Chapter 11
I woke up the next morning late. It was after 9:00, but it was Saturday. I got up and assembled some laundry to start, while I made some coffee and started to think about my day. I got a text message from Mark asking me if I wanted to meet up with him and Sean for dinner. I replied, sure, just let me know where and when. Other than work folks, I didn’t really know anyone in the city. I decided to hold off on laundry and go for a run before the day got too hot. I changed into gym clothes and realized I was running out of gym clothes to wear, so I did need to do some wash at some point this weekend. I donned my sneakers and headed out. My apartment complex was a garden style set up with three floors and balconies everywhere. There were trees all over the grounds, and walking paths that extended into a city park. I started down a path toward a creek. I saw a few neighbors walking with strollers and a few older folks getting steps in. I picked up my jogging pace as I left the apartment grounds and entered the park area. There were soccer games being played by children and a couple of families barbecuing early. Then I remembered it was after 10:30 so maybe not so early.
I left my phone at home as I didn’t want to be distracted with Grindr. My phone had been beeping all night with random “you up” and “netflix and chill” requests. The path opened up and there were bikes and walkers and all modes of transportation. It was starting to get crowded, and I thought I would veer off and head over to the street. I ran about a mile down to the next subdivision area, and turned around to head back. I was coming down the next street when I approached another jogger ahead of me. I noticed the calves first. They were big and defined, colonial calves, as in George Washington would have been impressed. I followed him down the street, slowing my pace to match his and staying about 10 yards back. I started to track the shift in his ass back and forth. It was okay for an ass, not as defined as Ron’s, but that was a truly exceptional specimen to be sure. I noticed his arms were thin and smooth and his hair was thinning on top, but he was in good shape overall. He was taller and thin, and seemed to wear a big shoe, but I couldn’t really tell from my vantage point. I kept pace with him and he turned at the next corner. I decided to let him go on, as I wasn’t that interested in seeing if there was more going on with him than met my eye.
I continued around the next few curves on the main street heading back towards my apartment, and I turned into the parking lot. I decided to walk back to my apartment, and saw a few neighbors. Mostly families with small kids. I was a little distracted. I thought about Ron some more, and about Nathan, and Carlos. I was out of control, sucking and fucking at the office. But it was amazing, and I was really enjoying the variety of cock I was getting to taste. The buffet as it were. Life may be a banquet, but I was not a poor starving fool I thought. I was lonely though. I thought about the question Carlos had asked me. Alone, Lonely? I would have to agree yes, in fact. Both. How long had it been since I had a boyfriend? Years, could it have been years? Ben was likely it. He was in fact my whole junior year of college. A nice enough guy. Quiet, and not really into a lot of sex. He liked to cuddle and we would binge watch reruns of Friends. To this day, if I see a clip of Friends, I can still see Ben in his plaid flannel pajama pants snuggled up on the couch waiting for me to bring popcorn back over to him.
I got in and headed for the bathroom to shower. After I got clean, I started the laundry and finally checked my phone. Gary had messaged me twice about getting naked, but the fucking penguins were permanently stuck in my head. Mark texted a restaurant address across town and 6 pm as a possible time, and I thought, new, I need to try new. I gave him a thumbs up for the text and set the phone down. I turned on the TV and watched a random baseball game while the washer finished. This moment was the first time I had to really step back and evaluate my life and how it was actually going. I took a deep breath and counted back from ten. I was doing just fine so far. I had a big law job that most of my classmates would have killed for. I had a nice apartment for the summer, and work was going well. But, I was alone, and had been alone for a while. I had friends, but not really close ones, and some days I was feeling better off alone.
I did enjoy having sex. I also enjoyed having a lot of sex. It was a distraction some days, and frankly a way to pass the time other days. I loved the surprise of a new guy, what kind of dick would he have, how was his ass shaped, what did his cum taste like, who would fuck who, and what was the energy like when we were naked together. The office with the basement gloryhole and gym steam room both provided easy access to different dick, but really not for potential boyfriends. I had introduced Mark to Sean, actually unwittingly, but maybe Sean allowed Mark to swallow his cum. Yeah, I was still bitter about that. But Mark was lucky- Sean had a nice thick eight inch piece of man meat swinging between his legs at the ready. Mark had a nice ass though. I was jealous that Jeremy got some of that action, but evidently paid a huge price for that moment of bliss. Thanks to me in fact. I don’t know who actually knew I was the one that ratted them out. The rent a cop did. But, I don’t think he would say much, especially after I blew him. That was a nice dick too. Long and thick and dark- ebony dark. But the cum was tasty. The washer beeped, and it was time to move the load to the dryer. I adjusted my cock in my gym shorts and headed over to the washer.
I returned to the couch and evidently drifted off to nap. I had a dream that I was in my fifties, a rich and powerful lawyer, and I was married. To another lawyer, but he was quieter, cute, and calmer. He wasn’t a sex god, he was just a normal guy. I enjoyed cuddling with him on the couch. And we traveled together. I heard the dryer end with its beep, and it jostled me awake. I was struck by the dream. I think I was in Hawaii or something tropical. Lots of plants. I also think I was wearing a bow tie. Maybe it was tax that I should be doing. I really loved the intricacies. And I do think that Jason and Todd seem to have my best interests in mind. I like them, in a way that I didn’t like Ron or Jeremy. Now I lusted after them of course, but I didn’t really lust after Todd or Jason as much. But Jason sometimes seemed to be quietly attractive, like a lamb in the streets and a tiger in the sheets. But I didn’t fantasize about him the way I would George even. I was comfortable in the tax team. I think I can shine there. I really wanted to do well on this big case, my first big break in the legal world.
I got up and moved the laundry, and started folding. I needed to quit fucking around as much as I was doing. Limit the blow jobs to three a week? Ha, as if. But, focus on the work, and my own development. I had read a bunch of self help books in the past couple of years, trying to get a life direction. I found career counseling in school lacking any personal touch, and I think it’s hard sometimes to know what’s out there in the world for me, and what I really wanted. That’s what I wanted to focus on in the coming weeks, what did I really want. I finished folding and headed to the bedroom to put away. I had a new spring in my step, a purpose. What did I really want? I got out a piece of paper and a pen and wrote that at the top. I went over to the fridge and pulled out a soda, and came back to the dining table where my future plans awaited. I started to just brainstorm ideas, writing out what I thought I wanted. No rhyme or reason, just thoughts. Work, husband, life, family, friends, goals, cars, travel, hobbies. Everything. Then I stepped back and realized that I didn’t have much of any of this in my current life.
I needed a plan. How to get there. I thought about each. Work - I seemed to be on a plan, just needed to do better at the office. Husband was tough. Would I find a husband through a glory hole? Maybe not. But I was attractive and I could turn on the charm. One of the things that Ron did for me is to awaken my own inner swagger. I could meet the challenges of life head on, even when it was the head of my dick. But really, I stood up to their slings and arrows as it were, and I was better off than they were. Life would come. I want to do well. That was my goal. I thought about the game of life as a kid. A guy and a wife and a couple of kids. Not for me. I wanted to be the gay uncle perhaps, but not ‘daddy.’ Unless I was in a leather harness getting called Daddy by a hot slave in a trashy dive gay bar. I returned to the list. Family is easy, I had mine, but I could call them more often. Friends, ditto, and perhaps make a few new ones.
Goals, well, make a lot of money and have a great life. But, I think maybe I needed to be more specific. I put a question mark beside that one, and moved on. Cars, I wanted a Benz. The classic symbol of wealth. I remember a friend of my Dad’s having one and we rode in it to dinner one time. I didn’t want to get out of the car; his was so nice. Like a mouth on my dick soft. Travel everywhere - Europe, Australia, Japan. Everywhere, and anywhere. Maybe not a war zone, but good food and history, sign me up. Hobbies were also a big question mark. I wasn’t much of a crafty gay. I wasn’t really much of anything. I was a blank slate, just a law student who knew his way around a library. I liked to read, but was that enough. What else? Oh a good run, and I did like to play chess. But that was in high school, when I was too pimply to get laid, or be the BMOC. I was in the bleachers like Taylor Swift sang about. No hot neighbor, no romance. Just a lot of late night jacking off to the football players in my class.
I looked at the clock and realized that it was 4:30 and I needed to start getting ready to meet the boys for dinner. I got a quick shower, and dressed in a polo and khakis and headed out. I arrived at the restaurant at 5:50 and asked for the reservation. The waiter pointed to the corner and I saw Sean sitting there. I had an immediate flashback to his cock through the hole and I got tingly. It was now Mark’s cock, so I had to stop thinking about that. So much for goals, I was just interested in getting laid about 80% of the time. I think it was being 24 but I was also about proving myself. That really was my goal for the summer. Proving what kind of man I could be. Certainly I could fuck. And I had swagger when I needed it. But, what about the rest of manhood? Was I trying to be the Marlboro man, lone ranger on a horse, or the sheriff in a cowboy movie, keeping order in a frontier town? Or the farmer raising a family, or the general store shopkeeper? I am not sure why I was channeling the whole western theme. Maybe it was the cowboy hat on the guy at the next table over from us. He had a great handlebar mustache. I wondered what that would look like around my dick.
I sat down across from Sean. “Hey there, red, how’s it hanging?” I joked. Sean smiled and whispered, “down and to the left.” He smirked. I licked my lips in response. He then laughed. I liked his wicked sense of humor. Mark appeared just then and sat back down next to Sean. Mark put a hand around Sean’s back, and said, “hey John, so glad you could make it.” I replied, “thanks for inviting me out. This place is great.” Mark nodded, “it’s a favorite of Sean’s. I think he likes the waiters.” I looked around. This was a turkish place, with yellow and blue decor and scenes of beaches on the wall. The waiters were all dressed in the tightest black pants I had seen on a guy, except maybe Ron where his looked sprayed onto him, and they all were built like olympians. Was that too Greek for the Turks? Anyway, I watched the asses move quickly around the tables and the men all had beards and long hair. It was a sexually charged atmosphere, even if the waiters still had clothes on.
A young waiter named Ahmet strode by our table and said, “Ready?” Sean smiled at him and he smiled back. I wondered if Ahmet and he had exchanged cocks before. Sean replied, “I think we could start with drinks?” looking at Mark and I. We nodded. Sean said, “I’ll take a beer,” and Mark said, “diet coke.” I looked at the drinks list quickly and said, “I’m game- how about a gazoz?” The waiter smiled at me, “very good sir, very good. This come from my hometown.” He seemed to linger at me for a little longer than even Sean. As he took my menu, he let his hand brush the top of mine. I felt my cock stretch against the waistband of my underwear. Shit, he was hot. That was beyond the tension I felt even in the steamroom of the office gym. Sean said, “he has taken a shine to our friend.” I blushed. “I’m sure he does that for the tips,” I coyly demurred. Mark shook his head. “John is the biggest flirt in the office. I think both Ron and Jeremy wanted him. They would stare at your butt as you walked away from them every time. I was chopped liver next to you.” I shook my head no and said, “I doubt that. Besides, you hold your own in the butt department as I recall.” Sean turned to Mark and said, “he certainly does.” Mark rubbed Sean’s shoulders and they were cute in that moment of sexual solidarity. I had a flashback to both Sean’s cock through the hole and Mark’s ass bent over in his cube. Man, I bet their sex is hot to watch.
The food arrived and the banter continued into the evening. While there was a lot of sexual tension in the restaurant with Ahmet, and Sean, and the other patrons, I was finding my groove, making jokes with the guys and relaxing. I did have a flashback to the list from this afternoon. Under the friends category I wanted more of this. We finished up and paid the bill. The boys suggested we walk over to a new gelato place for a little scoop. I agreed, glad that I had my run earlier in the afternoon. We were standing in line when a guy behind us yelled over. “Sean, Sean boy,” he said. Sean turned around and started chatting with this Asian guy. Mark leans over and said, “we can’t go anywhere without Sean running into someone he knows.” I smiled, I bet that dick opens lots of doors I thought. “He’s probably been here a while and has had a chance to mingle more.” Mark nodded. “Yeah, he told me that when he met me he was looking to settle down. I hope I am enough for him to settle down with.” He seemed a little lost at the moment. I turned to him and said, “you are enough, you are more than enough. He’s lucky to have you.” Mark looked over at me and said, “thanks, that’s really nice of you.” He gave me a quick hug, and I patted him on the back.
I left them at the cafe and drove back home. It was strange to actually drive in the city, as I have been mostly a walker since I arrived. I liked the feel of the city at night. The lights, the other cars, the excitement. I thought about finding a gay club to hang out for a while in, but I was thinking it might just lead to a hook up, and in the life goals part of my list I was trying to down select random cocks. To a certain degree I was hoping to be what Sean was striving for. A reformed whore. Or maybe just less whore for sex, maybe more whore for money. Is that what the law was to me, just a casino slot machine? But to me it was more than just whoring for money. It was solving problems for people. That’s what I liked about it. Problems that were hard and complicated. Puzzles that were worth money to solve.