Much easier said than done. And I also don’t really understand how me saying I’d feel better with a bigger one suggests that I think I could still possibly get a bigger one. I also get the impression that you view how I feel as somewhat trivial the way you say “grieving process”, as well as suggest immaturity on my part, which I didn’t really appreciate.
I apologize if I came across that way. However, this thread is almost a year old now. I’m only curious what you’re wanting to hear after this long. I hope something helps you feel better one day.