there is this short clip of Ethan waking Michael up.
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To be able to wake up everyday for 2-3 decades with this kind of sight? What a blessing. But in reality less than just a decade he's not that hung anymore eh? But I think I should thankful enough for his shows in 2019.
 
He didn’t like the fans. He found us disgusting. He made that clear in his manifesto and in his texts with my girl account.
This is something a man with internalized homophobia would say.

Also from his manifesto, page 161:
6:00 PM couch
“Sit up straight, you pussy.”
That’s what I read. And guess what I’m doing now. I unplugged the computer. I’m erect (in my back). I’m
not even gay. I think I grew out of that basically entirely when I grew out of my intoxication phase. Is
homosexuality, in part, for me, a side effect of a disoriented mind? I don’t know. I’ve definitely thought
about penises a lot. I’ve also masturbated to trans women on pornhub a bit. But, somehow, I feel dirty
afterwards. What the FUCK does it matter. Keep reading! Force it. You have to force it, Michael.
You can do everything right. No aclohol. No mind altering shit. Stay focused. Stay on
your own shit. Accomplish what you need to. Do everything in your power to remain
superior to everyone else. Never stoop down to their pathetic levels ever again.

Bi men who are ashamed of same-sex attraction will say things like "those men who like me are disgusting," so they can perform toxic masculinity and be validated by others who buy into it. Dude literally worked out in underwear and jerked off in front of a camera for 3 months for no pay with men watching and was clearly turned on by it, and would step out of a shower to finish because "it's bad for the pipes." Sure, Jan...
 
This is something a man with internalized homophobia would say.

Also from his manifesto, page 161:


Bi men who are ashamed of same-sex attraction will say things like "those men who like me are disgusting," so they can perform toxic masculinity and be validated by others who buy into it. Dude literally worked out in underwear and jerked off in front of a camera for 3 months for no pay with men watching and was clearly turned on by it, and would step out of a shower to finish because "it's bad for the pipes." Sure, Jan...
regardless of Bisexuality or attraction it is also okay to say “you know what I’m an exhibitionist and get off on people getting off watching me”. Why people (especially Americans) get so weird about nudity, sexual desires or kinks is weird to me. These are the same type of people that will be in shit relationships and be sexually unsatisfied for years and years because that won’t discuss what they like. Or do things like join a cult lol
 
regardless of Bisexuality or attraction it is also okay to say “you know what I’m an exhibitionist and get off on people getting off watching me”. Why people (especially Americans) get so weird about nudity, sexual desires or kinks is weird to me. These are the same type of people that will be in shit relationships and be sexually unsatisfied for years and years because that won’t discuss what they like. Or do things like join a cult lol
Yeah I think he has shame around his sexual desires regardless. America was founded by Puritan prudes and it is a part of our culture. There is a lot of pressure for young people to make something of their lives, and expressing any sexual desire that's not hetero missionary sex in marriage is contrary to that.

Michael also wrote:

I don’t even know if I’m ever going to do porn or not. I mean, if they paid me to
fuck a dude for pornhub, would I do it? I would probably enjoy it, tbh. But, would I be
able to handle that level of abject scrutiny. IDK. I already don’t like the fact that people
judge me for what I do, but at the same time I fucking hate everyone and think that all
their jobs are hilarious embarassments more than they could ever reciprocate the
feeling, so maybe it’s only fair. [Page 291]
 
I love how Michael made a big hoo-ha that for his next "project" he was gonna be dropped off naked somewhere in Florida and have to try and fend for himself, and then apparently never documented it and halfway through joined some cult where he doesn't need money anymore

I would say we haven't seen the last of him but then he got married so...
 
Is there a way to watch this without upgrading?
keep refreshing, it's now xx:04, xx:52, xx:35, xx:39, that's what I remember, it used to be much simpler xx:x3 or 7, but now lpsg refresh time become much more complicated, try searching "refresh time"