I suppose I'll derail a little bit, but I am always surprised by how common this sentiment is among straight and bi men.
So many guys (I don't mean you in particular, but in general) are predominantly attracted to women but also have a weird fascination with dick & bottoming. And it's sometimes conventionally masculine men you least expect.
I personally knew a guy like that, a college wrestler, who only enjoyed bottoming for men while dressing as a woman. He was only interested in bottoming and sucking dick, doing anything else with a man was completely revolting to him lol. He was also a huge chaser of trans women, for obvious reasons.
Makes sense why even mid cross-dressers can bag 10/10 studs as long as they are willing to top. Passable pre-op trans women get their pick of the litter when it comes to straight jocks and bodybuilders.