yeah, that's totally fair. i think what happened is that i'm just completly lost in my sexuality since i've developed a crush for shayne, and maybe i'm projecting my confusion in a way that caused me to assume something like this, even if it was a subconscious that i don't remember how i got to that final thought on the first place.
i really hate how off-topic i get all the time so i won't stretch this much longer but i think what caused me to do this is a pretty dumb thing. i'm in love with a man, which made me wonder if i could be sexually into other men. to think someone i find visually appealing/inspirational could also be into men just sounds like me wishing i would fall in love with another man (who could also be someone actually in my life) so i could figure myself out already.
i think this is probably what you meant by this?
there's a lot of inconsistencies to what i said that i could be discussing but this has never been about me so i can't possibly be more unnecessary. i'm just a guy that likes shayne and i'll eventually figure things out. i just feel like this is an interesting situation to help me but it's also something that i will need to avoid since it disrespects/invalidates people a lot.
