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[hockeydick]

Update, i finally got him alone for the first time in since the last update. He spent Halloween at my place and we started playing with each others dicks over the pants again like last time. This time i told him i wanted to show him my dick and he let me pull it out. He jacked me off and wanted me to slap his face and lips with it. He licked the tip a little before getting overwhelmed and wanted to slow things down. I started jacking him off over his shorts. They were loose so i had a good grip on it. I told him i wanted to put my mouth on it and he let me put it in over the shorts. The shorts were loose enough i got a good mouthful of his cock but he wasnt ready to whip it out still. He has a big thick uncut cock and even through the shorts it felt amazing in my mouth. I started sucking on his nipple while jacking him off over the shorts and he said he was gonna cum. I told him i wanted him to cum and it was okay. I kept going and he moaned a loy, one of the best sounds ive ever heard. He said he was cumming so i put my mouth back on it over the shorts. He grabbed my head and shoved his throbbing big dick in my mouth shorts and all while he busted a huge load. He went crazy while he was cumming. It sounds crazy to do that much and not just go for a full blowjob but i think he just needed something like this in the middle to ease into it. I told him i woulda loved it if he pulled his cock out and let me swallow that load and he said he thought about it and that its most likely gonna happen next time and he wants to make me cum too. He said he loved tasting my cock and he took his time playing with it and just staring at it. It was his first time touching a dick other than his own and he was loving it. No matter what happens next this night will always be one of my best and horniest memories. Will update again next time I see him, am confident it will just keep getting better.

 

[PhxM4M2Blow]

Update, i finally got him alone for the first time in since the last update. He spent Halloween at my place and we started playing with each others dicks over the pants again like last time. This time i told him i wanted to show him my dick and he let me pull it out. He jacked me off and wanted me to slap his face and lips with it. He licked the tip a little before getting overwhelmed and wanted to slow things down. I started jacking him off over his shorts. They were loose so i had a good grip on it. I told him i wanted to put my mouth on it and he let me put it in over the shorts. The shorts were loose enough i got a good mouthful of his cock but he wasnt ready to whip it out still. He has a big thick uncut cock and even through the shorts it felt amazing in my mouth. I started sucking on his nipple while jacking him off over the shorts and he said he was gonna cum. I told him i wanted him to cum and it was okay. I kept going and he moaned a loy, one of the best sounds ive ever heard. He said he was cumming so i put my mouth back on it over the shorts. He grabbed my head and shoved his throbbing big dick in my mouth shorts and all while he busted a huge load. He went crazy while he was cumming. It sounds crazy to do that much and not just go for a full blowjob but i think he just needed something like this in the middle to ease into it. I told him i woulda loved it if he pulled his cock out and let me swallow that load and he said he thought about it and that its most likely gonna happen next time and he wants to make me cum too. He said he loved tasting my cock and he took his time playing with it and just staring at it. It was his first time touching a dick other than his own and he was loving it. No matter what happens next this night will always be one of my best and horniest memories. Will update again next time I see him, am confident it will just keep getting better.

Closed Set (1980)

 

[whoweat]

Update, i finally got him alone for the first time in since the last update. He spent Halloween at my place and we started playing with each others dicks over the pants again like last time. This time i told him i wanted to show him my dick and he let me pull it out. He jacked me off and wanted me to slap his face and lips with it. He licked the tip a little before getting overwhelmed and wanted to slow things down. I started jacking him off over his shorts. They were loose so i had a good grip on it. I told him i wanted to put my mouth on it and he let me put it in over the shorts. The shorts were loose enough i got a good mouthful of his cock but he wasnt ready to whip it out still. He has a big thick uncut cock and even through the shorts it felt amazing in my mouth. I started sucking on his nipple while jacking him off over the shorts and he said he was gonna cum. I told him i wanted him to cum and it was okay. I kept going and he moaned a loy, one of the best sounds ive ever heard. He said he was cumming so i put my mouth back on it over the shorts. He grabbed my head and shoved his throbbing big dick in my mouth shorts and all while he busted a huge load. He went crazy while he was cumming. It sounds crazy to do that much and not just go for a full blowjob but i think he just needed something like this in the middle to ease into it. I told him i woulda loved it if he pulled his cock out and let me swallow that load and he said he thought about it and that its most likely gonna happen next time and he wants to make me cum too. He said he loved tasting my cock and he took his time playing with it and just staring at it. It was his first time touching a dick other than his own and he was loving it. No matter what happens next this night will always be one of my best and horniest memories. Will update again next time I see him, am confident it will just keep getting better.

this is how experimenting should be! i love how neither one of you forced each other to do something you didn't want. i'm happy for the both of you

 

[hockeydick]

Update, i finally got him alone for the first time in since the last update. He spent Halloween at my place and we started playing with each others dicks over the pants again like last time. This time i told him i wanted to show him my dick and he let me pull it out. He jacked me off and wanted me to slap his face and lips with it. He licked the tip a little before getting overwhelmed and wanted to slow things down. I started jacking him off over his shorts. They were loose so i had a good grip on it. I told him i wanted to put my mouth on it and he let me put it in over the shorts. The shorts were loose enough i got a good mouthful of his cock but he wasnt ready to whip it out still. He has a big thick uncut cock and even through the shorts it felt amazing in my mouth. I started sucking on his nipple while jacking him off over the shorts and he said he was gonna cum. I told him i wanted him to cum and it was okay. I kept going and he moaned a loy, one of the best sounds ive ever heard. He said he was cumming so i put my mouth back on it over the shorts. He grabbed my head and shoved his throbbing big dick in my mouth shorts and all while he busted a huge load. He went crazy while he was cumming. It sounds crazy to do that much and not just go for a full blowjob but i think he just needed something like this in the middle to ease into it. I told him i woulda loved it if he pulled his cock out and let me swallow that load and he said he thought about it and that its most likely gonna happen next time and he wants to make me cum too. He said he loved tasting my cock and he took his time playing with it and just staring at it. It was his first time touching a dick other than his own and he was loving it. No matter what happens next this night will always be one of my best and horniest memories. Will update again next time I see him, am confident it will just keep getting better.

And i haven't seen him ever since.

 

[nj6443]

And i haven't seen him ever since.

Sorry to hear that man

 

[rosedepp]

no update yet?

 

[hockeydick]

Not the update I was hoping to give you guys but i'll take this opportunity to vent about my feelings in case that is interesting to anyone.

I haven't seem him in over a year now. After I made him cum that time he got real quiet and started cancelling plans and ignoring my messages.

Eventually I told him how much it hurt to be ignored and he apologized but said that he "needed to be alone so he doesn't keep hurting people".

I backed off and gave him space. Eventually he got a new phone and never gave me the new number. This broke my heart. Aside from the sexual relationship we had he was my best friend first and foremost and he fully abandoned me in the same fashion he abandoned every girl he's ever dated. Not sure why i was so surprised.

I remember a time before he even told me he wanted to try gay sex when he was dating a girl who was in love with him and he knew he didn't love her back. I begged him not to ghost her and to just have an honest conversation with her but the concept of that gave him too much anxiety and he just ignored her and avoided her til she gave up.

Like her, I was left to arrive at my own conclusions and it made me crazy trying to figure out what he was thinking. This absolutely destroyed me. It was my first real heartbreak. I got so depressed that I developed an eating disorder and needed to be put on an SSRI. I coped by smoking weed. I was stoned almost every waking moment for many months.

I spent countless hours in therapy trying to make sense of this and learn how to move on. Eventually my sadness turned into anger and that was really scary because I have no history of anger issues and I could feel that this was really changing me. I hope i don't sound crazy but I was in love with him and he made me feel like I was genuinely loved in return.

It sucks especially because I know I tried my best and I feel like I did everything I could to make him comfortable. I gave him no reason to be uncomfortable and I thought that he felt like he could tell me anything. I picked my battles and for the most part kept my mouth shut and feelings to myself so that I didn't scare him. I will definitely admit to getting a little too crazy about him but I made it known at all times that he would decide the pace and I would never rush him. I carefully considered his feelings every step of the way at the expense of my own feelings and he showed me absolutely no mercy in the end. My world was shattered.

Eventually my new SSRI started working and I also began hitting the gym a lot as an outlet for the anger. Since he ghosted me I lost a lot of body fat and gained a lot of muscle. Because he gave me no reason for his sudden change I chose to assign my own reason to it and blamed it entirely on my body and all its flaws. Even though that doesn't sound like a mentally healthy thing to do, it became a net positive for me and I am now in the best shape of my life largely because of this.

I accepted the fact that I have no romantic future with him and what he did to me is something I consider unforgivable as a friend, but I can't lie i still want to fuck him and still would if he was ever interested again. I'm too horny of a guy and too curious about sex with him to let morals and values get in the way. I need to feel his ass around my dick while looking in his eyes and making out with him and I won't know how to move on entirely until then.

Sometimes it feels like the way he left things sexually was intentionally cruel. He licked my cock but didn't put it in his mouth, he let me put his cock in my mouth but only over the shorts... The ultimate cock tease... If I just had of fucked him once it would be so much easier to move on but he brought me right to the edge and cut me off hard. He even let me play with his ass (over his shorts) but i never ended up seeing his dick except in the videos he showed me of a girl blowing him while we were cuddled up on the couch.

Actually there was one time when 4 or 5 guys were staying at my place and we were all hungover in the morning and he comes in wearing nothing but his boxer shorts, the kind without the button. He flopped on the couch and his dick fell out without him even noticing. He was just scrolling through his phone while I was starring at his big uncut soft dick. If it was any smaller I probably woulda warned him subtly to put it away so the other guys didn't see but it was clearly nothing to be embarrassed about so I shut my mouth until he eventually noticed and put it away after everyone in the room got a look too.

Anyways, the last face to face conversation we had was him asking me how to douche his ass for me so I thought we were gonna fuck next time for sure.

I am in a good state now but sometimes little things will remind me of him and I have these mini panic attacks or moments of deep sadness. I have major trust issues that i'm not sure will ever go away.

It was recently his birthday and I wished him a good one. He messaged back and said I looked good and called me 'baby' like he used to. I told him that I miss him and he said he misses me too.

I learned that he moved back to his hometown which is a very long drive away. He recently was in my area at a mutual friend of ours' party. That friend asked me to come to the party too so I messaged and asked him if I should go or if that would make him uncomfortable. I asked him if he would prefer to reconnect one on one if/when we do decide to reconnect. He replied that "something more intimate might be best".

I don't think I coulda pretended to be normal in front of our mutual friends who have no idea whats been going on. It was so hot when we were sneaking around, little things like grabbing each others dicks while we knew our friends weren't looking but now its just sad and there are too many unanswered questions that I feel like my head would explode if I tried to interact with him in that setting again.

I don't expect i'll see him anytime soon but I have a feeling I will fuck him someday, (unless he found another gay guy to use as a sex toy).

My therapist thinks he is just having some kind of gay identity crisis and can't face me because I represent a part of himself that he would rather not unpack.

Feel free to psychoanalyze me, or the situation but I can't be talked out of fucking him if the opportunity arises again. I'm ready to be hurt again, I can handle anything now.

 

[nj6443]

@hockeydick Hey brother thanks for the update. I really don’t know if there’s anything I can say or offer except sorry.

I’m glad you’re in a better place with your body as a result of all of this, but don’t forget to take care of your mind too. Though, it sounds like you are by going to therapy.

Unfortunately, I know this situation too, and the very thing that makes it fun is also what makes it so dangerous - lack of boundaries. Sneaking around, lying by omission, etc. is fun because it breaks boundaries or leaves them unestablished, but confusion and anger usually results from those broken/nonexistent boundaries because the heart and mind eventually yearn for answers

I honestly couldn’t tell you if his response of “something more intimate is better” was honest or just a ploy to get you to not attend the party. It was really kind of you to reach out and consider his feelings - would he have done the same? Did he follow up for a time for you both to get more intimate? If not, he might be more bark than bite

I know how fun and intense these things can be, but through them I have observed that, often, those who are confused bring others confusion

I hope you can move on with sound mind (or fuck him eventually haha)

 

[hockeydick]

@nj6443 thank you. No matter how much he hurt me I will always keep his secret. Which makes it harder cause i am grieving the loss of a relationship that no one knows about. So its good to get perspective from someone other than my straight therapist who doesn't really get it. I am thankful for the anonymous form we have here. He has not followed up about making plans, and it is too embarrassing to be ignored by him that i'd prefer just to not reach out. Part of me thinks that he knows he did me dirty and just has a lot of anxiety about having to explain himself.