Sunman_Universe
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I was attracted to a Puerto Rican boy when I was much younger. Let's just say he showed me how to relax and get off. I never looked back.
I'd meet up with them for blowjobs occasionally before the lockdown but we all drifted apart and never really stayed in contact.
I wont wanna define it as my bi side but it certainly would seem so.
Whenever I watched straight porn and always focused on the guy and his cock. It was only when I focused on the woman and how she experiences pleasure during penetration and when the guy drills deep. The videos where the porn is actually sensual & erotic. That's when it gave me the itch to get curious for nearly two years. It gave me a feeling to try and that effect never left my mind until I tried. The credit goes to the videos and opened that other/bi side.
Damn dude. I’m in the exact same boatYou’re 100% correct. The older I get. The stronger the desire is getting. It’s to the point it’s eating away at me.
That said. I’m not sure my marriage is THAT open and honest....... I just don’t know.
Tell us moreDamn dude. I’m in the exact same boat
I consider myself “straight”….obviously with my addiction to jacking off to gay porn and trying to make something happen with another man…we know that’s not trueTell us more
I consider myself “straight”….obviously with my addiction to jacking off to gay porn and trying to make something happen with another man…we know that’s not true
My first thoughts were as a teen of course. I had a friend who was actually pretty effeminate, but I didn’t think much of it. We would have sleepovers and we didn’t masturbate or anything like that, but would do weird shit with our dicks. Usually after losing a bet or something. I started to, in all of my teenage horny rage, masturbate to fantasies of where our shit might go…a lot. For years. Mind you I was fantasizing more about females than him. I thought it was just a passing phase though as I had finally lost my virginity, and was getting pussy regularly. Enter the internet. A website called “We Live Together” caught my eye. It was a lesbian porn site that got me off in more ways than one! I bought a membership, and got to be a member of all of their affiliated sites for free! There was a site on there called “His First Monster”. I had never watched Gay Porn before, but the curiosity was nipping at me. I watched some AND got off. Computer then crashed. I didn’t want to take it in because I was afraid they would know it crashed because of a gay website. It wasn’t until I got a smart phone, where I could cover my tracks easier that I would ever try and watch gay porn again. And I got hooked on it. Mostly, blowjobs, handjobs, mostly guys exploring some their sexuality. I absolutely HATED myself for it. Especially coming up in a Christian upbringing. I would swear off of it, and just kept coming back. Craving it more…and more…Last winter I saw a video of the most gorgeous man stroking another man, and that gave me the itch more than anything. I NEEDED cock. I didn’t want to go on Tinder or Grindr. I didn’t (and still don’t) want to be outed. Kudos to those of you that had the balls to do so! I had a Fetlife account (by the same name as here) that I put out an ad. I wanted to at least meet someone for a JO session and see where it goes from there. I’ve talked to a few guys. Exchanged dick pics and JO vids. I still haven’t had the courage to actually meet a guy in person.
Sorry for the novel!!!
I'm one of those "older guys" that became attracted to the unique penis beauty that we possess. I always utilized my cock to attract attention from women. To my dismay, that attention dwindled as I matured into my mid fifties. Guys always admired cock ...I have been wondering if there is anything specific that opens up a straight guy to be bi. It seems like you hear a lot of guys realizing this side as they've gotten older. As a gay man, my attraction to guys has always been present.
Did you always know you like both sexes? Or, did you start experimenting with gay or bi porn and like what you see?
You are not alone my friend. Many many men have felt exactly like you......and travelled a very similar path. Don't want to see you do something that ruins or threatens your marriage.....but MM sex can be a very pleasurable and sexually satisfying experience. feeling and tasting another man....his cock...is awesome.....very very powerful......like the most natural thing in the world........good luck on your journey.....I consider myself “straight”….obviously with my addiction to jacking off to gay porn and trying to make something happen with another man…we know that’s not true
My first thoughts were as a teen of course. I had a friend who was actually pretty effeminate, but I didn’t think much of it. We would have sleepovers and we didn’t masturbate or anything like that, but would do weird shit with our dicks. Usually after losing a bet or something. I started to, in all of my teenage horny rage, masturbate to fantasies of where our shit might go…a lot. For years. Mind you I was fantasizing more about females than him. I thought it was just a passing phase though as I had finally lost my virginity, and was getting pussy regularly. Enter the internet. A website called “We Live Together” caught my eye. It was a lesbian porn site that got me off in more ways than one! I bought a membership, and got to be a member of all of their affiliated sites for free! There was a site on there called “His First Monster”. I had never watched Gay Porn before, but the curiosity was nipping at me. I watched some AND got off. Computer then crashed. I didn’t want to take it in because I was afraid they would know it crashed because of a gay website. It wasn’t until I got a smart phone, where I could cover my tracks easier that I would ever try and watch gay porn again. And I got hooked on it. Mostly, blowjobs, handjobs, mostly guys exploring some their sexuality. I absolutely HATED myself for it. Especially coming up in a Christian upbringing. I would swear off of it, and just kept coming back. Craving it more…and more…Last winter I saw a video of the most gorgeous man stroking another man, and that gave me the itch more than anything. I NEEDED cock. I didn’t want to go on Tinder or Grindr. I didn’t (and still don’t) want to be outed. Kudos to those of you that had the balls to do so! I had a Fetlife account (by the same name as here) that I put out an ad. I wanted to at least meet someone for a JO session and see where it goes from there. I’ve talked to a few guys. Exchanged dick pics and JO vids. I still haven’t had the courage to actually meet a guy in person.
Sorry for the novel!!!
You are not alone my friend. Many many men have felt exactly like you......and travelled a very similar path. Don't want to see you do something that ruins or threatens your marriage.....but MM sex can be a very pleasurable and sexually satisfying experience. feeling and tasting another man....his cock...is awesome.....very very powerful......like the most natural thing in the world........good luck on your journey.....
My first time with another man....a very considerate gay man....as we were standing together naked for my first time, belly to belly...fondling each other's cock.....he whispered in my ear, "are you sure about this? because things will never be the same after you suck my cock....or feel me inside of your ass.......you will want to fall asleep at night while sucking my cock........or spend all day thinking about me fucking your ass......because it feels so damn good......" .....I could barely speak, but nodded my head and whispered back "yes, I'm sure....I want this.....".....and he was so fucking right.....Probably add that it is highly addictive. If youre a bottom and enjoyed that experience of being penetrated and taken from behind, you will definitely crave that feeling again.
My first time with another man....a very considerate gay man....as we were standing together naked for my first time, belly to belly...fondling each other's cock.....he whispered in my ear, "are you sure about this? because things will never be the same after you suck my cock....or feel me inside of your ass.......you will want to fall asleep at night while sucking my cock........or spend all day thinking about me fucking your ass......because it feels so damn good......" .....I could barely speak, but nodded my head and whispered back "yes, I'm sure....I want this.....".....and he was so fucking right.....
If that isn’t one of the hottest things I’ve ever read…damn. The way you described him oiling your ass and easing in. I never thought I would ever want that. I kind of doBeautiful post. Very sweet and considerate of him to ask you too.
My first time when a man entered me anally, he never asked me lol. He had oiled my ass so much with warm oil via a massage, I was just in a state of total bliss and feeling so hot and sensual, totally unaware that he had lubed his dick and after poking and prodding around my hole with his dick, he eventually slowly and carefully penetrated my hole. He guided me the entire time and took the time to enjoy and savour the enjoyable experience for me.
Obviously it worked, lol. I kept coming around his place for "massages". When in reality it was so he could fuck me.