here."
*She didn't even hesitate. Didn't even look at me. My heart cracked, a physical pain in my chest, like someone drove a spike through it. My vision blurred. I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. I wanted to disappear.*
We moved to the far corner, the only space left: a narrow bench by the window. I pulled Kim down onto my lap, facing away from them, trying to block it out. My hands went to her waist, her hips, familiar territory. She kissed me hard, urgent, like she was trying to erase the room. I kissed back, sliding my hands under her shirt, thumbing her nipples through her bra. She moaned into my mouth, grinding down on me. *This is us. This is still us. Please let this be us.*
But then I felt it: her body still, her lips slowing. I opened my eyes. She was staring past me. At them. *Of course she is. Of course. My hands feel like dead weight. My mouth tastes like ash.*
Lauren had her bra off now, breasts bare, nipples hard. Nick had pushed his shorts down just enough to free himself—fully hard now, thick and flushed, the head slick. It was a monster: nearly nine inches of wrist-thick 18 year-old meat, veins bulging like ropes, the shaft so girthy it looked deformed in its perfection. And hanging below, his balls—each one a swollen, lemon-sized orb in a smooth, heavy sack, dangling low and full, promising a flood. Lauren's hand wrapped around the base, unable to close around it. She stroked him once, slow, and he groaned, low and rough, his nuts swaying hypnotically. Then she leaned forward, took him in her mouth, lips stretching wide.
Kim's breath hitched. Not from me. *She's wet for him. I can feel it through her shorts. Soaked like she never gets for me. My fingers are trembling. My cock's throbbing but my soul's screaming.*
I turned her face back to mine. "Hey. Look at me." *Please. Look at me. See me.*
She did, eyes glassy, pupils blown. "I'm sorry. I just—"
"It's fine," I lied. My voice was tight, cracking. "Just us." *Please let it be just us. Please don't make me watch this.*
I kissed her again, harder, sliding a hand into her shorts. She was soaked—*drenched*, more than she'd ever been for me, her arousal slick and hot against my fingers, coating my hand like betrayal. I hated that I noticed. Hated that part of me was hard because of it. She rocked against my fingers, moaning softly, but her head kept turning, just slightly, toward the couch. *She's not even trying to hide it. She wants me to know. She wants me to hurt.*
On the other side of the room, Nick had Lauren on her back now, legs spread, shorts gone. He was sliding into her slow, inch by inch, her back arching off the cushions. She gasped his name, loud enough to echo. Kim's hips jerked against my hand in time with Lauren's moan—*perfect sync*, like she was feeling it too. *Like she's already his. Like I'm just the warm-up act.*
I bit her neck, possessive, tasting salt and betrayal. "You're mine." *Say it. Mean it. Please.*
She nodded, frantic. "Yes. Yes."
But her eyes were open, fixed on Nick's back, on the way his ass flexed with each thrust, on the obscene stretch of Lauren around him, his massive balls slapping forward with every drive. *She's imagining it. Imagining him inside her. And I'm right here. Touching her. And it's not enough. It'll never be enough.*
We came like that: me with my hand in her shorts, her face buried in my shoulder, muffling a cry that wasn't just for me. Across the room, Lauren came—louder, longer, her scream echoing in my skull like a death knell, ripping through me, tearing me apart.
After, the cabin was silent except for breathing.
Lauren laughed, breathless. "Well. That was... something."
Kim didn't say anything. Just leaned into me, trembling. *Not from me. From watching him. From wanting him. My arms feel like lead. My chest is hollow.*
I held her tight, staring at the ceiling, wondering how we'd ever unsee this. *Wondering if she even wants to. Wondering why I let this happen. Why I didn't stop it. Why I'm still here.*
The air in the cabin was thick, humid with sex and the low hum of the lake outside. I sat frozen on the bench, Kim still half on my lap, her shorts unbuttoned, my fingers sticky from her. Across the room, Lauren and Nick were catching their breath, her breasts rising and falling, his cock still half-hard and glistening, his balls hanging even heavier now, slick and spent.
Then Kim moved.
She slid off me, knelt between my legs, and pulled my shorts down. My dick sprang out—hard, aching, but suddenly small. Slender. Normal. She wrapped her hand around it, stroking once, twice, like she was comparing. Her eyes flicked to Nick. I saw it. I felt it. *She's measuring me against him. And I'm losing. I've always been losing. My cock looks like a joke next to his. My heart feels like it's being crushed in a vice.*