taste your own medicine for a change. it taste good. right..? it must feel great that you found out that he didn't even want you to begin with. it must feel good that you wasted all those fertile years with him.. see you fucked up in your life and now it's a bit to late to do something about it. see i MAY be a failure in LPSG but you failed in the only place that counts and that's IRL. so yeah that happened. live with it.
What does it say about you that though you cheerfully suck cock, you prefer the company of a woman but cannot have one, certainly cannot keep one at your side caring for you every day. Oh, wait. You also failed to find a man to let you do that. What more does it say that though my husband is in denial about his sexuality, even though he is gay he has been able to attract and keep the loyalty of a woman for twelve years and counting, and you can't? I anticipate and meet his needs for nutrition, affection, pain management, and socialization, I provide support and networking to promote his career. He does the same for me. You have NOBODY like that. We do. I chose the wrong husband, but not a bad one at all. If I wanted, he would impregnate me. I do not believe a man I intend to divorce is a good choice for procreation, and so I don't ask him to join me in parenthood. It is true that I wanted to experience biological motherhood, but so have millions of other women who won't, and they aren't failures either. In life, one doesn't always get absolutely everything one wants. If someone had taught you that growing up, you might have become a man.
I own the house I live in, and two others. I have food in my pantry and fridge, comfort, three partners to explore, my best friend as my husband and co-pilot, the love and support of many other friends, some of whom are like family, a growing small business (micro-business, really, but it is brand new), and things to which to look forward. That is not a failed life.
I wonder if your mother wishes she had swallowed you.
