I have not had sex with a woman in a little over 2 years now. I got out of a bad relationship a year and a half ago. During that time, I have found it really hard to connect with women. I am a shy person, not very outgoing, don't have a lot of confidence, and I am a heavy set guy. So, I started watching porn more and more starting about 2 years ago. I started with straight porn, and lesbian porn. Then I started watching other porn, like mfm, transwomen porn, and then gay porn. At first, it was just out of curiosity and boredom. But the more I started watching transwomen and gay porn, the more I found it was arousing to me. I now almost exclusively watch gay and trans porn only. I have also experimented a couple times with a couple different guys, but not a lot. Mostly just mutual hj. I want to take it to the next step and see if i can find a guy who I can play with on a regular basis, and safely, but I still have not done so. I guess it has a lot to do with being shy and not confident in myself, as well as not having good luck with meeting anyone where mutual interest is there.
I think all of this is mostly because if I hadn't had such a long dryspell, I might not have been open-minded enough to consider being with a guy. Maybe I always had some bi tendencies, and didn't realize it until recently, or maybe it's just because I had such bad luck with women. I don't know. What I do know is if I didn't have a lack of hetero sex, I am pretty sure I would not have become bi curious like I am now.