I Want To Die.

[5548741]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

 

[8Cylinder]

We've all felt alone, and that we have no friends. That is within our control. So is your morbid obesity, which is probably your means of escape. That's ironic, though, dear one... as it probably further isolates you and prevents people from finding out who you are behind the mask. I'd say there is not one person on the planet that does not do the same thing, though. Some people hide behind a career, others family, still others incessant gaming, gambling, travel, drinking or drugs. So yes, it's normal.
Here's what I'd suggest. Join a group, not just online. Go tell your story so others don't think they're the only ones like you. You are never alone because no one likes you, you're alone because you're hiding. To go anywhere in life, we must get up and walk, whether to the refrigerator, the car, a friend's, or just to go out into nature, look at plants growing and hearing the birds sing. Whatever you do, don't isolate yourself. That's the biggest problem.
When I've felt that way (and I have a lot), I start and finish an improvement project of some kind. Start walking more and more. It may seem hopeless, but it is not. Walk first a couple of blocks, or whatever you can. Every day go further. Envision your goal of how far to walk the next time.
Drink only water, and a lot of it. Water carries away excess stored energy in the form of fat. It also removes depression. Eat entirely new things. Fresh fruits and vegetables, walk to go buy them, every day. Learn how to cook if you don't already, but focus on healthy portions and ingredients only. Elminate excess sugar and fatty meats from your diet totally, and don't eat foods that are GMO. Sound impossibile? It's not.
Find someone to help, and it will help you. Go talk to an isolated old person that can't go to the store themselves, or another person suffering thoughts of self harm, but talk only about what's good in life, and there's a lot that is.
Everyone has problems, buddy. The biggest one is removing ourselves from being in our own way. A big hug.

 

[halcyondays]

No it's not normal. You need help.

I'm not obese. Never have been. But I have a few friends who were, lost all their weight and have kept it off. Two things worked for them. One joined a twelve step program called Overeaters Anonymous. The second enrolled in Weight Watchers.

The great irony of addictive behavior is that it's an attempt to control how one feels and the only way to break the pattern is to give up control.

As for suicide call the Samaritans if you need help or just want to talk.

 

[pwrdick]

No, this is not normal. This is a really tough time for a lot of people and it is important to recognize how you are feeling. I know what depression and hopelessness feels like and am glad I pushed on through that very difficult time in my life. It DOES get better. Shout is an affiliate of Crisis Text Line® in the UK that provides free, confidential support, 24/7 via text. It’s the first free 24/7 texting service in the UK for anyone in crisis anytime, anywhere. Shout is available in England, Scotland, Wales, and Northern Ireland. PLEASE reach out to them. Now.

 

[LPSG Support]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

Hi Dude. It is normal to be really upset and sad. We all have ups and downs. Wanting to die is different. As others have said now is a really hard time for all of us. It absolutely sucks. I think calling the number pwrdick gave you could help.

If there is anything i can do let me know. I'm going to reach out to you privately. You always have a friend in me.

 

[deleted4500261]

I strongly urge that you reach out to a counselor or support group that can help you through this. You are absolutely not alone and your situation can change for the better. Your life can be amazing and there are people that can help you manage these feelings and support changes that can make your life incredibly fulfilling. Death, as far as we know, is permanant and I believe that you have the strength is you to change and get the joy that you seem to be missing.
You took the action to reach out on here and I encourage you to find a local group that you can join for people in your situation. Good luck and stay strong!

 

[Candela]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

Oh dear. I will be your friend. All people are beautiful and nobody deserves to feel bad about themselves.
This post has touched my heart.!

 

[wd656166248]

This may sound like a stupid suggestion but have you tried online gaming? Gaming is a great way to not only escape for a few hours but also meet people and make friends even if it’s virtual. A lot of the games I play have discord’s or you join clans and such and you actually build some sort of friendship with the people you play with overtime. It could at least give you some sort of human connection that your lacking especially since nobody can really go out right now.

One other thing to keep in mind is that you have hit your rock bottom. The future can’t get any worse than the present is right now. Just keep pushing find something to live for and take everyone’s suggestions that are being posted because everybody is suggesting good shit.

 

[Candela]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

We are here for you. Please talk to us!

 

[Tight_N_Juicy]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

Try to find an available mental health professional to talk to. Telehealth is more available than ever right now, I think it's time you talk to someone who can give you tools you can use to try and control these thoughts.

 

[Mule]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

You're not alone, even if it feels like it. There are people who do care, some of which you've never met. It sounds ridiculous, but it is true. You have to take one step yourself, though: Reach out to some of the suggestions people have given you here.

There is help and you can make things better.

 

[Simpleid]

We've all felt alone, and that we have no friends. That is within our control. So is your morbid obesity, which is probably your means of escape. That's ironic, though, dear one... as it probably further isolates you and prevents people from finding out who you are behind the mask. I'd say there is not one person on the planet that does not do the same thing, though. Some people hide behind a career, others family, still others incessant gaming, gambling, travel, drinking or drugs. So yes, it's normal.
Here's what I'd suggest. Join a group, not just online. Go tell your story so others don't think they're the only ones like you. You are never alone because no one likes you, you're alone because you're hiding. To go anywhere in life, we must get up and walk, whether to the refrigerator, the car, a friend's, or just to go out into nature, look at plants growing and hearing the birds sing. Whatever you do, don't isolate yourself. That's the biggest problem.
When I've felt that way (and I have a lot), I start and finish an improvement project of some kind. Start walking more and more. It may seem hopeless, but it is not. Walk first a couple of blocks, or whatever you can. Every day go further. Envision your goal of how far to walk the next time.
Drink only water, and a lot of it. Water carries away excess stored energy in the form of fat. It also removes depression. Eat entirely new things. Fresh fruits and vegetables, walk to go buy them, every day. Learn how to cook if you don't already, but focus on healthy portions and ingredients only. Elminate excess sugar and fatty meats from your diet totally, and don't eat foods that are GMO. Sound impossibile? It's not.
Find someone to help, and it will help you. Go talk to an isolated old person that can't go to the store themselves, or another person suffering thoughts of self harm, but talk only about what's good in life, and there's a lot that is.
Everyone has problems, buddy. The biggest one is removing ourselves from being in our own way. A big hug.

Absolutly agreed

 

[Simpleid]

Looks these suggestions are for all of us, to help eachother, life is up and down. Try to enjoy spring and nature, walking in mountain give me confidence and happiness.

 

[TallBigGuy]

You are not alone in what you are feeling, you have us and there is free help out there.

If you would need to speak to someone now, call Samaritans UK free on 116 123.

As you are in England, you have free access to physiological therapies via the NHS. Go to this link to access them. Find psychological therapies services - NHS


I have added some links below that talk about suggestions on how to improve your wellbeing, during these difficult times.
Every Mind Matters | One You
Coronavirus and your wellbeing

 

[TallBigGuy]

I just want add, if you are uncomfortable in seeking help via the NHS there are private options as well.

https://www.counselling-directory.org.uk - is free service that enables you to find counselling and therapy practitioners in your area. All practitioners have a profile along with a breakdown of their qualifications, specialties and fees.

If you need any help with any of this, PM me and I will be able to help.

 

[Snarky_succubus]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

Normal? It happens... but it’s not healthy and it well within your control. Instead of sitting around thinking of dying... go fix it. I’ve been exactly where you are and I’m not now... Because I got off my ass and changed it. Whatever consoling the people of this website have to offer you isn’t enough to change the way you feel about your situation. While there will be plenty and it will all be with the greatest of intention... none of it will make you feel loved. That has to start with you. Go get some therapy to figure out why you don’t care enough about yourself to make good decisions for your well being. You’re single and without friends because you’ve built yourself into that cell... whether you realize it or not. I promise... it’s fixable. Take a step. Sitting still will do nothing but keep you where you are. It’s going to be uncomfortable... but you’re clearly not comfortable anyway, right?

 

[NCbear]

OP, I’ve been where you are. I agree, it feels like you’re drowning in an inescapable pool of hopelessness.

But the truly positive thing is this: Not only is there nowhere to go but up, as a previous poster noted, but also you do in fact have some concrete steps to take to find ways to pull yourself out of this—as several others upthread have noted.

When I first learned this truth—that I do in fact have actions I can take to improve my mental health—I was at such a low point (cynical, suspicious, not even trusting myself, much less others, and caught up in the negative social stigma at the time regarding seeking mental health care) that I interpreted this type of positive advice as blaming me for my feelings, which I was already tremendously frustrated that I didn’t know how to control. So the message that I do indeed have “agency”—the power to change my life—initially didn’t sink in. But once I took that first step, I improved, considerably, over time. You will, too. But you have to take that first step to help yourself.

Make a call. Find a therapist. Ask for realistic, workable, tested, proven, and practical strategies for changing your mental health. You can do it!

NCbear (who’s hoping you take that first step as soon as possible, and who hopes you can feel the outpouring of empathy for you, including from people who’ve been where you are now)

 

[Gj816]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

Normal? These times of safer at home and social distancing can/and are a strain on us all. You are not alone.

There are things in life we cannot control. We cannot change. BUT there are also things we can change and control. The first step is often ther hardest, but it's a step we all have to take.

Focus on positive thoughts. Count your blessings. As others have said seek some form of professional help. Also if there is some elderly people in your neighborhood or family visit them. Often they're not able to get out and go places, a visit from you would be welcomed I'm sure. Often seniors are lonesome and would love to have someone to talk to.

We're here for you and you can DM me anytime if you need someone to talk to. Many of us have been depressed and felt alone. Remember there's a big difference in being alone and being lonely. Take care there are brighter days ahead.

As for the weight and friends, that is in your control to change. You can start by walking and increasing the length of your walks every time you walk. If you are not working you have the opportunity to walk several times a day. The more you walk the better you'll feel.
As for friends. You have to be a friend to get a friend. Be a friend to yourself first. If you don't like you no one else will either. Learn to love yourself just as you are. And be happy with yourself. Your confidence will grow with each walk you take.

Remember you didn't get in this shape over night and you are not going to change overnight. But if you'll be determined and dedicated changes will come.
Good luck.

 

[Simpleid]

I keep thinking about dying, sometimes killing myself. I feel so alone. I'm single, no friends, morbidly obese. Is this normal to want to die?

Hey hows it going? Feel good now?

 

[ronin001]

It is normal to be sad, to be jealions, to have periods of self loathing, and for most people periods of happiness just go hand in hand. Lots of perfectly rational people have thought about ending their lives, passing thoughts are generally just thoughts.

If you do find yourself, with only the ability to focus and experience negative emotions / thoughts of harming yourself, then I would look for professional help. The UK, I would guess is similar to the USA, and there are should be free support groups that are just a phone call / internet click away

Joining LPSG, may be the first, best step in you could take. Though most of us here are not Medical persons, we are generally full of advice . Though we cannot dispense medication, many members dispense humor and laughter. I can say from personal experience that this place can fill a void; and help make bad times good


Best wishes and welcome @dude_uk