I'd say I feel almost the same. I have a devotion for cock that is really pure, in a sense that I love cock for the cock itself. I am capable of sucking some men just because the penis is there and I feel it would be the thing I needed to do that moment, not because of the men attached to it.
I think that men are only the means to share and keep a nature's masterpiece. Sucking cocks always make me feel connected to something, like a spiritual experience as you say, and this something it's not the man being sucked, but it can also be (hardly ever it is for me). It transcends him, because he carries a piece of the divine potential for life, pure pleasure and transcendence. This is not for regular people to understand.
I feel like every cock has its proper worshippers, because you need to bond with that cock - it calls you when you see it, you feel something, it's greater than lust and desire - so the worshipping in essence can actually happen. It's something that pulls you towards this merging moment between you and that sacred beautiful thing, until you become one.
As I said, not everyone will understand these things, and we should acknowledge it and consider ourselves blessed for being capable of experiencing such mindfulness this way. We're not here to preach the word of cock, we just found a way to connect to the sacred through interacting with something that can be a beautiful tool to spread love if used correctly.
We're able to just "be" when we're sucking a cock, like some people do when meditate ora pray, and this is simply amazing. Why specifically sucking? I don't know and don't need to. I have no need to rationalize something that makes me feel whole, one with something bigger and giver/receiver of love. A love that's not personal - it's abundant, it's in everything and it also comes to me as this kind of experience. I can only be grateful.
Thanks for sharing and making me know I'm not alone in that haha