billybones
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Not everyone, but the sentiment merits an fireworks emoji or something.
Though I’m sure the other half would rather a projection emoji, if that exists.
“I’ve always considered myself a little more fluid along the spectrum,” he tells Gay Times. “So even being called bisexual… I remember in my early twenties I was like, ‘But bisexual means I can only like girls and guys, what if I like something else?’.
“Maybe it’s just my rebellious nature. I’m me, I’m Antoni, and I’m all these things. Some people want to define themselves, and they should as it’s part of their identity.
“For me personally, I’ve never really had a label for myself. Today I’m gay, I’m in a gay relationship, and that’s where I am
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Straight from the horses mouth lol
“Maybe it’s just my rebellious nature. I’m me, I’m Antoni, and I’m all these things. Some people want to define themselves, and they should as it’s part of their identity.
“For me personally, I’ve never really had a label for myself. Today I’m gay, I’m in a gay relationship, and that’s where I am
Straight from the horses mouth lol
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Does anyone feel like the life has been sucked out of Antoni lately. He seems depressed or sad in some ways. The energy I use to see in him is gone if you look at his photos lately or videos. It’s like that spark and youth is gone. I know the pandemic was hard. His restaurant closed in NYC. No one liked it but I did and would go. Something is off. Anyone else notice it ?
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I know he talked about depression before. I hope he is okay.
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On the turning point of his struggles with his mental health, Antoni said: “I have an addictive personality and sometimes that manifests itself in a good way and sometimes not in such a good way. My 20s were nuts.”
He said he understood depression and mental health a lot better in his 20s after he woke up one morning. For the first time in his life, he “felt nothing” and “flatlined”, which he said was the most terrifying moment in his life.
“I decided to reach out to someone who sort of went through a similar thing,” he continued. “Because I knew it was something I was going to be ready for eventually, but I didn’t know to what capacity or how I wanted to go about it.
“I had a really honest conversation with her and she helped me. I made a decision and I made a choice that day, and it’s something that’s ongoing; it’s not like something that goes away and now I’m cured.”
I know he talked about depression before. I hope he is okay.
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On the turning point of his struggles with his mental health, Antoni said: “I have an addictive personality and sometimes that manifests itself in a good way and sometimes not in such a good way. My 20s were nuts.”
He said he understood depression and mental health a lot better in his 20s after he woke up one morning. For the first time in his life, he “felt nothing” and “flatlined”, which he said was the most terrifying moment in his life.
“I decided to reach out to someone who sort of went through a similar thing,” he continued. “Because I knew it was something I was going to be ready for eventually, but I didn’t know to what capacity or how I wanted to go about it.
“I had a really honest conversation with her and she helped me. I made a decision and I made a choice that day, and it’s something that’s ongoing; it’s not like something that goes away and now I’m cured.”
I just think he stopped overtanning he's normally cooked like a roasted ham. He has always seemed to have a dryer affect imo. That being said, the fact that he doesn't want to do those self care rituals could mean he is having a bad time too, who knows?
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Any tea on what happened in his prev relationship that ended ?
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Both are grumpy tops. Neither one wanted to take the ploughing. My guess. Lol.
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He seems happy with his current boyfriend Kevin
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Have anyone felt like Antoni ?
“I was most comfortable with my body when I was in a relationship with women,” he admitted. “There wasn’t a sense of comparison because we were different. It was my first relationship with a guy where I looked at myself and I was like, ‘Oh my biceps aren’t as big as his, I wish my legs were longer, I wish my torso was longer.’ I got really self-conscious and it was the comparison.”
For me, dating and sleeping with men I haven’t felt a need to compare myself to them. I usually though go for guys bigger than me but as Antoni dates guys who have similar physique like him I guess it conjures competition. Women are a lot more accepting of mens bodies where as gay men are very superficial.
“I was most comfortable with my body when I was in a relationship with women,” he admitted. “There wasn’t a sense of comparison because we were different. It was my first relationship with a guy where I looked at myself and I was like, ‘Oh my biceps aren’t as big as his, I wish my legs were longer, I wish my torso was longer.’ I got really self-conscious and it was the comparison.”
For me, dating and sleeping with men I haven’t felt a need to compare myself to them. I usually though go for guys bigger than me but as Antoni dates guys who have similar physique like him I guess it conjures competition. Women are a lot more accepting of mens bodies where as gay men are very superficial.
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No wonder he's so insecure around other dudes he's...smaller than I thought based on the pic above (not that he isn't extremely hot so who cares).
I knew a bi guy I met on here who was a fitness instructor. He was tall and looked like a Greek God with long dark brown hair and chiseled strong features. After much prodding I convinced him to come over. He used to come to my house for full body naked massages.
He seemed extremely uncomfortable with "sex" and was totally closeted bi (so was I so we bonded over that). We definitely had "sex" by most people's standards. I basically spent two hours naked doing every possible position but pounding his ass and us getting off.
It was obvious he wanted to but he seemed to have a mental block. His weird hangups about being with a man "all the way" or maybe my size scared him. He seemed really anatomy obsessed though especially in comparison to mine (I thought he had a decent if average to smaller sized penis).
His first response to seeing my dick was shock. He audibly gasped and mouth gapped open. I remember right after I showed him my dick he said he felt like an "impostor" being on this site and that I clearly "belonged." Pardon my ignorance, but I had no idea what he meant. I was new to being with men 3 yrs ago when we met and never compared my dick to friends growing up. I also never really payed much attention to this sites name (just thought it was a random acronym). Besides, I just come for the naked celebrity pics I found here. I eventually understood he meant he didn't feel confident with his dick size or girth.
He always said he wasn't "looking for more than a massage" but all evidence pointed to otherwise. Literally his dick would point due north just by looking at me naked and admiring my dick before I even touched him. It was pink and curved up (which I loved). He was one of my strangest encounters with men because most who are aroused to that degree want to take it further. He did not.
I used to get him rock hard (still have never seen anyone as hard) and frot our dicks together. I put my dick between his cheeks even the tip in and he would remain stoic and not moan but act like this was a professional massage! He would stop me from going "too far" every now and then but I ate his ass and sucked precum off the tip of his dick.
Though he wouldn't show it his body told on him how much he loved it. I made him leak gallons of precum all over my bed which I teased him about after each "session." He'd just say "that's just my body reacting to a good "massage" and I was definitely one of if not his best masseuse comparing me to trained "professionals." He said there was a "reason he kept coming back" even though I was testing his boundaries.
So yeah, I know guys like this. I guess everyone compares to some degree but if you are basically just degrading yourself for not measuring up maybe MM relationships aren't right for you?
