Have anyone felt like Antoni ?
“I was most comfortable with my body when I was in a relationship with women,” he admitted. “There wasn’t a sense of comparison because we were different. It was my first relationship with a guy where I looked at myself and I was like, ‘Oh my biceps aren’t as big as his, I wish my legs were longer, I wish my torso was longer.’ I got really self-conscious and it was the comparison.”
For me, dating and sleeping with men I haven’t felt a need to compare myself to them. I usually though go for guys bigger than me but as Antoni dates guys who have similar physique like him I guess it conjures competition. Women are a lot more accepting of mens bodies where as gay men are very superficial.
No wonder he's so insecure around other dudes he's...smaller than I thought based on the pic above (not that he isn't extremely hot so who cares).
I knew a bi guy I met on here who was a fitness instructor. He was tall and looked like a Greek God with long dark brown hair and chiseled strong features. After much prodding I convinced him to come over. He used to come to my house for full body naked massages.
He seemed extremely uncomfortable with "sex" and was totally closeted bi (so was I so we bonded over that). We definitely had "sex" by most people's standards. I basically spent two hours naked doing every possible position but pounding his ass and us getting off.
It was obvious he wanted to but he seemed to have a mental block. His weird hangups about being with a man "all the way" or maybe my size scared him. He seemed really anatomy obsessed though especially in comparison to mine (I thought he had a decent if average to smaller sized penis).
His first response to seeing my dick was shock. He audibly gasped and mouth gapped open. I remember right after I showed him my dick he said he felt like an "impostor" being on this site and that I clearly "belonged." Pardon my ignorance, but I had no idea what he meant. I was new to being with men 3 yrs ago when we met and never compared my dick to friends growing up. I also never really payed much attention to this sites name (just thought it was a random acronym). Besides, I just come for the naked celebrity pics I found here. I eventually understood he meant he didn't feel confident with his dick size or girth.
He always said he wasn't "looking for more than a massage" but all evidence pointed to otherwise. Literally his dick would point due north just by looking at me naked and admiring my dick before I even touched him. It was pink and curved up (which I loved). He was one of my strangest encounters with men because most who are aroused to that degree want to take it further. He did not.
I used to get him rock hard (still have never seen anyone as hard) and frot our dicks together. I put my dick between his cheeks even the tip in and he would remain stoic and not moan but act like this was a professional massage! He would stop me from going "too far" every now and then but I ate his ass and sucked precum off the tip of his dick.
Though he wouldn't show it his body told on him how much he loved it. I made him leak gallons of precum all over my bed which I teased him about after each "session." He'd just say "that's just my body reacting to a good "massage" and I was definitely one of if not his best masseuse comparing me to trained "professionals." He said there was a "reason he kept coming back" even though I was testing his boundaries.
So yeah, I know guys like this. I guess everyone compares to some degree but if you are basically just degrading yourself for not measuring up maybe MM relationships aren't right for you?