Hey, gents and ladies and whichever terms you prefer to be called.
Let me just start off in the beginning so you all know the full story. I’m about 19 y/o, in the military and straight-ish- or at least i thought so. I had an encounter with a neighbour of mine, whom I’ve known ever since i moved out of my parents 2 years ago. He’s always been nice, was the first to greet me when i moved in the neighbourhood, somehow we clicked. We liked similar stuff- football, making cocktails, architecture, and definitely going and checking out new pubs here and there. We’ve hit it off the first few months even though he was waaayy older than me; he was 37 years old, quite good looking for that age he seemed to have a gym body. He has a wife and 3 kids, roughly the same age as me, from 19 to 23. He’d always come over and play playstation with me if he’d ever need a break from his family (say- just an alone time with a company) and i’ve always welcomed him as he never overstayed his stay and always cleaned up for himself. He even cooks sometimes when he feels like it, hey it’s free lunch.
But that’s all fun and amazing and i’ve always looked up to him. I’ve ranted to him, gave him all my problems and he’d never fail to give me great advice. It’s as if he’s like master Oogway if you’ve ever watched Kung-Fu Panda. One day though, he and his wife had this small argument which his wife took a big deal out of. She took the kids and told him they’d be staying at her mum’s for the next day(s) or so. He came knocking at my door at night, saying if he could come in and have a drink- it was nearing 12am on a Saturday night. As weird as it was, he’d never done that before so being a good mate of his, I said sure. I had a bunch of liquor from home because I liked to make cocktails; as i’ve mentioned before. We drank the night and he explained what happened, basically tearing up whilst telling his story. I’ve calmed him down at some point but he just kept on drinking and I was getting worried sick since i’ve never seen him like this before. I decided that he’d had enough about quarter to 3 in the morning so I told him i’d help him home and he should sleep it off through the night. But he pulled me in forehead to forehead and out eyes interlocked. He’s stopped crying but this took me by surprise. I didn’t know what was about to happen but i let it seeing that his drunk. He went in for a kiss, and i pushed him away, cause i was confused. he fell off the chair and I looked at him with confusion. He then stood up, and apologised- i said sorry too. But he didn’t stop there, he came on towards me and held me on the shoulders then proceeded to call me an attractive person, he’d always found me sexy apparently and he was glad he’d met someone like me to get through him at this time. I didn’t move, and was looking at his lips; thinking about how those lips were just on mine a couple of seconds ago- next thing i know he went him again for a kiss but this time i didn’t stop him. I just let him kiss me and the next thing i know he’s hand was inside my shorts but the question going through my head was- why was I getting hard? He stroked me slowly and I froze at that spot. I thought to myself- ‘was i liking this?’. It continued on as it advanced to something new. I had a couple of drinks myself which i blamed for how i was feeling. From the living room, went to bed and it went without saying anything. Just pure making out and having fun. We jerked each other off, his hand on my cock and my hand on his, and he then sucked me off. It felt so fucking amazing. Now i’ve had loads of experiences with women, and it never felt so good at a guy’s mouth. We both climaxed and i came in his mouth whilst he came on my chest. It was an experience i thought i’d never like.
We cleaned up afterwards with a towel but as we both intoxicated, we drifted off to sleep on my bed, naked. I woke up the next day my head on him and he had his arm wrapped on me and mine on him (i usually sleep with hugging a bolster). I panicked at that moment, I had a GUY on my bed and he was a close friend whose my neighbour Naked. I creeped out of bed thinking my next move but nothing- i put on my clothes and headed downstairs and my first instinct was to make brekkie. He then woke up 15 minutes later but that’s probably because of the smell of the food and he was half naked. We stared at each other saying nothing. He apologised afterwards, saying he was black out drunk and wasn’t sure what he was doing but i dismissed it and said i vaguely remember it and just told him we’d never talk about it, like it never happened. I was confused myself and i didn’t want this to be an awkward thing especially since he’s my neighbour. He left afterwards and we haven’t spoken to each other until yesterday night he shoots me a message ‘Can we talk?’ and i haven’t responded. I don’t know how or what to do, I liked the experience but i’m sure as hell not sure if that makes me gay or not.
I posted this here as I was searching for people with the same thing as me (though i’d doubt it) on google, and came across the LPSG page which had forums so i thought this would be the perfect place to get someone’s opinion and advice. I’m sorry if i’ve taken your time with reading this.
Let me just start off in the beginning so you all know the full story. I’m about 19 y/o, in the military and straight-ish- or at least i thought so. I had an encounter with a neighbour of mine, whom I’ve known ever since i moved out of my parents 2 years ago. He’s always been nice, was the first to greet me when i moved in the neighbourhood, somehow we clicked. We liked similar stuff- football, making cocktails, architecture, and definitely going and checking out new pubs here and there. We’ve hit it off the first few months even though he was waaayy older than me; he was 37 years old, quite good looking for that age he seemed to have a gym body. He has a wife and 3 kids, roughly the same age as me, from 19 to 23. He’d always come over and play playstation with me if he’d ever need a break from his family (say- just an alone time with a company) and i’ve always welcomed him as he never overstayed his stay and always cleaned up for himself. He even cooks sometimes when he feels like it, hey it’s free lunch.
But that’s all fun and amazing and i’ve always looked up to him. I’ve ranted to him, gave him all my problems and he’d never fail to give me great advice. It’s as if he’s like master Oogway if you’ve ever watched Kung-Fu Panda. One day though, he and his wife had this small argument which his wife took a big deal out of. She took the kids and told him they’d be staying at her mum’s for the next day(s) or so. He came knocking at my door at night, saying if he could come in and have a drink- it was nearing 12am on a Saturday night. As weird as it was, he’d never done that before so being a good mate of his, I said sure. I had a bunch of liquor from home because I liked to make cocktails; as i’ve mentioned before. We drank the night and he explained what happened, basically tearing up whilst telling his story. I’ve calmed him down at some point but he just kept on drinking and I was getting worried sick since i’ve never seen him like this before. I decided that he’d had enough about quarter to 3 in the morning so I told him i’d help him home and he should sleep it off through the night. But he pulled me in forehead to forehead and out eyes interlocked. He’s stopped crying but this took me by surprise. I didn’t know what was about to happen but i let it seeing that his drunk. He went in for a kiss, and i pushed him away, cause i was confused. he fell off the chair and I looked at him with confusion. He then stood up, and apologised- i said sorry too. But he didn’t stop there, he came on towards me and held me on the shoulders then proceeded to call me an attractive person, he’d always found me sexy apparently and he was glad he’d met someone like me to get through him at this time. I didn’t move, and was looking at his lips; thinking about how those lips were just on mine a couple of seconds ago- next thing i know he went him again for a kiss but this time i didn’t stop him. I just let him kiss me and the next thing i know he’s hand was inside my shorts but the question going through my head was- why was I getting hard? He stroked me slowly and I froze at that spot. I thought to myself- ‘was i liking this?’. It continued on as it advanced to something new. I had a couple of drinks myself which i blamed for how i was feeling. From the living room, went to bed and it went without saying anything. Just pure making out and having fun. We jerked each other off, his hand on my cock and my hand on his, and he then sucked me off. It felt so fucking amazing. Now i’ve had loads of experiences with women, and it never felt so good at a guy’s mouth. We both climaxed and i came in his mouth whilst he came on my chest. It was an experience i thought i’d never like.
We cleaned up afterwards with a towel but as we both intoxicated, we drifted off to sleep on my bed, naked. I woke up the next day my head on him and he had his arm wrapped on me and mine on him (i usually sleep with hugging a bolster). I panicked at that moment, I had a GUY on my bed and he was a close friend whose my neighbour Naked. I creeped out of bed thinking my next move but nothing- i put on my clothes and headed downstairs and my first instinct was to make brekkie. He then woke up 15 minutes later but that’s probably because of the smell of the food and he was half naked. We stared at each other saying nothing. He apologised afterwards, saying he was black out drunk and wasn’t sure what he was doing but i dismissed it and said i vaguely remember it and just told him we’d never talk about it, like it never happened. I was confused myself and i didn’t want this to be an awkward thing especially since he’s my neighbour. He left afterwards and we haven’t spoken to each other until yesterday night he shoots me a message ‘Can we talk?’ and i haven’t responded. I don’t know how or what to do, I liked the experience but i’m sure as hell not sure if that makes me gay or not.
I posted this here as I was searching for people with the same thing as me (though i’d doubt it) on google, and came across the LPSG page which had forums so i thought this would be the perfect place to get someone’s opinion and advice. I’m sorry if i’ve taken your time with reading this.
